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Day 1 for me ! I feel like death.
This is my 9th day free of the hydrocodone beast that had taken over my life. I was up to 50mg a day for over a year and a half. I have a legitamate knee problem that I used to get my scripts but it was all one big lie because really I just needed them to feel normal after awhile. They made me feel good and forget about all the other stuff going on in my life. Trust me if anyone is out there doing them quit now because it is a dead end street full of lies manipulation and putting your life in neutral.You may feel good doing them but it wont last trust me on that and the wds that you will go through will be the hardest thing you have ever done. I am feeling like I am getting back to normal now but I really do crave the drug and I am trying to trick myself into getting another script of them. But I have made some promises to some to whom I love much more than the beast and am going to stick it out and get through this. I have read these posts on here before and I find them so helpful to read and know there are other people out there going through the same thing. I finaly brought myslef to write one on here as I can use all of the support anyone can give me now to kick the beast forever. Anyone with any helpful information please write to me.
thanks , John
keep writing...it' seems like it is very therapeutic for you...i wish i had done that...and you are truly helping so many people..it's very important to feel like were not alone when going through this....just reading your diary makes people feel as if they are right there with you. You are so close to the light at the end of the tunnel...by tomorrow you should be feeling somewhat better....you are so close....keep posting....
Sunday 1 hours sleep, really sore, and strange dreams, am now really suffering from lack of sleep, try sleeping again breathing very hard, next thing thse cat wakes me, damm. will get up now, it's 09:45, legs really ache, but slept for an hour, legs hurt when sitting now, real pain or W/D symtoms??.64 hrs now, feel real sick and sweating.
Sunday 11:00am Went to see friend, felt a bit better and mind more focused on quitting, so cleaned car, went home ate some food, ( forced down )Felt sicky. Then for a 3 mile walk, then to shop for Radox, then home 71hrs now, going to have a long bath.Tried to sleep, no joy so went for another 3 mile walk, pain in legs gets bad.
Sunday 18;30 Had to take Terri to hospital, ( bad cut to finger ). Home at 21;00 had some food, bed at 22:00, ARMS AND LEGS DRIVING ME CRAZY,REAL BAD,got up at 23:00 went on computer, then went for a drive, home at 01:30, back to bed, and after a lot of thrashing about, holy of holies I sleep for 3 hrs, wake up and dressing gown is drenched in sweat, back to bed get another hrs sleep, then up at 07:30. It's now Monday.
Monday 0945.Am feeling a bit better now, go see boss at work to explain ( goes ok ). then have a drive round, I find I am noticing things I took for granted before, things are in much sharper focus. Although I had real bad stomach cramps, the Flu like symtoms have all but gone. Did a 3 mile walk, then cooked my dinner, watched some TV, went to bed at 22:00 no sleep, mild crazy legs/arms. up, then back to bed, slept for an hour, then legs wake me 03:67 and writing this diary update.
Hang in there! I'm proud of you! Keep posting your diary. It is very interesting.
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Dear dear chubbers, I am crying for you, it's hell and inferno, but PLEASE let me tell you, the pain is BAD, but I have somehow just stopped the lot and gone cold turkey from 80mg a day, oh boy yes it's bad, but guess what, today I have seen some great things again for the first time after 5 days in HELL, do you know what, today I have been active all the time. and done things I have not done for 18 months, noticed the small things again in sharp focus, it's worth the agony, for once you have been where we are everything is great, even the smallest thing seems fantastic, it's a new and exciting start, PLEASE PLEASE kick that ******* devil pill into touch PLEASE, I went for a walk across the fields tonight in the dark, and once out of earshot started shouting at the top of my voice, I'VE BEAT YOU YOU *******, AND LIFE FEELS GREAT AGAIN. YESSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Dear chubbers, from what I have gone through can I say that, hot baths, withsome soothing Radox powders helped me, and the more the better, I also kept fresh cloths handy, went for long walks as soon as I was able, do anything my precious to keep your mind off the aches and pains, lots of fruit juice, no tea, coffee or alcohol, and please try to eat, even if you sick it up, please eat, today is day 5 of my CT and I am still getting the Crazy arms/legs but not half as bad, and the flu symtoms seem to have almost gone, just sometimes get a wave of sickness.
I hope this helps, and my thoughts are with you, I will update my diary real soon, all the best and PLEASE keep fighting, we are all here cheering you on and will help in any way possible, if you need to get in touch just email db_jp***@****, that's an underscore after the db and before the jp.
Kick it out PLEASE.
David.
HI, I AM CURRENTLY TRYING TO TAPER FORM A 120-200MG OXYCONTIN HABIT . I HAVE TAKEN THESE STUPID PILLS FOR THE PAST YEAR AND I WANT OFF. I AM DOWN TO AN 80 A DAY BUT I CANT SEEM TO CUT DOWN FROM THAT , EVERYTIME I DO I HAVE SEVERE PANIC ATTACKS AND I ALSO HAVE THE HORRIBLE RESTLESS LEGS BUT NOT ARMS. I CANNOT SLEEP I STAY AUP AL NIGHT AN DI HAVE TROUBLE BREATHING WHICH I THINK IS FROM THE PANIC ATTACKS. I HAVE TRIED TO QUIT THIS DRUG 7 TIMES NOW AN DI ALWAYS GO BACK. I AM AT MY WITS END BC IT HAS RUINED MY MARRIAGE AND MY FAMILY. PLEASE HELP ME
Hi , I have just read that and it has made me cry, for the love of God, the poor woman, and the kids, I have asked her to read my post, this might help arm her, and will know what to expect, She will need amazing strength.
David.
Bless your heart!!! I know all too well what you are experiencing. My fiance and I were addicted to pain pills for quiet some time, doing an unbelievable amount - using methods we never imagined. To shorten it...we ended up at the methadone clinic...now we must face that demon. We have detoxed from 110mg in Aug.'07, today we dosed at 27mg. Our last dose eill be March 6...and counting. Just think...by then you will feel amazing (compared to now). You are so strong...this is a debilitating addiction - like I never imagined...but it can be beat - You are beating it every second...you are closer and closer to normality!
Hang in there - keep posting! You can do this...we are all here for you.
Please help a woman named HURTIN MOTHER she just posted needs advise....she's helping her daughter and her boyfriend detox from oxy's this weekend....she needs to know what to expect and how to prepare....thanks! :)
Hi and thanks for your kind words, you say 2 weeks, had most of your symtoms gone by then, and did you have what I like to call 'crazy legs'.
No wonder they call it kicking the habit, I was kicking the quilt all over the place, even tried standing on my head.
David.
Thank you for all your kind words, I am keeping the diary to help others on this ******* drug, and to warn others what to expect, I have to type more, and will post, but today is Monday 21;00 25/02/08 and I think some light is shining at the end of that tunnel called 'NORMALITY'.
Thank you all Thankyou.
David ( Oxykicker ).
Keep posting it takes time to WD from this drug. I'm clean almost a year and it was heck I remember it well. When I read post like yours it keeps me in line and this is why I will never use another opiate unless I'm having surgery or some emergency. You will get to a better place I promise. It took me 2 weeks to feel any better so just hang in there.
My husband is on Prednisone has been since Christmas. He has never taken more than a advil in his life. He was diagnosied with sever ulcerative colitis.The Prednisone has him so bloated and his joints ache. He is slowly weaning off of it now.
He only let them give him pain meds for 3 of the 7 days in the hospital. He has some here for emergency but he will not take them. He knows what they can do to a person.
Keep psting....you are getting very close to feeling better...hang in there
Wow, I feel almost the same right now. But not even close to your symptoms. I hate this feeling of going crazy, this feeling of intensity without reality...
Lots of luck, I am praying for you....
CGR
I thank my lucky stars I didn't get on Oxycontin, but I wanted to....just before I quit Oxycodone I was trying to plan a way to convince my doctors I needed oxycontin....my withdrawls were bad, very bad, but i didn't have the yawns, watering eyes, or RLS.....sounds horrid....I'm so sorry.