Oh I feel like I could just give up :(

[Sweetness91]

17 days no methadone, 2 days off percocets and I feel like a mangled mess. I literally don't have the energy to do anything!! I feel like I'm back where I started with the pain now that I've stopped the Percs. Like the beginning when I stopped the methadone. I thought then that it couldn't get any worse...little did I know I was just making it harder for myself by thinking the Percs could help me with the methadone w/d's...because it didn't, and now I get to detox from the Percs! WTH am I doing to myself! The doc gave me another prescription for Percs Monday and I got rid of it, kinda kicking myself in the a$$ for that now. Idk if I should've waited til I had somewhat recovered from the methadone w/d before I stopped those or not, because from what I'm hearing, I could suffer from it for a couple months since my use was for 8 years. My family physician said that from the extent of my injuries, it may be best to stop one, and adjust to see where I'm at pain wise...but I just want rid of this demon. And how do I know where I'm at pain wise if I'm still taking narcotics?? So discouraged right now :( My body hurts so bad, and I've got dinner to fix for my family, laundry piled up and mass cleaning that needs done...and it's getting to me!!! Bad! Anyone else felt like this and still made it through? Cause I just don't know if I can :(

[Sweetness91]

Thanks so much for your support! I just went down the street to pick up more of the calcium, magnesium & zinc supplements since I had run out. I've only been taking 2 in the morn & evening, I was afraid I would take too much if I took the four, but having someone tell me that has experience with the same thing is very reassuring. I also got some Epsom Salt w/lavender...figure it should relax me at least a little bit. Right now it's the physical part for me, and I hear alot that the mental part AFTER the physical symptoms subside is worse...so I'm definitely not looking forward to it. BUT...I'm ready to grab the bull by the horns and fight because I never want to go thru this again!! It's not worth it to me...having my kids wonder WTH is wrong with mom is tearing me up...they're not stupid...they can be very intuitive in fact. And this is something I hope they don't remember later in life...although they are 11 & 13...so I'm sure some memories will remain...but when the time is right, I have decided to tell them what is going on. I hope & pray that it's powerful enough to make them never want to be like I am right now. Luckily, their father is very involved in their lives and is picking up my slack in that are...now if I could just get him to cook, clean & do laundry, we'll be good! Lol. I look forward to seeing comments, it keeps my mind and time occupied so that I am not so focused on the pain!!

[gnarly_1]

HI kicking an 8yr methadone habit is going to be ruff.....I kicked a 7yr habit at 150mg slow tapering and it felt like i was going to dye...misery loves company im tlling you this so you know what your feeling is normal for your habit it took me 3mo to come around but with time and God you do healmethadone is very cyclic it comes in waves when your bad off just know a better time is around the corner you just got to stick it ort.....no narcotic if you want to heal get up to walmart and pick up some whey protein shakes it gives the brain andbody what it needs to heal also a 3 in one calicum magnesum zinc take 4 in the morning and 4 with dinner try and stay away from red meat broiled chicken or fish is a better choice keep posting for support good luck and God bless.........Gnarly