New Years Resolution.... NO MORE HYDROCODONE.... I HOPE.

Hi my names Rick. Check out my "Profile" for all the fabulous info on me.... Kidding.  I guess I'm here because for the last 2 years my Hydro Codone Usage has gotten way out of control. Im currently taking 10 to 14 Hydros 10-325 PER DAY. I have gotten to the point where I KNOW IM AN ADDICT. I'm USING more to get high than to stop pain.... Though the pain is quite REAL and severe at times..... I have 2 Children I love more than life.... A VERY TOLERANT LOVING Wife of 17 years.... But Im really at my wits end..... and scared ********.... I realize I can't "Function" without the Hydros... I started taking them about 3 years ago due to three blown out discs in my neck. Comming from a LONG LINE of Alcholics (I AM NOT ONE) I guess it was a matter of time before my ADDICT GENE woke up. Well Booze is not my bag..... PILLS ARE.  I leveled with the nurse at my NuroSurgeons office and told her I HAVE TO GET OFF THIS ****.... She is "Tapering Me Down As I Type" The problem is I don't believe that tapering is going to work. I have 4 pills left and Im quite sure there will be NO REFILLS UNTIL the 3rd. The small amount of "Tapering"  I've done so far has me MORE THAN on edge.... and feeling like Im ready to RAGE at any moment.... I cant imagine going cold..... But I fear that ......Going COLD might be the only way to honestly kick this.... I dont even know why the hell Im on here at almost 5:15 am spilling my guts online..... I guess Im looking for support? My Insurance is crap... Thus I dont see any end to my chronic disc pain. So Im in a catch 22. I KNOW IM ADDICTED.... But I can feel the pain getting worse with just mild tapering.... 2010 was a very hard year for us as a family.... We lost our home, my wife lost a good job...... My stress level is MAXED..... But get this! 4 Days ago I received a Fed EX Package in the mail from Bank Of America.... They offered me a mythical Loan Mod. They Cut my Mortage from almost 2 grand a month to 955! A Christmas Miracle!! Prior to this Loan Mod.....4 months ago after 2 years of unemployed my Wife found a really good job..... So I desperately want a fresh start for 2011..... I KNOW the Hydros HAVE TO GO..... I guess Im just second guessing my fortitude. I don't ever want my kids to witness the hell of living with an addict... Like I did growing up in a Booze Infested Home.... So far Ive been very functional.... But I also realize that for about the last 6 months I cant seem to get through a days work with out the fuzzy warm STONED Feeling my Best Friend Hydo Codone gives me! So at this point Im sure your saying what the hell does this guy want?!?!!?!
I want my life back without the "HELP" of pills....... I guess I came here for suggestions..... I came here because I HAVE TO GET OFF THIS JUNK..... I need help. And I'm really afraid I'm going to fail......
Sorry For The Rant....
-Rikki

[ibtryin]

hi and welcome   first off this is doable i was at double your dosage 11 months ago. I have been clean since then. Withdrawls do $uck but its only for a short time. The hard part is staying clean. I go NA and a therapisy to stay clean. Have you gone thru withdrawls before? You have to want to get clean for you! Do you have a plan of some sort or a quit date these ate all important. You will find great support and advise here.  

[Rikki68]

Im Going to start NA After New Years Day. I DID attend a "discission" metting at AA.... (Moms Idea). As for a quit date???? Well Im SUPPOSED to get one more refill of 80 pills at half strength.... So I figure that should take approx 2 and a half weeks IF I TAPER CORRECTLY. Thanks for the Comment. And I can see already that this site is going to be my new home page.... Thank You.

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

Conrats, I believe you are thee first to make the New Year's Resolution to quit. Every year this board gets flooded with these. Not that it is not a great idea, it is. But you have to want to quit for you and you have to want to quit because you want a better life. It is going to be hard and will take a lot of work on your part but it is very doable.

Not to try and be a downer, but I think you are going to have trouble with that taper plan. I don't know too many people who can stick to the plan. You are going to feel the withdrawal as you drop your dose and, in typical addict fashion, you will want that pain to go away and we all know how you can make that happen. If you truly want to try it, then have somebody that you trust hold the pills for you and dole them out according to a set plan.

Cold turkey is another way to go. It's like ripping the band-aid off fast, or slow. If you just stop you will 4 or 5 days of flu like symptoms and then the physical will begin to go away.

I am glad you mentioned NA, or AA, because I believe you will need aftercare to stay clean. You will hear it said that getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is a life time of work.

Whatever way you decide you have some great support here. The members can give you support and also recommend some home remedies that they (I) used during withdrawal to make it a little easier. If you comb through the health pages on the right you will see The Thomas Recipe and The Amino Acid Protocol. Many members have found success with both of those as far as natural supplements.

So stick around and ask questions as you need to. Best of luck and Happy New Year!

[throwindatowl]

hey bro. You have to try and stay positive. Its pretty important. You can live without them. You dont wanna ct man, you dont. You have to for your kids. If you do have second thoughts its only the drug talking. Stay strong the first couple days just are no fun at all. Tons of good info here. Its time for a new start bro. Im comming of a little stumble after 30 days clean. Keep that guard up. You can do it.

[wannabfre2b]

Hey dude, i know how your feeling, i have the SAME problem, i have been on hydro's for a little over three years, i have bad discs in my back, and the nerves get pinched and its HORRIBLE pain.  I started out using them just for pain, and then, like you, needed them to get through day for that "fuzzy" i feel good feeling for work and etc.  I am now down to 10 left, and i just got them a little over a week ago.  Going to be a hard New Years without my little white devils.  Im going to a neurol surgeon next month for back.  Gonna have to taper, and it will be hard, then i dont know what i will do, to buy them on street will put me in poor house, so we will have to fight the battle together.  You hang in there, im with ya.

[ImDONENoMore]

Hi Rikki68,

Listen to IBKleen - she definitely knows what she's talking about.

I too would be cautious about the taper - I don't know too many who could quit this way - they were just like me.  If I had them I took them.  No discipline whatsoever.  I guess if I had that discipline, the pills never would have gotten out of control to begin with.  I suppose you could have someone hold them for you, but it might be too easy to convince that person that you need more.  Just something to think about.

And yes, you will find this place the perfect place to be while you're going through this.  I think its absolutely imperative to have people to talk to who can relate to what you're going through.  And aftercare so so important.  Stopping is one thing, staying that way is quite another.  Hang in there - you already want this so that's one step closer, right?

[wannabfre2b]

You bet buddy, hey looks like you like music too, (the guitar photo) Im a BIG music fan, and when im down, w/d ing , being negative and on the pitty pot, i fire up some music i like to get my mind off it, like some good Pearl Jam or something.  Music really helps, (so does a little green if you do that, i have a medical card, and use it) but tonite is gonna be a hard one, and trying to hang on to a few till tommorow, cause i know i will be fretting then.  Then, the New Year, lets start out right, and QUIT these damn hydro's, we can do it, i have found that this Thomas Recipe at the bottom will help, some L-Tyrosine, and 5http help with mental, and immodium for the rest.  ok here we go, have a good nite, and both of us look to being a NEW person soon, right, God bless.

[Rikki68]

The "Fun" has started..... I've decided since I only had a few Hydros left to just end it.  That was at 7am. I just woke up from a LONG NAP. And I feel like ... well I really have never felt ANYTHING quite like this.... Does I fel like Im dying sound right? I feel like my heads 5 times larger than it should be.... I feel hot...Like my skins on fire.... Im feeling alot of RAGE.... I also feel like Im going to puke.... (Just waiting).... Shakes.....My hands are having a hard time finding the keys on this keyboard....... Im trying to find something "funny" to compare this to. Perhaps this is what turning into a "Vampire" might feel like. If I start to "GLITTER & GLOW" Ill be sure to post that right away...... (Now That IS FUNNY) I also feel like im in a heavy fog or something..... How long will the Worst of the physicaly issues last... I've heard by day 3 it's some what better?
Comments are welcome..... Im off to soak my head....... Hot showers Right?
HAPPY NEW YEAR?

[IBKleen]

If you start to glitter and glow, I want pictures!!! LOL

Yes, you should peak at day 3. I know it stinks but as every one has told you, it is worth it.

Hot showers are good, hot baths are better. If you can get yourself in the tub with some epsom salt it will really help with the rls and achy muscles. Be sure to stay hydrated---so push fluids. Also, try and eat something even if it is only soup. If you can exercise it helps a lot. Even a short walk will make you feel better.

Keep talking and let us know what you are going through. We have been there and can tell you what has worked for us. Bottom line---hang in there and don't use.

[Rikki68]

Not glowing.......... yet.  :) Thanks for all of the advice and encouragement.... I have made up my mind. THIS IS IT. I dont EVER want to feel like this again. And I thank GOD for this site and you and all the rest who have posted to me..... Ill keep everyone updated as much as I can.....
God Bless.
Im going to TRY to eat now..... Ill let you know how thats working out...

[JustNotStrongEnough]

Like the other posters said, listen to IBKleen!  She really knows what she is talking about!  This is really not about the drugs, the drugs are just a symptom of the bigger problem (whatever that is).  Aftercare really helps.  You meet nice people who understand your situation and can help you succeed in your recovery.  I would cold turkey.  Tapering is 100X worse psychologically, it's just not as physically taxing. A very small percentage of addicts succeed with tapering.

[eyeofhorus2010]

My biggest problem with tapering is that if I normally take 10 pills at a time and try to cut the next dose to 8 or 9 it feels as though I've taken 0 pills. So I end up taking more than normal and that usually leads to an elevated dose everytime.

You're doing the right thing to go ahead and jump cold turkey. Get it over with much sooner that way. It's not gonna be pretty for the next several days but the other side is much better when you finally get past it. A week of suffering and sickness to gain a lifetime of health is more than a fair deal.

"If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice."  Or   " On the train of consequences, there ain't no turning back."  

Put yourself in charge now, and quit letting the addiction call the shots for you.

[Rikki68]

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I NEEDED A GOOD LAUGH...... Ohh GOD.......
CHECK OUT THE LINK....

[wannabfre2b]

Hey bud looks like we are in for the big ride,,,,so tapering, someone, get my coat, oh sorry, its so hard, seems to me you got alot on your mind, lets try to get sober,,,,,on here................no MORE PILLS,,,thats it for New Years for me. get ur dun                   amen

[Rikki68]

Well........... ONE DAY CLEAN. And I'm still here. So far the worst part for me ...normal withdrawal things aside... Is the PAIN that caused me to get on those dam pills in the first place...... I honestly FORGOT about the pain...... That and Im either too HOT or too COLD.... All in all I'm TRYING like hell to stay positive.

[IBKleen]

Your attitude and your mind set are going to play a big part in staying clean so keep your spirits up.

Be good to yourself today!

[fredjones]

Stay strong Rikki. It gets better. I promise it will. I'm just on day 3 clean from hydros, and yeah it sux but it gets better. Think...FREEDOM. No more being a prisoner to the pills. Matter of fact, I hate those effing pills now! F em. You can do this man.

Things that have helped me so far -

warm baths with epson salts - probably the most comforting thing during wds
5HTP (amino acids from Walgreens) take in morning, then again at night (seems to work best when sleeping)
Vitamin B Complex in the morning
multi-vitamin
for sleep - Valerian Root and Melatonin
Hylands Restful Legs - so good, it really does help calm the restless arms and legs
BANANAS - the best food so far
Boston Market Chicken Noodle Soup - 2nd best food lol
For the hot/cold - keep on socks, even in bed. Wear a hoodie over a beater. When hot, just take hoodie off. Been working well for me.
Excederin for the aches and pains. The caffeine in it works well for energy in the morning, but be careful not to take it late in the day.
And of course this website - has saved my ***

Were here for you Rikki. You can do this my friend, and Congrats on your decision to go CT, and on Day 1 of being CLEAN!!! I'll see you on the other side!

[Rikki68]

Thanks so much for your kind words.... It took about an hour and ........... WOW day 2 is no picnic..... I will get the things you have suggested.... I am on a "MISSION" to put those FING PILLS IN MY HISTORY! But man......... there are moments .... If I could just down 3 of them....... LOL. But I WILL NOT. Ive seen the damage...... and as far as Im aware it's all fixable.... If I were to continue...... Im quite sure me and my little hydro friends would do some "DAMAGE" I could never fix..... Thanks again for the support!!! It really means the world.. And to answer your question.... Im in Port Charlotte FL.... Anyone down my way???? We can get in a room together... (N/A) OR grab a coffee.....

[fredjones]

I feel you. 100% . Those cravings are the worst. Shyt now I'm having them. Ok. Think. Yes they would feel good. Very good. But, what about going back to the prison they entrap you within. The haze they place u in, not allowing you to feel anything. No joy, no happiness, no excitement, no love. The wall they build  between you and everything else in this world. The physical damage, liver, body, brain, nervous system, stomach, heart. The financial damage, and again entrapment within. The relationship damage, being disconnected with everyone that loves you. Is it worth risking all of this for a few minutes of bliss? Nope. Not worth it. Not now, not ever. Mind over matter dude. Eff those pills. Stay the course, stay focused. We can do this. Together. Yeah it sux, today, but these wds are such a small price to pay for a lifetime of freedom. I believe. God bless us all.

[Rikki68]

Thanks Brother.
You are 100% C O R R E C T.  That "quick fix" would result in a lifetime of runation.....
And WE WILL OVERCOME THIS JUNK..... I keep telling myself that I've been let out of prison for good behavior..... ALL I HAVE TO DO IS BEHAVE. Also think about how WE will feel in 2 weeks from today.... Im not going to miss that feeling! Then eventually...... The pills will fade off into the distance...... And Life Will RE-START.  So yes we will get thru this and stay focused..... Keep our eye on the prize.

[IBKleen]

Rikki, You talked about getting involved in an outside support group. I believe you mentioned NA? Have you gone to a meeting yet?

If it were a matter of mind over matter or justing saying no (thank you Nancy Reagan) then there would be no need for this community and none of us would be here. Sadly, here we are. I takes a lot of work to stay clean and it takes a life time of learning new skills to live life on life's terms without the use of drugs. I hope you seek out support to keep you on the other side....this side.

[Rikki68]

Yep.... I have gotten a local list of meetings.... In fact there is one tommrow.... I'd like to say Im going. I know I NEED TO..... (HONESTLY KINDA FREAKED OUT) So I guess Ill force myself to just do it.

[Rikki68]

WOW........ I just found out THE HARD WAY............ WHY I NEED IMMODIUM...... Id cry if this wernt so funny. So I choose to laugh.....

[Rikki68]

10:43PM   And Im still alive....  Feeling Really tired.... REALLY REALLY REALLY ...did I mention REALLY TIRED? Its like a huge effort just to sit here and type.... Also I've got heart burn from hell.... Its REALLY BAD.......On a positive note.... I have a HUGE APPETITE...... Is that normal??? Ive been taking the Thomas Stuff??? Vitamins, B6, Coffee... Staying hydrated... Ibuprofen for the pain I forgot I had.... IMMODIUM (you guys were not kidding)... I guess cravings are a little less intense.... But I just feel like I should get FRAGILE TATTOOED ACROSS MY CHEST...... Other than that Im a peach.

[eyeofhorus2010]

You're actually doing pretty good Rick, even though what you're going through is pure torture you seem to be approaching this as "the glass is half full" instead woe and misery and poor me. You're one of the few I've read going through withdrawals that can find a little ironic humor in it.

Keep going man, you'll be there soon.

And I gotta ask, finding out why you need Immodium the hard way, you sharted didn't you? ( sorry, I'm fan of Family Guy, Jackass and other stupidness) Lol.

[Rikki68]

"sharted"...........LMFAO........   (YEP)    God there really is some funny stuff...... IF you can open your eyes and see........... And now I suppose Ill go sleep for another 12 hrs.... Check back soon.... Did I mention I was TIRED?

[gnarly_1]

Hey Rickki you have been givin some great advise already the supplements make this a lot more bearable I alway write these late at night to encourage you if your not sleeping
and its 3am and your up shaking the next few days can be a little ruff but you will get threw them your attitude seams good and this is all about attitude keep in mind this is 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental be ready to fight on both fronts...N./A is an excellent choice for the mental struggles ahead everybody here with any amount of clean time will tell you getting clean is the ez part its staying clean that takes the work so plug into N/A I wish you all the best congrats on 2 days clean YOU CAN DO THIS and it is so so worth it once its said and done good luck and God bless.......Gnarly    

[Jaydizzle]

Hey rick,  This is my new years resolution too. I was on 8  Hydrocodone and a couple tramadol a day.  It's gonna be hard but I got to do this.  I started weaning myself off and still am.  Currently Im on about one 5/500 as of today and tomorrow I'm cutting that in half, then none at all.  By looking at your story I really dont suggest cold turkey cuz I tried it and man was it hell.  My advice to you is to taper off slowly but do it before you run out of pills.  Refill your last script and tell the DR your situation. Prepare for the date by getting a 7 day pill holder and set your alarm on your phone or house by the cloc of when to take a dossage so that you dont get mixed up. Plus as the weeks go by you can see the progress of cutting down and finally quitting ( more for the mental hope).  I have a herbal remady that is kinda helping.  Im having a hard time right now with this but know whats ahead helps, It's like sitting in a hurricane, you know when it's coming,  when it's here, and when you see the rainbow.  HIt me up if you have any questions bro!  Good luck.

[wannabfre2b]

Hey hows it going, you must be on day three or so.  Well, its time to get with it too, i just took  my last 2 5/500's this morning, and ready to ride the storm out for next couple days, i dont have to work until Wednesday, so i hope im better by then.  I just went thro my last script (60) in 9 days, ridiculous to keep going on this way, and the hell with the back pain, gonna use exedrin  instead, i just need something to help me sleep, thats the big one for me because thats when my back hurts the worst.  I am ready to get my life back, im tired of those damn things running my life, counting how many you have left, trying to hide them from yourself, its all so STUPID, and yesterday, i saw this friend of mine thats been on all kinds of meds, (including pain meds), oh God, I couldnt believe it, there is NOTHING left but a shell, I have lost three close friends to presciption drugs and alcohol, and he will be next.  Do i want to die, i told myself, because thats what your doing to yourself,  I come from a VERY addictive background, and i have seen HOW addictive these are, they take everything away till theres nothing left, i want the old fun lovin, happy person i used to be back, and so does my husband. So NO more relapses for Wanna, it's time to get a new life back.  Thanks for letting me vent all of you, and would love some input from Ya all.    Thanks....

[fredjones]

Hey buddy. How ya feeling? Forget what jaydizzle says, you're too far in to go back now. Another day or 2 and the worst is over. Let me know how you're doing man. O yeah, I too have a huge appetite , and have unfortunately sharted a few times. At least doing laundry gives me something to do. Hahaha. Stay up bro

[jacjen]

O man!! i decided yesterday that i was going to stop using and after getting on here and reading everyones post, im really scared. i had no idea what i was getting myself into when i started popping hydro's for fun, for the high they give me. I am 37 yrs old and have been using steadily for the last two yrs. I take two to four a day, not bad but enough to stay addicted. I started tapering off a few days ago because i was running low and thought it was a good sign to try to quit altogether. I have been feeling sluggish and feverish and wondering if its all in my head?!? I am big into staying fit and i mostly take them when i do my workouts to give me a boost and now im worried about how i will get motivated without them. I feel pathetic and mad at myself for being so weak. I dont have real pain like most everyone on here, i get them from my husband who is a disabled vet and has a script mailed monthly, he isnt aware of my addiction, i only steal a few here and there from him when i cant buy from someone or dont have the money. I plan on talking to my dr. and being honest with him about my addiction, i just saw him a few weeks ago because a friend of mine takes aadd meds and the way she described the high they gave her made me think it would be a good alternative to the hydro. I lied to him and told him i have symptoms and got my meds, vyvance its called, its like adderral, speed basically. It did give me a buzz for the first few days but now im beginning to think i really am aadd cause they dont buzz me anymore, just help me stay focused. Pathetic right! im trying to replace one addiction for another because im so freakn scared of withdrawal or being normal idk?? I really pray that we can beat this devil and live a clean and sober life that we can be proud of. I am not proud of lying to my co-workers for the last week or my family members telling them i got the flu, when im really going thru withdrawals. Im sitting here worried about how im going to get thru work tuesday when i go back cause my routine is to take one and a half every morning and then one at lunch and one usually around four or five. Im a hairderesser and my job takes alot of energy so they definitely help to keep me going thru the day. Im already thinkn up an excuse not to be there and ive already been out a week! Im sick of this, i dont want it to be my reality or yours anymore. Lets do it together ok, i need to know you can do it so i can(:

[Rikki68]

Wow........ Here we are DAY 3!!! ......And I'm CLEAN from the Hydro Codone. As of 7am it's been THREE FULL DAYS.... Today was the 1st morning that I woke up, got out of bed, made coffee.... and honestly felt alot more HUMAN. DID SOME LAUNDRY.....LOL ... One conclusion I have come to is that YOU HAVE TO WANT THIS..... And YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT IF YOU KEEP USING LONG ENOUGH.... IT WILL MOST LIKELY KILL YOU.  I too know or know of several who have died for thier drug..... That being said..... Here is a little secret that I have NOT shared yet. I have had in my possession 3 Hydros this whole time that I've gone cold.... I did this because....IN MY MIND..... IF I REALLY WANTED THIS..... my theory was I wold not touch them... (yeah I know...... many will say STUPID) THIS IS NOT FOR EVERYONE. It was something I FELT I HAD TO DO.... Later Today Im going to treat myself, my Wife and Mother to a little RITUAL. We are all taking one pill and throwing it into the toilet! Ill FLUSH IT!  (MY FAVORITE HANG OUT LATELY :) ) TO: JACJEN I must CAUTION YOU THAT TAKING ADDERAL IS EXTREMELY DANGEROUS.... I know because I have ADHD.... Adderal is one of the most powerful script drugs that you could possibly obtain.... I BEG YOU TO STOP THEM NOW! I really do have ADHD So for me they do what they are supposed to.... Im allowed 4 a day I take 2. That is one drug that puts the fear into me in a big way..... I have NEVER ABUSED THEM..... THEY SCARE ME..... Conversely for me its been a God Send. So many years of being Lazy, bored, un-focused...etc etc etc.... But again THEY ARE STUPID CRAZY ..... For me they are necessary..... For you they are like street legal COKE.....AND OH SOOOOO DANGEROUS. So YES LETS DO THIS AND I WILL HELP YOU ANY WAY I CAN..... You can hit me up ANYTIME..... Im happy at the thought of giving back to any and all on this site..... This site is a GOD SEND..... I AM GOING TO FIND A FEW N/A MEETINGS AS WELL.... WE ALL NEED A SUPER STRONG SUPPORT SYSTEM IN PLACE........So much of this ADDICTION .....REALLY IS IN YOUR MIND.... The physical passes then its a mind game.... Here is my personal list of things that really have helped me thru the initial shock: I will continue this for a long time Im sure.... Plus I get the FEELING OF POPING PILLS...... GOOD ONES....  :)
A GOOD MULTI VITIMAN 2X  per day
400mcg Folic ACid 1X   per day
L-Lysine  1000mg   1X  per day
B6  200mg   2X  per day
E Blend Gel Caps 400 IU  1x Per Day
Fish Oil 1000 mg   1X  per day
Immodium  1 to 3 per day..............TRUST ME ON THIS! LOL
LOTS OF BANANAS  Im doing about 4-5  per day.  Potassium IS SOMETHING U NEED!
Coffee In Moderation... I DO OVER DO IT!
MTN DEW.... I get extra energy.... (NOT FOR EVERYONE) TRY JUICE, WATER Anything~!!
Stay Hydrated..... And for the first 3 days be prepared to sleep ALOT! AND I MEAN ALOT! Your "Energy Level will be in the shitter...... Its OK and to be expected..... This again is my first day that I feel Im having alot more energy that before.....
As for the Cravings.... they are BASTARDS..... But ...the longer you hold out..... the less severe thay get,,,,,
PRAY TO YOUR HIGHER POEWR! I dont care if it's Christ or your Bath towell!!!! YOU MUST FIND A HIGHER POWER THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND AND TRUST....

I just want to say THATK YOU!!!!!! TO EVERY ONE WHO HAS POSTED TO ME!!!!! I KNOW I STILL HAVE ALOT OF HARD WORK IN THE FUTURE..... BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A VERY LONG TIME...... I FEEL LIKE IM IN THE DRIVERS SEAT! YOU ALL CAN DO THIS! I PROMISE YOU! PLEASE HIT ME UP AS OFTEN AS YOU WANT!!!!!

[Dav125]

To be honest, I wish I had found this site years ago..It could have saved me from a bunch of headaches...But hey,its all cool. Its amazing the things we can learn just by interacting in here. And its all good :)

[Rikki68]

5:47 pm est
Going to have some dinner, realx..... listen to some music.... Get to bed as early as I can....... Tommrow I FACE WORK...... For the first time since X-Mas Eve.........  (WISH ME LUCK) But I'm feeling Stronger.... Praying alot..... and learning the "ropes" of this site....THE HARD WAY......... All and all.... the best day Ive had yet...... Thanks to all of you!!!!
What an awesome bunch most of you are...........

[Rikki68]

I started a group for Musicians...and or Music Lovers... If Interested this could be a FANYASTIC GROUP....... If Interested here is the link

http://www.medhelp.org/user_groups/members/847

[Rikki68]

Well........ 1st day back to work..... And I survived....... IMAGINE THAT... Though I will say IT WAS ONE LONG DAY...... Without Daddy's little helpers...... Each day off the pills Im feeling Better..... Getting slowly stronger....... Needing Less Imodium (immodium)! AND THATS A GREAT THING! How is everyone else making out?

[throwindatowl]

Hey man. Names Jason I live in Venice. Right up the road. Its awesome to see your doing great. Its like being born again isnt it. You forget how nice a cool morning in florida is!!! Not me. I got 8 and doing good. Lets keep it up bro!!! Your neighbor J

[Rikki68]

Hey Jason....
Wow.... We really are neighbors........LOL thats cool.
Hey man hit me up sometime we can grab a coffee and shoot the ****........

[gnarly_1]

hey Rikki .....good to see you post and still fighting the good fight was wondering when you where going to post again...how is sleep going for ya?? are your back to normal eating wise?? those 2 things make the most difference in how you feel ...will wait to here back from ya......Gnarly