Need help in explaining myself!

[bandnmom]

hi everyone. So as most of you know i am going threw alot of oral surgery work. Its alot to deal with and hurts a whole heck of alot. Anyway, yesterday i had to be stiched back up again due to when all the swelling went down the 1st set starting popping out left and right. Therefore everything busted back open. Gross yes. I still have more major work to come also. So my question to all of you. Maybe you can help me explain myself better. I am in pain but i am trying to just do the Advil route. I was on pain meds for the first week or so but i stopped. I have 1 more left here and i can pick up another RX for them. I did very well taking them. Actually less then directed. Today someone asked me why not just take the pain meds. They said i shouldnt suffer. Which i do agree with but I am scared to be hoenst with you. Yes i did great with taking them and not abusing them but didnt we all in the beginning? Isnt that how we got to were we are at?  I know i am alot stronger now then i was 8 months ago but the thought is still there. i have come so far and i dont want anything to happen. make sense or am i just being silly? Help me to explain it in a way that makes sense.

[Xandria]

I'd be afraid as well....good luck on whatever you decide, and I hope you don't suffer too much :)

[scaredmom330]

I agree you should not suffer, have  someone else give you the meds as prescribed if you are afraid you will abuse them, don't hurt for no reason, just don't backslide. I'm here for you.


God Bless
Karen

[cocobeanlisa]

i am not sure what you want to explain, but if it's why you do not want  
to take the pain pills just sya Thank you for your concern however I have
a low tolerance to pain meds and they effect me funny.

That will most likely answer the persons question.  and if they persist
tell them that you do not like them and the way they make ou feel.  

That's the truth right ?

and yes I agree with you, that's how I got here.  I start out needing the pills
and took them as directed and at the end I was abusing them.

So I hope I never need them again.  I live with chroinc level 8 pain and I
do everything I can to stay off of the pain meds.

Hang in there and good luck with the oral stuff (denisit s**k)

cocobean

[dominosarah]

Dont let yourself suffer.  Can you give the pills to anyone?  Pain pills are for pain not recreational use.  Im sure this is weighing really heavy on you so it is good you posted.  I wish i had the answer for you.  Im sure we will all be faced with that dilemma at some point.  Im not pushing the pills by any means but if you are suffering that isnt good.  We are here for in whatever you decide. I hope you feel better soon.        sara

[wanttobeclean]

My guess is that when you have had enough of the pain, you'll take one.  Unless it is so bad that you aren't sleeping, eating or doing things that need to get done, I'd try to avoid them too.  But remember...I'm just 10 days clean and would rather eat my husbands' dirty gym socks right now that take another gd pill!!

That's me...but whatever you decide, make sure it's YOU deciding.  And lean on that wonderful hubby of yours...I'm sure he'd help keep you on target here.

Good luck and hope you feel better really soon!

[sadinmichigan]

Jen you had major major surgery. i know you are doing very good with the meds. I know your scared and you should keep a healthy fear. I know you probably can't give them to anyone to hold so just fill a little at a time. you can get seriously just 10 at a time. but as far as explaining..is it to someone that didn't know you were addicted?..I just know your going to be fine. you will know the first and for sure by the 2nd time you take them if they weren't needed..I'm so sorry you have to go through all this. Stay afraid of those pills. i think that will be your best assest. Hope you can talk again sometime.lol i miss calling..LOL HUGS Lisa

[worried878]

i know for me the pain meds would not work at a prescribed dose for pain...my tolerence did not go away...i had quit a while back and even after months my tolerence was there...so 4 lortabs a day wouldnt put a dent in any pain i have anymore...maybe for a day or 2 then my receptors wake up and i need more LOL (:  COL ): ....u need to do what u need to do...just because we are addicts does not mean we have to suffer from surgeries and stuff.....if u can control it..then i would take them...but i can see why u r nervous about it...worrying about it can almost be as painful as the pain itself....dont know...i probably would not unless i just could not stand it because when i take them for my back after a procedure...it is like it does a psychological number on me....but we are all different....and what is good for me may not be good for u....there will come a time when many of us will be given narcotics for something..and we will have to handle it

[kim715]

I had to deal with this issue just weeks into getting clean.I made 2 trips to the ER within a weeks time and was diagnosed with diverticulitis.The first time I was so afraid of the pain meds I flat out refused to let them give me anything,neither there or to take home.The second time the pain had gotten so bad that my vitals were all out of whack and they insisted that they needed to get my pain under control.Not that I would have fought them on that second trip.I was hurting and I couldn't take the pain anymore.They gave me pain meds there and sent me home with a script of vicodin,which was my DOC once upon a time.Again I was so worried I didn't fill the script for the first 2 days,but the pain was so bad I couldn't function.So I filled it,gave it to my son to lock up and be in control of .I took it until I could handle the pain with the OTC meds and then happily flushed the rest.Please don't let yourself suffer.I think being afraid is a good thing,it helped me to keep my guard up.I wasn't ready to be in charge of my own pain meds.Maybe I never will trust myself again when it comes to NEEDING to take pain meds,but I know what to do about that now.I will keep you in my prayers.I hope you feel better real soon.Much love......Kim

[joann1975]

don't suffer... if your pain is that bad take them... when it subsides flush the rest... i know you are in pain if you have stitches in your mouth! you could do like SIM said and fill 10 at a time... that may be all you need..

best of luck....I will UPS you some chicken soup this time and flowers!

[Rose703]

Don't let yourself suffer! I believe the fear is healthy and will keep you from abusing if you can just ask yourself every single time that you take one, "is the pain bad enough that I have to take this." You will know in your heart and mind what the true answer is and you should take a pain pill if it's needed. You did great with the first RX, even taking less than prescribed, so I honestly believe you will do the same this time.

[lady67]

Any doctor will tell you that once the pain gets too bad, it is almost unmanageable.  I remember when I had my sinus surgery (way before my problem), I told the ENT that I had never taken pain meds before, and he said to begin taking as soon as I could after the surgery.  He told me that if the pain got to a certain point, the meds really wouldn't help anyway.

I agree you shouldn't suffer, but you need to do what is best for your situation.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Have you tried Ibuprofen 800mg? The dentist can prescribe it every 8hr.
It is very effective for me, otherwise use the pain meds until this tooth clears up. Teeth pain is horrible. Just be careful, we want to continue sharing the same clean date. Lmao.

[mimi1313]

Jen,

I can't say anything that hasn't been said. I know its hard to have that kind of surgery and deal with the pain. But you have a respect for the hold the drug has on you and that is so important. You need to have that.
I really hope you feel better but if you are in pain(and I know you are) please don't suffer. I know that you can do this responsibly.

Good luck,
Melissa

[bandnmom]

Wow! Thanks everyone for the support. I have been doin 800mg od dvil and it helps sometimes. I stillonly can eat pudding and such. Its just so hard especially knwoing that there is more to come. Yes the person who asked me knows of my addiction. Is very supportive of me to. i s an addict themselves but not with pills. I know all addictions are the same but no one can understand the hold your individual DOC has on you unless that is also their DOC. Make sense? Thats my opinion anyway.
Wanttobeclean...i dont know who u were talking to about the wonderful hubby but i am sure its not me. LOL! We are going threw a divorce and he is totally not supportive. He would never hold my pills. Im sure hes just waiting for me to fail.
I know i can do this and i did so good with it a few weeks ago but i like i said, that is how i got here. I just have to keep the faith in myself and know that i dont have to suffer. I have grown for this experience and i am alot stronger. I have said NO so many times since i quit. Its just scary! I will learn from this experience to.
GTMI...i have no intentions of letting you hold that date all to yourself. Promise.

[gizzy32]

i think the fear of abusing pills again is a good thing. since i was never into pills, i can't imagine needing them for legit pain and then not being able to take them, scary. you do not have to suffer, but if you can continue to take the 800mg advil then do so as long as you can. you have done great and should be very proud of yourself.  im sorry your in pain

[wannabefree330]

When someone asks me why I don't just take the pills, or get the script and save for later or whatever, I tell them my body doesn't react well to them.  Or that I have a mild allergy to them (not completely untrue?).  Don't feel you owe anyone an explanation though.  Just know that your medical issues are your business and nobody elses unless you wish to share it.

[wannabefree330]

Not really on the topic of your question, but if you get some regular tea bags, soak them then put them in the freezer--you can take one out and place it on the area.  It helps control the bleeding AND will help numb the area.  Doesn't get deep down, but for surface area works well.  Hope it helps.  Hang in there and great job on your minimal usage! be VERY proud of yourself

[wanttobeclean]

I'm so, so sorry.  (And embarassed).  I thought I had read a post from you about the support you were getting from him.  10000 apologies.  Sorry about the divorce, the lack of support...and most of all the pain you're in.  

  

[bandnmom]

LOL!!! thats ok! i have great support from others! yourself included! thanks for the apology but really none needed!!