My DOC

[Laura20]

Things I must never forget: It started by making me feel good & full of energy. It made me feel I could do anything. It ended making me take more to feel normal. I started to feel I was'nt normal anyway. It made me doubt myself.  It took more & more of my energy away. I started to hate myself for the secret I held. It made me lose faith in myself. I wanted to die. I took it to get rid of pain. It caused more. Pain & suffering are part of life but so is joy & happiness. I must accept that. It is like a parasite in my mind. Willing to take over if I let it. I can never forget it because it is like a snake willing to strike if I let down my guard.I must be strong & never forget this or the power it once held.

[Laura20]

Time to do this. Took my last pill. Since I am writing this down, I feel commited to it & I am.It has to stop. Was down to 6/dy. Hopefully wd won't be too bad

[joann1975]

Laura...I love the way you put that.... I can't put stuff into words like that. I am happy you are getting your life back....you will never regret it!!
JoAnn

[worried878]

same scenario for me...made me feel bad at the end....u know we are lucky as this doesnt happen to everyone and they move to a stronger doc and still feel the high and the good feeling,,,but i thik everyone bottoms out...u dont see to may euphoric high use junkies walking around these days...good u caught it when u did

[bandnmom]

WOW!!! That is a great way of putting it!!! congrats to you for realizing this and wanting to get off these!! Good luck to you!!

[Rose703]

What you say about our DOC is so very true!! I love the Parasite anology, lol !!