Off of Vicodin for 5 days

I need help!! I've gone off before but never have I been this obsessed with getting more and so agitated. My mind thinks of hardly anything else. I've been crying a lot, really depressed, suicidal, and having panic attacks. I have prescription Klonopin but it doesn't work. I need help on how to cope. I REALLY want to be done with it. But at the same time if someone gave me some right now I would take it, and not blink an eye. I'm sick. Please help.....someone.....

Thank you

[corey411]

Sorry you are having such a tough time honey. I was using opiates for about 8 years and my attempts to get clean were too numerous to count. Every time that I relapsed my addiction got stronger and my detox got alot worse. You need support. Do you have family or friends to help you? Are you going to NA? You have to have a strong support system. You need to be able to reach out to people who know what you are going through 24/7. This is the advise that I did not take for many years of relapses. I am clean now for almost a year and a half because I finally hit bottom and listened to this advise. Fight to hold onto those 5 days so you don't have to go through them again. This is something that many can't even do so pat yourself on the back. Walking and looking at nature really helped me when my addiction clogged my thinking. Keep reaching out. Sending you positive energy.

[sick_and_tired543]

I'm sorry to hear your having such a hard time, but we all do, Kicking is no easy task.  I have been on them for over 4 years and have decided that I no longer what to spend my time chasing pills and not really knowing what is going on with myself.  

I am 43 years old, and am sure that the effects of the drug will be brutal when I am old, so I need to stay clean now and try and fix the damage as much as possible.


Try and stay positive, attitude is alot of it.  I personally pray alot, but I have seen the effects of positive thinking,

Try some Valarium root. Its a natural calmer, it may help.

Your in my prayers, 5 days is a great accomplishment!

[corey411]

Sorry you are having such a tough time honey. I was using opiates for about 8 years and my attempts to get clean were too numerous to count. Every time that I relapsed my addiction got stronger and my detox got alot worse. You need support. Do you have family or friends to help you? Are you going to NA? You have to have a strong support system. You need to be able to reach out to people who know what you are going through 24/7. This is the advise that I did not take for many years of relapses. I am clean now for almost a year and a half because I finally hit bottom and listened to this advise. Fight to hold onto those 5 days so you don't have to go through them again. This is something that many can't even do so pat yourself on the back. Walking and looking at nature really helped me when my addiction clogged my thinking. Keep reaching out. Sending you positive energy.

[ladywithtime]

are you kickin' cause you want to or because you ran out? to me that makes a world of difference! you've gotta want this more than anything--

your at 5 days which is good because it will only get better from this point on...i know for me when i was at 5 days clean i experienced alot of panic attacks and what helped me was hot, hot showers and lying on my bed and breathing. sounds stupid but once you concentrate on breathing and relaxing your body it will help you to calm down. you can get through this--i'm at 24 days clean and it feels soo great not to wake up dope sick every morning, not spending all my money and not feeling like **** all the time! if you believe in the power of Prayer, Pray to God to give you the stength to get through this!

BTW...aftercare is a must! God Bless you and hang in there!

[km357]

Thank you all for the kind and helpful words. To answer your question Corey411, I am off because I ran out and can't get more. I know god is trying to keep me off. I keep getting roadblocks. I truly WANT to be off all meds and feel good. But I feel that its impossible for me who is clinically depressed to feel good without meds.Also I like the way Vicodin makes me feel, plain and simple. It's euphoric...its a feeling I never get unless on them. I've been on all sorts of antidepressants since i was 20. I am now 37. I've tried them all. Counseling helped but then I got to a point where it wasn't helping. I see someone now only for med refills. I attempted suicide OMG, 3 yrs ago to this date. I didn't realize that. wow. After that happened, I got treatment for 3 days at a psych ward at a county hospital and really got nothing from it but 3 meals a day and a bed. I never once got counseling there. Anyway.........I am trying to kick this. I haven't been on them long or consistently nor do I take much when I do, maybe 2-3 a day.

I appreciate comments, and suggestions.

Thank you,
K

[km357]

Also....I have a few friends that are supportive but not everyone knows. I'm ashamed of course. Really ashamed. I've never been to NA but thought about it.

[1dazedkitty]

Damn!  My story and yours are fraternal twins.  I have been off of Norco 10/325---25 pills a day----for 6 days today.  I am pretty much going it alone.  I used tramadol to taper for the week, but today was my last day for that, so tomorrow - ugh, I am really scared what it holds for me.
I am really feeling you on the depression issues.  It's the very same for me - plain and simple, I like how I feel on Norco.  It helps sooth all the aches and pain, including the depression.  As my use escalated though, it started making me feel sick, tired, weak, ill and didn't lift my spirits anymore, so it was just an endless cycle of throwing back 3-4 pills at a time and hoping to get a lift that never came.  IF - big IF- I was under constant doctor's care with blood tests/liver panel and could maintain without escalating I doubt I would have done anything to stop - kudos for catching it before you were knocking back 20 + a day your liver (and life) will thank you for it.  Great luck and much love to you!

[red999801]

drugz will kill u.... my dad died from pain pills, and i also do them, and have a false image that i cant get hooked.. but its all i think about..when in dont have any it suckz, like now , yea it suckz,,,,...,.,.,.,..i guess the help needz to come from within.. smoke weed and leave the pillz alone..thatz what my plan iz

[km357]

Thanks for your comment. I haven't responded in awhile. I keep going off for a week or two then get more and get back on. Endless cycle. I just can't fathom 25 pills a day, were they prescribed? I only take what little I take really cause I get so little and Im broke, maybe that is what is saving me.I guess I would get to that point if I could. I hate being close to out and I hate being out. It's like I'm obsessed. It's all my mind thinks about  24/7. I'm truly powerless over it. I don't know where to go or who to talk to, I feel if I tell my Psychiatrist he will cut my klonopin cause its addictive even though those aren't the problem. Do I tell my regular Dr., even though I buy them off the street, will they help me or turn me in?? IDK.  I'm scared. I'm ashamed. Thoughts, suggestions anyone?

K

[km357]

Thanks for your comment. I haven't responded in awhile. I keep going off for a week or two then get more and get back on. Endless cycle. I just can't fathom 25 pills a day, were they prescribed? I only take what little I take really cause I get so little and Im broke, maybe that is what is saving me.I guess I would get to that point if I could. I hate being close to out and I hate being out. It's like I'm obsessed. It's all my mind thinks about  24/7. I'm truly powerless over it. I don't know where to go or who to talk to, I feel if I tell my Psychiatrist he will cut my klonopin cause its addictive even though those aren't the problem. Do I tell my regular Dr., even though I buy them off the street, will they help me or turn me in?? IDK.  I'm scared. I'm ashamed. Thoughts, suggestions anyone?

K

[donewitis]

Your Dr. won't turn you in...that's for sure. I feel your pain. It must be awful to continue to go through this mind freaking w/d's on a regular basis... I wish I could advise you, but Im pretty new to this..wanted you to know someone is listening/reading. I just got to the point after taking prescriptions of oxy's for 4 years..enough was enough and I didn't want/couldn't face another day like that..so I accepted that I would be ok with not being ok for awhile. Is it possible to get into a rehab? I just read what everyone above wrote and gave some good advice. Have you tried NA?
My prayers are with you.
God Bless

[atthebeach]

welcome back. you definitely need a support system.
one on one counseling with a therapist,psychologist, addiction specialist,
you could also counsel with a pastor. support groups like na/aa,celebrate recovery,overcomers outreach.
this support will help you understand why you use and teach you how to live a clean and sober life.
please stick close to the forum. let us help you and encourage you.
do you have any pills left now?
sending hugs and prayers
debbie

[gnarly_1]

HI I agree with atthebeach you need to get involved with a support grop as addicts we need to change the very way we think and reason this is tought at place like N/A meetings any of the above will work I always mention N/A because you can google a meeting in your area this wiuld be a good start you dont have to speech unless you want to and you will be around other people who have been where you are your situation is not hopeless but it is going to require you to reach out for help it sure bets the altrentives witch are jails institutions or death.....I have lost many friends to this illness it time you start treating it......you my be saving your own life or that of many others you could harm wile under the influence I wish you all the best and hope to see you get well with us good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[km357]

Thanks for the response. I appreciate it and the suggestions. I am trying to apply them all. I want help...but I realize I am sick and my body and mind wants to have more pills....even though at the same time I know I shouldn't. I'm tired of being without a job, being tired, hiding my usage, having no money, and most of all being a slave to this addiction. I'm going to look into NA....right now in fact. Maybe it will help to go and listen and maybe even talk about it. So if I go to my dr.....and tell him the truth, what will he say or do, anything to help? I'm just curious if anyone has done this?
I have 1 10 mg Norco left....haven't taken it today .....I want to....but when I do I'm out.
Thanks for you help I REALLY appreciate it and it does help me.
K

[km357]

Also...the medical I have is limited and no rehab is covered. I did look into that out of curiosity. There are lots of addicts in my family, ironically....but I feel like if I come out with this...I will just be seen as another loser like they are seen... :( It's sad. It's a sickness