Need support

[sickteach]

Today is day 6 and luckily I am on spring break.  Physically feeling better but now my brain is killing me.  I too am having horrible dreams and trouble sleeping.  My mind is telling me get your refill and all of this will go away.  Today is the 1st day I can refill my meds since I made the right decision to become sober.  Please God help me to keep going down the right road.  Any kind words or prayers would be appreciated!

[sickteach]

Thanks to everyone for their prayers!  I am NOT going to refill any scripts!  I too never want to go through this again! I still don't feel good and my emotions are all over the place!!!  Did make appt. with counselor for tomorrow.  Hopefully, that will help.  Thanks again!
sickteach

[IwillDoThis]

sickteach - just wanted to throw some support your way.  Yes refilling that script would give you relief from what you are feeling but then you are right back to square one again, would have to detox again - me personally, I never want to go through withdrawals again, ever.

Take advantage of this time you have to feel better - I promise you it's so worth it!  Today is day 49 (i think) for me and although I have up and down days, days I crave I just busy myself and know that I've made the choice to break the bondage of these stupid pills.

Your brain will tell you all kinds of things to get you to fill that script - just take it a moment at a time, an hour at a time whatever it takes.  You stopped for a reason so just try to focus on that, obviously the pills were not working for you and if you relapse you will be right back there again.

Courage is the strength to hang in there one more moment.....you can do this, I'll be sending prayers your way!

[Sharon0255]

Your mind will be the enemy for quite some time if you're like me. I have and endless supply and can't cut it off like some people because of my cancer diagnosis. Yes it messes with me but every day that I don't use I maintain my choice. If I take a pill no choice prison again until i either clean up or die. I'd so rather have the choice to not use and feel like crap clean then feel like crap using , your choice. Please know you're not alone and i relapsed many times, ask for help.

[bama88]

Your mind will play all kinds of tricks on you!! i urge you to cancell your script. remember one day you won't have this thought...you've came so far to turn around now.i will pray for you. stay close to rhe forum and post..when you look back at this you'll see it was a blip on the radar. i was 90 days clean and went thru a huge relapse. I can honestly say it wasn't worth it. after 7-10 days you will start to feel good again.

What i noticed about recovering addicts is we have lost alot of our self pride. self respect. self esteem. and when we quit our drugs we feel so beat up. we made our bodies toxic and toxic is not good. Time heals all wounds. im so proud of you for six days.....don't give in ok

[Skidmore]

Hang tough, and know matter what dont pick up.Move a muscle change a thought.Drink plenty of water stay connected.Those evil pills want to take over you life again .Stay posted .I will pray for you my brother

[LostNoMore]

You need to cancel that refill. It will play with your mind until you either cancel it or relapse. I hope you choose to stay clean. Take care.

[notme42long]

Teach like you I also have a high profile job I'm feeling like you right now at work. I too could of called in Refill yesterday Day 5 and 6 I thought cool this is going good. Today I'm struggling with every breath. Hang in there with me. Please. I don't know maybe it's just pity me but I feel I don't have any friends out here