Narcotic Dependency or Physical Dependency?

Hi All,

This is my thrid day going from taking 6-8 vicodin per day for more than two years to none. I guess part of my frustration is that it was not by choice. My parmacist refused to refill my prescription 3 days early from the exact 30 day mark and it was the long week-end so I couldn't even call my doctor.

When I first started taking a narcotic I was worried about addiction and my doctor explained to me that there was a difference between someone who was a drug addict and someone who was physically dependent because of chronic pain. What a bunch of ____ no- one else seems to believe this, even if the medical board has codes supposidly protecting people so they recieve adequate care. I feel like I've been treated so crappy by my pharmacist, and this is not the first time. I changed pharmacies and filed complaints because they would continually re-send my script back to the doctor for various things that I'd never heard of seemingly to make it harder, and make me feel humiliated.

The thing that really has brought me to tears more than the withdrawls, has been that I finally felt better than I have in years and was able to start working out and getting strong. This is a helpless feeling to know that there is no safetly window and if you need one more pill some days and run out three days early it's just...so what, deal with it loser.

Now I feel like it is just a matte of deciding to be in pain, bed-ridden when necessary and not live that life I thought I could get back. I should say that I have fibromyalgia, and calcified tendonitis in one shoulder and arm. The fibromyalgia can actually be enough to disable a person the way it creates mucscle pain. The meds helped me work through it to the point I thought i would get stronger and stronger. Now I think it is- be treated like ****, be an addict, or be disabled and deal with that reality.

It just dosen't seem there is any place for people who are in pain but not dying. And the disconnect between doctors and pharmacists is huge. Plus because of all the abuse, instead of taking 2 oxycontin a day, I'm given 6 hydrocodone that don't work.  I am sorry for all the venting. It's just after the last three days its been hard and tommorow I go to the doctor and it is the magic number 30 for my pharmasict and I feel like never taking another pill in my life or risk loosing all dignity.

[Artin]

I would go with not taking another  pill in your life.  Just my opinion.  I am an addict for a long time.  Dignity.....aahhh   What a delightful word.

Good luck keep us posted.  Creek  

~Peace