Norco Detox

[kyle505]

I've been posting on other folks pages for the past couple of days, and decided I'd come forward with questions and thanks. I have been abusing pain meds of any kind for over ten years, maybe more. For the past year I've abused Norco 10s, taking 5 to 10 a day. I've lied to my doc, lied to my family, stole drugs from friends, went through med cabinets of homes I'd visit, even stole pain meds from my mother while she suffered the end stages of cancer. I've been through many ct withdrawals because I could never tapper off - I wanted that feeling, knowing full well what was waiting for me when i quit. On January 1st, I felt so much shame for having ripped off meds from a friend again, that I decided to stop. On January 2nd I took my last four Norco, and thus am in day four of detox. I have been in hell. Although I've detoxed in the past, I've NEVER experienced anything like this in my life. You all know the symptoms so I won't review. I'm at the end of day four, and feel a wee bit better. I was able to eat today. Because of the help I've received on this site, I bought Vit B12, C and an OTC sleep aid. I also got some great support and encouragement from folks like Lulu. Finally, I found a quote, and I can't remember where, from someone who said "...count the seconds, count the minutes, whatever it takes to get you through".  Thanks to all of you. I wonder how long, based on the time and amount used, it will be until the hell is over. I know that I've a long road ahead re learning how to live and enjoy life without the meds; I just want the panic, pain and sleeplessness to end. There are moments when I'm glad this is so hard...It is a blessing of sorts because I will never put myself through this again. I can't.

[kyle505]

Thanks. When I read this I remembered those days in hell. I hated it then and I still do - but it's important.

[Brightfutureahead]

I just finished reading this old thread....

They say death is 'the great equalizer'...i've always felt that addiction is too. Kyle you have come so far it seems as though you kind of want to move on from writing about this old post over and over ....just want to say its inspiring and I'm so proud of you...ok enough.

[kyle505]

Thanks guys. Hard to read but good to remember.

[waterLilly7]

Wow, this was great to read. Kyle, you have come a long way!!!

Thanks for all of your help, you have helped so many.

love and hugs,
Lily

[Nursey7]

This was really cool for me to read!! I think it's so awesome that this all trickles down. That's what life is about helping others in need. You- **** people off-NO not YOU!  You have always been so gentle on me-NOT!
;-D

[vicki595]

Thanks...but you did the work and continue to do the work everyday, just as I do...and then we pay it forward, as we should.

And sometimes it works...

[kyle505]

Vicki - tell me about it. And after review, I owe you a hell of a lot. Can never say thanks enough. You helped change my life; and that includes the life of my wife & kids. You've earned many God points.

[kyle505]

Bryan. Thank you so much. I was surprised that this thread showed up after all this time. Oh yeah - getting people right and pissing some off along the way.

[vicki595]

Wow!    What a flash back!!    xoxo

[kyle505]

Thanks. It is strange to read these. Hopefully jtizzler posts his own stuff.

[Fireby29]

I was a big time lurker on here in December and January, and remember this.    I did not pull the trigger until April and messed up in June.  But I am now on a great track, and hope to get to where you are!  Congrats, and keep on with your fantastic ability to cut to the quick of it and get people right.  I know it helped me.

Bryan

[Sonrissa]

I just read through this whole thread! Wow, Kyle you really have come so far! Congrats on your success!

[kyle505]

I don't know how you found this thread but boy, the memories came flooding back.
Anyway, if you have access to meds the odds are that you'll relapse, so cut all sources NOW. Start your own thread so we can help.  

[jtizzler]

Two days in off norcs and its crazy, I never thought I'd find my self kicking another habbit after alcohol. Its tough it is im hanging in there with the help of my beloved she's a trooper she is, and finding this sight today I find it very helping reading others stories about there going through the same thing as me its very similar its  scary lol. I have been using steady for almost 2 years n never thought I had a problem till I ran out lol. Till I find my self spending way to much money on These pills that thought was making me feel like a million bucks. I have a great life and only gets better I have a great family that I want to do good by. At the same time im really wanting to say screw it and get some to.get the edge off but I keep thinking to myself I should b half over with the worst of the w/d. I know that it only gets easier so just keep trucking!

[kyle505]

Lulu:
I haven't eaten a donut in years. Just popped in to my head. They were good, but I actually like my eggs and toast better. Anyway, will post later, and the big, new improved post tomorrow morning.

[lulu747]

Grrrr...
I want a donut too!  And I NEVER eat donuts!!!!

And yes...Please start a new thread tomorrow(:
21 DAYS!!!!

[kyle505]

Don't worry - I ate a donut for you, and for at least three other people. Yeah, it's starting to rain here, but I have enough sugar in me at the moment that I probably won't notice for a while. Thanks again for being there. Try to enjoy your day.

[kyle505]

Lulu and Vicki:
Thanks so much. You two have been there since the beginning, something that I'll never forget. And I think tomorrow I will start another thread - 21 Days! (or something just as original). I personally like to re read this one from the beginning every now and then (did that this morning). It helps keep me focused on "off" days and thankful for everything that has happened. Anyway, thanks so much; I'll never be able to express how much your support means. I hope you both have a wonderful day.

[theaddict]

so glad you're almost at the three week mark.

i am not happy with you right now. because now, i want a donut. UGH! and to top it all off, it's raining outside pretty badly. yum! haha

[vicki595]

Hey Kyle!  You're at the 3 week mark and that's wonderful!  Remember Day 1? UGH!!  LOL

It's time now to begin a new thread because this one is getting too hard to open!

[lulu747]

Morning Kyle...
this is your LuLu morning check in(:
21 days is a great milestone and you are doing awesome.  Our lives got pretty small while on pills so now it feels like there is just SO much.  I have found personally that a good routine (even on non-work days...don't have many of those(:)  is key.  Also taking 'me' time...Just to be with myself and process emotion, being kind and gentle and generally just taking good care.  Patience and understanding.  Also-connecting with others as much as possible.  I was so disconnected on the pills I had no idea.  My relationships are so much more precious to me now.  

Awesome job on 20 days!  We'll have to have a little cyber party for your big milestone tomorrow LOL...
Happy Sunday...
Lu

[kyle505]

Day 20 - and I'm off to treat myself to a donut for breakfast! I've been eating healthy, taking my vitamins, etc., but I woke up this morning and decided a donut is in my future.
Slept ok, same ol same ol. A little tired, eyes a little stingy, but I'm planning on having a great day. And with a donut for breakfast, well how could it not be a great day?  Thanks again to everyone who's helped me get to today.

[kyle505]

...and one back at you. Thanks.

[theaddict]

digital high five, as always!