Need help?

[JayFive]

I worked as a counselor and adviser for Teen Challenge. I have helped many people get a way from drugs but have recently relapsed. I am very educated in opiate detox and addiction. If anyone feels the need to ask questions or just vent feel free. I'm all ears! I think that helping others and staying accountable will  help me as well. Thank You all! God Bless!

[JayFive]

yes. onward and upward only. I'm amazed at how positive everyone is here. I mean, when i was here in 2010 it was just the same, so i'm not shocked but pleasantly at ease with it all. I went back to church this evening and told some mentors that I need to return to San Francisco. i currently live in the east bay and San Francisco is where I had my most sober time. Helping others and being a part of some really great things. I went on a missions trip to Ecuador. I'm in complete agreement that in order for me to help anyone I must be sound and sober. for a while. so thats where i'm at today. Tomorrow i'm at 5mg of methadone and then done. I'll then wait atleast 72 hours before trying the little bit of suboxone i have. If i need it. is there any advice you can give me to help me get through these next days at work? i'm scared it won't go well. but fear is not relevant, i must overcome that and just know it will suck but it is possible. I've done it before.

[VICourageous]

I think I talked to you in a post you did here back..Lost it somewhere...Anyway hang in there do not beat your self up. Just as you should know tie the boot strings and step forward and do not look back.
God Bless u
vickie

[toothfairie]

Just wanted to lend my support. Glad you came back and posted. As you you it takes work but you can do it!

[dominosarah]

No it isnt easy being sleazy but it is much easier to be off that roller coaster.  There is nothing we can do to make our families understand but our actions do speak louder than words.  Make you the No 1 priority, no matter what and do whatever it takes to stay clean.

[EvolverU]

Hi! Welcome & Congrats on coming to the site. I know it's good to stay accountable & it helps to help others but I agree w/ the above posters..in essence you've got to "put on your own oxygen mask before you can help others" - as I'm sure you know. So far, your story resonates w/ me. I know several ex-addicts who became counselors & relapsed. Please, could you tell us a little bit about what's going on w/ you - that way we'll all benefit more.

                   Wishing you success

[OpenMind24hours]

JayFive, great that you help as a volunteer! But are you participating in your own recovery? Are you active in a program of recovery to help yourself not to struggle?

[JayFive]

Great question. I'm struggling. My family doesn't understand. Which is ok, I'm the first to be addicted to opiates. They are alcohol. Thanks for asking.

I go back from time to time, to my old job. To say hello and see everyone. I'm considering returning. I have a job now, my own place college courses a car and a season pass to a few resorts in Tahoe. I do however still have my hang ups. Drugs and cigarettes. It's not easy bein sleezy. How are you?

[dominosarah]

What are you doing for your aftercare?