My mind imprisons me

[Sam666Yeager]

What are some ways to help severe anxiety/panic attacks? I can't even leave my house and I'm barely 17.. I will get ready to go out with my girlfriend/friends/family, by the time I'm done getting ready, I'll notice something wrong. Something like my eyelashes being clumpy, bra is uncomfortable, it can be anything, and BAM, I can't breathe, my hands shake, I start crying and can hardly stand due to my legs wobbling, I yell at anyone who even talks to me and I can't pull myself together for hours. It triggers my cravings for heroin. That's when everything gets worse and all I can think about is how much I didn't care about anything when I was browned out.. I try to focus on the screwed up things I did when I was on drugs, and how they ruined my life, but then the thoughts of how good it made me feel about my ****** up life and how I was always calm and had a real smile on my face, something I've only experience while intoxicated. The only person that can calm me down is my girlfriend. This process repeats every single time I try to go out, wether it's to the mall, beach, the gas station or even to the sidewalk in front of my house.. The lack of sleep doesn't help. I've considered checking myself in multiple times, but my parents refuse to allow it.

[nursegirl6572]

You definitely need to address the anxiety with a professional, even if on an outpatient basis.  You said you only had a "real" smile when you were using.  I hate to break it to you, but that wasn't "real".  Once you address your anxiety, and continue your recovery, you'll be able to experience a "real" smile.  Remember, using is NOT an option.  It will only complicate your life a million times over.

Talk with a trusted adult who can help you get help!  Best to you!

[ActingBrandNew]

" I've considered checking myself in multiple times, but my parents refuse to allow it. "

Since your 17 is there a school counselor you can talk to about this since your parents aren't helping? You are definitely in danger of relapsing and I feel for you. I was doing heroin at your age too and it led me to a lot of prison time and misery. It would be nice if you can get the help you need at that age.

[kellygirll]

aw honey i feel for you anxiety is an awful thing but you can't go back to using you are so young to have been thru so much already you do need some type of help tho can you go to a therapist?  can you go to NA meetings? you need something  you are in danger of relapsing maybe your girlfriend that can calm you down can go to an NA meeting with you check your area for one and get your butt there asap lol best of luck to you i will be thinking of you