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Need advice on aftercare
Hey guys!! Been here several times.. I'm going to quit being stubborn & I'm finally ready & willing to try meetings!! That's the one thing I haven't tried even though all of you have suggested it. I'm ready for aftercare though!!
I've been back & forth for the past 6 years or so taking anything from hydrocodone, percocet, methadone, etc. I've got off methadone 2 different times after being on them, I guess about a year straight both times.. SUCKED SO BAD!! I actually just recently got off of it back in October. I start off so determined & end up saying screw it & start back after a little while. This time I haven't been steadily using since that methadone withdrawal in October. I haven't even been using the methadone ((I REFUSE to ever take it again)) I've been using hydros or percs. Not everyday use though. For instance, I used last Thursday 30mg, then again Monday 50 mg, & now today (Friday) 30mg.. Yes I know I'M TOURTURING MYSELF!! I take just enough to keep me in a viscous cycle but not enough to make me really bad physically.
Since I haven't been taking them daily I don't really have withdrawal symptoms.. I'm able to sleep all night so that should tell you how mild they are. Usually sleeping if you're in withdrawal is horrible & impossible. I've been there many times. I do have very mild sweating, sneezing & typical withdrawal symptoms but nothing like I've experienced before. It's my mind that's really always screwing w me. Today I was feeling good. I didn't really have much energy but my mood was alright if that makes any sense?! I think I'm just a depressed person.. That was the whole reason I started these things in the first place.
Soooo today I was doing pretty good. I had my number changed a while back so no one with drugs would have it.. & what do you know... One of my old connections wrote me on facebook saying they had them. It's so hard to turn them down when it catches me off guard like that. I didn't write back for about an hour bc I wasn't going to get them BUT I said "f**k it" once again. I know I wouldn't have went looking for them.. I didn't want them!! Until I know they are there & it's so easy to drive up the road to get them.
Anyways.. I don't think I'll be physically sick from taking them but mentally (which is the worst part) it's prob gonna mess with me for a couple of days.. Basically I AM READY FOR AFTERCARE!! I have to at least try it!
I have a few questions though..
When everyone talks about aftercare, is it just NA meetings or are there other forms of after care that work??
What do you say your first time going?? Like how does it work? I'm nervous about making the first step & actually walking in for the first time while everyone stares at me bc I'm "the new girl" or something. Lol. I'm such a people person but while trying to get off pills I'm so self conscious & nervous talking to people I don't know.
Can I take someone with me? Like husband, mom or grandmother??
Will they call me out in front of everyone to speak the first time I go?
What do people talk about every single day at these meetings?? Obviously addiction but how does the meeting start, etc??
I know it's probably the craziest questions & I'm letting myself get too worked up over it but I just have no clue how these things work! I really want to try it though & just need to know a little of what to expect
I've been back & forth for the past 6 years or so taking anything from hydrocodone, percocet, methadone, etc. I've got off methadone 2 different times after being on them, I guess about a year straight both times.. SUCKED SO BAD!! I actually just recently got off of it back in October. I start off so determined & end up saying screw it & start back after a little while. This time I haven't been steadily using since that methadone withdrawal in October. I haven't even been using the methadone ((I REFUSE to ever take it again)) I've been using hydros or percs. Not everyday use though. For instance, I used last Thursday 30mg, then again Monday 50 mg, & now today (Friday) 30mg.. Yes I know I'M TOURTURING MYSELF!! I take just enough to keep me in a viscous cycle but not enough to make me really bad physically.
Since I haven't been taking them daily I don't really have withdrawal symptoms.. I'm able to sleep all night so that should tell you how mild they are. Usually sleeping if you're in withdrawal is horrible & impossible. I've been there many times. I do have very mild sweating, sneezing & typical withdrawal symptoms but nothing like I've experienced before. It's my mind that's really always screwing w me. Today I was feeling good. I didn't really have much energy but my mood was alright if that makes any sense?! I think I'm just a depressed person.. That was the whole reason I started these things in the first place.
Soooo today I was doing pretty good. I had my number changed a while back so no one with drugs would have it.. & what do you know... One of my old connections wrote me on facebook saying they had them. It's so hard to turn them down when it catches me off guard like that. I didn't write back for about an hour bc I wasn't going to get them BUT I said "f**k it" once again. I know I wouldn't have went looking for them.. I didn't want them!! Until I know they are there & it's so easy to drive up the road to get them.
Anyways.. I don't think I'll be physically sick from taking them but mentally (which is the worst part) it's prob gonna mess with me for a couple of days.. Basically I AM READY FOR AFTERCARE!! I have to at least try it!
I have a few questions though..
When everyone talks about aftercare, is it just NA meetings or are there other forms of after care that work??
What do you say your first time going?? Like how does it work? I'm nervous about making the first step & actually walking in for the first time while everyone stares at me bc I'm "the new girl" or something. Lol. I'm such a people person but while trying to get off pills I'm so self conscious & nervous talking to people I don't know.
Can I take someone with me? Like husband, mom or grandmother??
Will they call me out in front of everyone to speak the first time I go?
What do people talk about every single day at these meetings?? Obviously addiction but how does the meeting start, etc??
I know it's probably the craziest questions & I'm letting myself get too worked up over it but I just have no clue how these things work! I really want to try it though & just need to know a little of what to expect
Hey girl congrats on your clean time and for me N/A has been the magic bullet it is the only program that treats the addict in side your head the new comer is the most important person in the meeting because we cant keep it unless we give it away you will feel right at home if you decide to share the people there will understand unlike the deer in the headlight stair you get from ''normies'' go with a open mind and go to a few meetings b/4 you decide if it is for you for me it was a great relief you will be plesenlty surprised keep posting for support and let us know how it goes..............Gnarly
AA, NA, Celebrate Recovery, Bounce around till you find a place you can call home
NA is my home and Monday i will have 365 days clean in a ROW!!
It works only if you are willing and it sounds like you may be ready
I was scared to death but i did what I was told most the time, no rules just suggestions
and now 363 days later I am still here and they became my family
NA is my home and Monday i will have 365 days clean in a ROW!!
It works only if you are willing and it sounds like you may be ready
I was scared to death but i did what I was told most the time, no rules just suggestions
and now 363 days later I am still here and they became my family
Hi and good morning! I understand "just a few more" I did that battle in my mind for the last year before I quit! But it was never just one more....I always ended up right back in the same place!! When I finally got sick and tired of it I just jumped! I was scared of WDs and of what my life would be like without my monster friend and I was scared of meetings too!!! But life is so much better now!! And I have discovered that none of my fears were as bad as I had them built up in my head to be!!!
Go to a meeting and just try it out! You will find that the people are more like you than you can imagine!!!! You dont have to talk if you dont want to!!! Just go and listen and who knows you may find yourself raising your hand! It sometimes feels good just to be able to dump it all somewhere safe!!!!
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!!
Go to a meeting and just try it out! You will find that the people are more like you than you can imagine!!!! You dont have to talk if you dont want to!!! Just go and listen and who knows you may find yourself raising your hand! It sometimes feels good just to be able to dump it all somewhere safe!!!!
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!!
I prefer NAMI support groups to AA in my city anyway.
It's going to be about the people. If you relate to them.
If they understand you.
The level of respect. Most of us ( drug users) also have mental weakness.
I always think it's a good idea to be evaluated by a psychiatrist.
Some of the meds can keep you safe and off other more harmful drugs you are attempting to stay away from for good.
It's going to be about the people. If you relate to them.
If they understand you.
The level of respect. Most of us ( drug users) also have mental weakness.
I always think it's a good idea to be evaluated by a psychiatrist.
Some of the meds can keep you safe and off other more harmful drugs you are attempting to stay away from for good.
Hey girl, I remember your name. Good to see you.
Ah yes, the good old "I don't want them but eff it..." that one will always bring you back to zero.
Okay, since you know a lot of the drill I'm gonna be direct. First, "unfriend" that facebook person. And any others that even may have them. Second make sure you have absolutely ZERO access to pills, or this won't work. Third, I did exactly what you did: detoxed any then started taking "a few." Guess where that took me? I wouldn't give a sh!t about the wds, your focus needs to be recovery.
Which brings me to... okay, yes you are over-analyzing because you want to control the outcome. What do they talk about? Themselves and you'll see what else. You can bring whoever you want to the mtg but it's totally not necessary, no one will bite you. They ask if there are any newcomers. You can raise your hand and say your first name if you want. (You should) No one will stare at you. No one cares, they are thinking about there OWN recovery. It's all peeps like you in there. Not a bunch of aliens.
Honey, just go. Pick one and go. Isn't it amazing that we would get drugs from God knows who, but walking into a safe room full of people trying to get better is scary? That makes no sense!
It's late so folks are sleeping, so I'm sure more posts later. But don't disappear, kay?
Ah yes, the good old "I don't want them but eff it..." that one will always bring you back to zero.
Okay, since you know a lot of the drill I'm gonna be direct. First, "unfriend" that facebook person. And any others that even may have them. Second make sure you have absolutely ZERO access to pills, or this won't work. Third, I did exactly what you did: detoxed any then started taking "a few." Guess where that took me? I wouldn't give a sh!t about the wds, your focus needs to be recovery.
Which brings me to... okay, yes you are over-analyzing because you want to control the outcome. What do they talk about? Themselves and you'll see what else. You can bring whoever you want to the mtg but it's totally not necessary, no one will bite you. They ask if there are any newcomers. You can raise your hand and say your first name if you want. (You should) No one will stare at you. No one cares, they are thinking about there OWN recovery. It's all peeps like you in there. Not a bunch of aliens.
Honey, just go. Pick one and go. Isn't it amazing that we would get drugs from God knows who, but walking into a safe room full of people trying to get better is scary? That makes no sense!
It's late so folks are sleeping, so I'm sure more posts later. But don't disappear, kay?
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