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My story in a nut shell...
I am a 37 year old married mother of 3 wonderful children. My addiction started when I broke my ankle last feb. I am allergic to all kinds of pain pills but lortabs will kill me within hours. Perc's will make me sick and give me hives but that is the course my dr took only 5/325 to start then I rebroke it and the pain was the worst so I was upped to 10's because by then I had a tolerance for them. when the pain and meds were gone I was fine just aches on cold rainy weather. My cousin decided to go to a pain clinic for his back and he was givin perc 15's and 30's it started as cutting a 15 in half on bad days then progressed to half of a 30 3 times a day. The reason I want to share my story is I am prone to seizures and had no clue that w/d's would trigger one heck I didnt even think I had problem at such a low dose that is until my cousin's brother died of xanex overdose and he decided that he was going to a methadone clinic and he was the only one I was getting the pills from so I had to go cold turkey and that is when I realized I'm an addict plain and simple the withdrawls were hell on earth and thank god my seizure was mild but now I have weeks of recovering from a seizure not only the pills. All I want people to know is for some of us one pill is too much I will never again be able to take a prescribed pain pill or there is a real possibility I will lose my life. God saw fit in his mercy to keep me alive and I will do everything I can to help any and everyone. This is day 5 and I am so glad I can say I'm alive I feel ok and tomorrow will come. :)
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Good Story! I am really happy that you made it thru w/d's especially with the seizure. Those are so scary. My friend had them for years, she never found out why and one day they just quit, but it scares me because she is really addicted to pills. I dont know how many she takes now (she quit calling me a few years back), she's at the point where she just takes her pills and sleep all the time :( not good. Plus shes a grandma and has custody of 2 of her grandkids and is also trying to get 2 more of them because her daughter can't quit drugs. ugh. long story,
I just wanted to tell my story, its a long one but i'll make it shorter. stop reading now if you don't wanna read it lol..
My parents were wonderful, I would not trade them for the world. They were alcoholics. They were never mean or abusive in any way to any of us (3 kids). I had a great childhood, the party was always at our house. Block parties all the time, fish frys, you name it, it happened at our house, All the adults would sit outside almost every day and drink while us kids (we had 32 kids all approx the same age) played in the street, any sport, it was being played. I had a great time. My parents died 8 months apart from cirrhosis. 1992. I sure miss them,
Well, when I was 15 I started drinking with them. We would go to bars, or just even sit outside at home. Beer only. I drank plenty of it. And still managed to graduate high school. 10th grade I was introduced to pot. Smoked heaps of it. Quit it when I was 32, just got tired of smoking it. That's a whole other drug story, I do believe it is a medicinal herb, I personally believe it helps millions with various ailments.
Met 1st husband 19 years old, we tried coke, acid, various other drugs. Did occasionally but never every day...He was addicted mentally to marijuana though.
During this time, I quit drinking because he didnt drink and I never could drink alone.
So for 20 years till I was 39, I didnt drink. We grow apart, Are still good friends though. I start drinking again. Not a whole lot, but pretty steady.
Met 2nd husband, 9 years ago-he drinks. We drink every day together for first 3 or 4 years of relationship-I had to quit because I was getting bad stomach pains, back pains, dr. says it is alcohol induced gastritis, OK so I quit. I was feeling jealous of him because he could drink and I couldn't. Strange feeling. So, I go to dr. for pain (chronic since 1996-had some surgeries, etc,,) I get vicodin 5/500...take as directed for a few years. Meanwhile, he hurts back, goes to dr. also for pain meds. No problem. We are getting lortab 10/750 240 together a week, We take as directed for couple years. His tolerance builds up, mine never did. If I took more than 4 a day I would get sick. He starts to take at least 10 a day, then more and more, he's taking up to 15 or so a day. Well I finally try to build my tolerance ??? why I did that I'll never know. The most I took on any one day was 12-and still got sick. So we are going through heaps of pills, dr. hopping, buying from our connections, paying out lots of money. Got to be over 3000 a month. Way too much money. But still don't quit because of the money. He has to take hair follicle tests for work. So he quits. Well, I can't do them anymore either, wouldn't be fair right? So we both quit. This man has an MRI that is 2 pages long, all his discs are ruptured, torn, nerve damage, etc. He works 7 days, 12 hour days and never complains about this back pain, It amazes me. If he didn't have to take these urinalysis, we would probably still be on pain meds. The thing I noticed though, being off of them, is that my pain is bearable, matter of fact-I seem to have had more pain when I was using pills than I do now. I've read about it, and it seems that the brain on pills tells you that you need more, the pain is bad, take more pills...it just amazes me how that brain works. Sure I still have pain, my elbows have both been operated on, 2 carpal tunnel surgeries, numerous injections in neck, shoulders. But I am not in that much pain since I've been off pills. I just find it so much more bearable without pain medication.
Sorry to make such a long story. I guess I was trying to say that I came from an addictive family history, became an alcoholic, drug user, pain med. user, and now I can't do any of it anymore, but I really don't miss it....took me to get to 48 years old to say that. But I do enjoy waking up every day and not thinking "what am I gonna take today" or "whats my DOC to do today"? I just take my vitamins and motrin and hit the ground runnin... LOL
Hope you aren't too bored :)
Good luck to you all, have a wonderful day too!!
I just wanted to tell my story, its a long one but i'll make it shorter. stop reading now if you don't wanna read it lol..
My parents were wonderful, I would not trade them for the world. They were alcoholics. They were never mean or abusive in any way to any of us (3 kids). I had a great childhood, the party was always at our house. Block parties all the time, fish frys, you name it, it happened at our house, All the adults would sit outside almost every day and drink while us kids (we had 32 kids all approx the same age) played in the street, any sport, it was being played. I had a great time. My parents died 8 months apart from cirrhosis. 1992. I sure miss them,
Well, when I was 15 I started drinking with them. We would go to bars, or just even sit outside at home. Beer only. I drank plenty of it. And still managed to graduate high school. 10th grade I was introduced to pot. Smoked heaps of it. Quit it when I was 32, just got tired of smoking it. That's a whole other drug story, I do believe it is a medicinal herb, I personally believe it helps millions with various ailments.
Met 1st husband 19 years old, we tried coke, acid, various other drugs. Did occasionally but never every day...He was addicted mentally to marijuana though.
During this time, I quit drinking because he didnt drink and I never could drink alone.
So for 20 years till I was 39, I didnt drink. We grow apart, Are still good friends though. I start drinking again. Not a whole lot, but pretty steady.
Met 2nd husband, 9 years ago-he drinks. We drink every day together for first 3 or 4 years of relationship-I had to quit because I was getting bad stomach pains, back pains, dr. says it is alcohol induced gastritis, OK so I quit. I was feeling jealous of him because he could drink and I couldn't. Strange feeling. So, I go to dr. for pain (chronic since 1996-had some surgeries, etc,,) I get vicodin 5/500...take as directed for a few years. Meanwhile, he hurts back, goes to dr. also for pain meds. No problem. We are getting lortab 10/750 240 together a week, We take as directed for couple years. His tolerance builds up, mine never did. If I took more than 4 a day I would get sick. He starts to take at least 10 a day, then more and more, he's taking up to 15 or so a day. Well I finally try to build my tolerance ??? why I did that I'll never know. The most I took on any one day was 12-and still got sick. So we are going through heaps of pills, dr. hopping, buying from our connections, paying out lots of money. Got to be over 3000 a month. Way too much money. But still don't quit because of the money. He has to take hair follicle tests for work. So he quits. Well, I can't do them anymore either, wouldn't be fair right? So we both quit. This man has an MRI that is 2 pages long, all his discs are ruptured, torn, nerve damage, etc. He works 7 days, 12 hour days and never complains about this back pain, It amazes me. If he didn't have to take these urinalysis, we would probably still be on pain meds. The thing I noticed though, being off of them, is that my pain is bearable, matter of fact-I seem to have had more pain when I was using pills than I do now. I've read about it, and it seems that the brain on pills tells you that you need more, the pain is bad, take more pills...it just amazes me how that brain works. Sure I still have pain, my elbows have both been operated on, 2 carpal tunnel surgeries, numerous injections in neck, shoulders. But I am not in that much pain since I've been off pills. I just find it so much more bearable without pain medication.
Sorry to make such a long story. I guess I was trying to say that I came from an addictive family history, became an alcoholic, drug user, pain med. user, and now I can't do any of it anymore, but I really don't miss it....took me to get to 48 years old to say that. But I do enjoy waking up every day and not thinking "what am I gonna take today" or "whats my DOC to do today"? I just take my vitamins and motrin and hit the ground runnin... LOL
Hope you aren't too bored :)
Good luck to you all, have a wonderful day too!!
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