Opiate addiction and bipolar/anxiety problems, just need some support.

[uphill7584]

I am having a really hard day with my anxiety/depression/withdrawl from opiates. I have had an a problem with opiate addiction, mainly norco and oxy for that last year and half. I have also had problems with depression and anxiety for the as long as I can remember. If you have the same issues, you probably can understand how the two go hand in hand. I am currently on Depakote ER and Lorezampam for my depression/anxiety. For the past two months I have been trying to quit opiates c/t, mainly because my access to them has been cut off for the most part. About a month ago I went through a bottle of 90 norco in about 5 days then went c/t had a really tough week of withdrawls. About two weeks later I was offered some oxys and was taking those for about 2 weeks. Now I have been c/t for two days and am having a hard time. I got a call tonight with an offer for some pills and originally agreed to pick them up later. Since then I have turned off my phone and am really pushing myself to leave it off. My medications never seemed to work as wells at opiates and I just want to find something that works.
I guess thats my little story and since everyone here seems very supportive, I thought I would tell it. Hopefully I can stick it out, I really hate the feeling of withdrawl and hate feeling like a loser. If anybody can relate to my situation and wants to talk, please respond...it would be great to have some support.

[more_pills_than_a_pharmacy00]

I have gone for a while on many different meds, for my neuromuscular dysfunction, migranes, and both of my feet covered in about 75% scar tissue due to them both being burnt. Then to make it all that much better, living in constant pain at both ends of my body for so long, caused me to fall into a deep depression, with high anxiety. As of right now, they have me on 50mg. Butalbital, for migranes, 7.5 mg. meloxicam, for a non-steriodal anti inflamatory, 10 mg fexmid, which is a muscle relaxer, 1 mg. klonopin for high anxiety, neurontin, for damage to the nerves in my feet from the burn, and 7.5 mg. Norco, for the total round about pain that I stay in!  One of the biggest problems I have is, I take 3 different pills that all create a "Euphoric", effect. I will admit, these meds seem to help more for depression than depression meds do........ for a little while. Next thing you know, you will have to take 10 mg. of the narcotics, then 15 mg. and so on and so on! There is a guy that goes to the same pain clinic I go to, that told me it was nothing for him to take 4 of his 10 mg. Lortabs at once! These things are VERY ADDICTIVE, especially if abused, and not taken as directed, or for their intended purpose. I have been on narcotic pain killers for going on 3 years now, (120 a month). Last month when I ran out, I decided to have my appointment moved further away, I went 10 days without any of my Norco's, and only suffered some very minor leg cramps for 1 and 1/2 days, then I was fine. If you ever start taking them as a recreational past time, or abuse them, then you will pay for it in the long run, cramps, headaches, depression, diarhia, vomiting, and more! What it all boils down to is, there is a reason they say to only take one every 6 to 8 hours AS NEEDED, for pain..... this is to help you from becoming dependant upon them, and also helps them do their job more efficiantly. I took up playing guitar, and writting songs that state how I am feeling that day, believe it or not, writting down my feelings, helped me vent, I am glad it did, I was affraid I was heading towards the prescription abuse myself. Maybe you should try something like that. Just a thought for you. GOOD LUCK MAN!

[PromisedLand]

I'm convinced my depression/anxiety is a result of my vic usage/addiction.  Once I'm off of them, next up is Ativan.


Jim

[addicted_to_vicoprofen]

I agree that eventually the opiates CAUSE depression instead of just making one feel good.  

[tztlady]

I know what you mean.  Why can't I just have my opiates AS ;an antidepressent?  I guess the reason is that it takes more and more to get the same effect.  Also, the damage the tylenol in them does to the liver is an issue.  Eventually the relief from depression can't be obtained through the opiates and the depression is even worse.  Short answer probably is because the opiates seduce us and then turn on us and stop working for us as well.  I wonder if they always work for some people.  hmmm?

[addicted_to_vicoprofen]

I was just switched from ativan to klonopin.  I luckily have never had a w/d period from the benzos I have taken.  I was on lexapro 20 mg. for my anxiety disorder / depression and last week was switched to effexor xr.  OMG, the difference was amazing within 3 days I no longer woke up with the "if i get out of bed my world will end feeling"  

good luck with both the vics and ativan.

corrine

[addicted_to_vicoprofen]

I suffer from severe anxiety and now depression.  You can do this.  It might seem like an impossibility, but believe me, if i can make it through, anyone can.  I wish you the best!

Corrine