Norco Detox

[kyle505]

I've been posting on other folks pages for the past couple of days, and decided I'd come forward with questions and thanks. I have been abusing pain meds of any kind for over ten years, maybe more. For the past year I've abused Norco 10s, taking 5 to 10 a day. I've lied to my doc, lied to my family, stole drugs from friends, went through med cabinets of homes I'd visit, even stole pain meds from my mother while she suffered the end stages of cancer. I've been through many ct withdrawals because I could never tapper off - I wanted that feeling, knowing full well what was waiting for me when i quit. On January 1st, I felt so much shame for having ripped off meds from a friend again, that I decided to stop. On January 2nd I took my last four Norco, and thus am in day four of detox. I have been in hell. Although I've detoxed in the past, I've NEVER experienced anything like this in my life. You all know the symptoms so I won't review. I'm at the end of day four, and feel a wee bit better. I was able to eat today. Because of the help I've received on this site, I bought Vit B12, C and an OTC sleep aid. I also got some great support and encouragement from folks like Lulu. Finally, I found a quote, and I can't remember where, from someone who said "...count the seconds, count the minutes, whatever it takes to get you through".  Thanks to all of you. I wonder how long, based on the time and amount used, it will be until the hell is over. I know that I've a long road ahead re learning how to live and enjoy life without the meds; I just want the panic, pain and sleeplessness to end. There are moments when I'm glad this is so hard...It is a blessing of sorts because I will never put myself through this again. I can't.

[kyle505]

theaddict:
That is exactly what I was doing the first few days after the detox/withdrawal subsided. But, I started listening to Lulu and the others on this site about letting go, not worrying about it, and so that's what I started focusing on. I found that not dreading going to bed is the first step to sleeping better, and accepting lack of sleep as part of the healing process is the second. Thanks for your post. Hope all is well with you.

[theaddict]

one of the worse things that i went through when i got off the pills was the anxiety at night when i was trying SO very hard to get some sort of wink of sleep. it felt like it consumed me.

[kyle505]

Lulu:
You are up early. And as always, thank you for your ongoing support and positive comments.
Day 18 - Hard to believe. Anyway, this morning has been great. I feel really good. As I've been posting, I'm adjusting to the sleep thing; no more anxiety before going to bed. I've just accepted the fact that some nights will be better than others. And I feel that it is my obligation to this site to put my two cents in wherever I feel like I can add something. I read the posts of individuals just starting out and I just want to reach through the computer and assure them that they can do it. I've got so much help and support here that it is the least I can do. Anyway, I hope you have a great day. I'll be back.

[lulu747]

Morning Kyle...
I am up bright and early (or dark and snowy and early, I should say)  FIghting a virus and pushing through a busy week...
You have the right attitude about sleep...It took me a lot longer than 3 weeks to accept that I just wasn't going to sleep consistently-and I still find myself getting worked up but then just take a deep breath and let it go.....

You are doing awesome and I'm happy to see, helping others....You have such a positive attitude and compassion it does a great service here....Keep posting and have a wonderful day 18....Lu

[kyle505]

theaddict:
Back at you. Hope all is well with you.

[theaddict]

good for you man! that's quite bada$$ of you!
kudos to you, for day 17, almost 18!!
digital high five.