Opiate addiction.

[VickiCrews]

I have been abusing opiates for years now, but it hasn't been until about 6 months ago when I got easy access to 10 mg Opanas that it became a problem. Long story short, the mg is now Opana 20s and i like to abuse ( get high) off of them but also I can't go through a day without at least having one (i break them into fourths for everytime i feel like im starting to detox) So basically, I take one just to feel like myself (& help with my anxiety) and then i'll take more if i feel like getting high that day. I am DESPERATE to get off before it gets worse. I never thought of it as a big deal until i ran out and went through  a day of the WORST withdrawals.. that scared the sht out of me. I'm 18, my parents don't know i have the problem but it's getting worse and i want so bad to take control of it before it's out of hand.

So, i have about 2 and a half opana 20s left.. my question, can i slowly taper off by using this last little bit? Or, I have someone who is prescribed to suboxone and has offered to give me 5 pills, he says that should get me clean without withdrawals. I need advice, or any kind of help. Please.
thanks, Vicki

[VickiCrews]

thanks everyone so much for your advice and motivation. i have a friend who told me that he has helped a few of his friends get clean by letting them have his prescription of suboxone. since i have no more opiates, and i have to work for the next 4 days, he gave me 4 pills of suboxone and told me that for him and everyone else, it worked to get them clean by taking it for the next few days and maybe taking a half a couple days then after that you might feel a little discomfort but nothing compared to the withdrawals of coming straight off opiates. i can't miss work and this idea sounded great to me so i did my last opana last night, then today, about an hour ago i started to feel the symptoms of withdrawal and took the first suboxone, which has completely taken those feelings away and i feel great. feeling this way without taking an opana makes me so happy, but i am still nervous that it won't be any different when i don't have anymore suboxone.. i read on many forums that it helped many people get off of it and people were told they should try it so it really gets my hopes up that it will work. i have read people saying suboxone is bad and addicting and withdrawals are worse on it, but i think those are people who have prescriptions or more of a supply of it, and i only have access to a few. i guess i'll just try and get more advice and see how it goes, i am determined though.. if this doesn't help i will take a few days off work because it's worth it to me to get clean. i wanna say yay! day 1 off opiates... but does it count with suboxone or am i only really getting clean when i'm not taking anything? anyways, any more advice would help. i really wanna do this, and it's still very scary. thanks again guys & sorry for such a long post.

[gnarly_1]

Hi and welcome to the forum...first off your not alone in this where all here to help you out
many here have been exactly where you are...I agree with the above posters you haven't
been on it that long and your dose is low...jumping off wont be comfortable but it will be doable you can prepare your self a bit...go to the upper right hand corner of the screen and look up the health pages....there is something called the thomas recipe it is full of supplements to make detoxing a little eazer...this is doable your probably scared dont be...this is the beginning to the end of what could turn into a life long mess...I road the narcotic train for 16 1/2yrs...its no way to go thew life...right now you have made the right choice buy wanting to quit b/4 it gets any worst....the longer you wait the worst it will be so cudos to you for doing it early on... now it is always worst in your mind then it really is going to be...the anxiety of doing it is often worst then your actual symptoms...go into this with a win win attitude it 1/3 physical 2/3rds mental
I say this to a lot of people but "you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile"
your symptoms will be a bit uncomfortable but it only last a few days its a lot like ketching the flu nothing anyone wants but it happens...keep posting here and we will all try to help you...there is a lot of support here and many are in the exact same stage as you right now...YOU CAN DO THIS  just know it is only a temporary thing once your off or even as you detox it would be good to check out an N/A meeting in your area there are a lot of people out there to support you and it will help you get to the root of why your getting high in the first place good luck on your journey may you find sobrity at its end.....God bless......Gnarly    

[LeaAnn807]

Either way, you need to stop the pills before this goes any farther.  If I were you, I would just stop and go through a few days of feeling bad.  You will have to do that no matter what.  You don't have enough to really taper, so the best thing is to flush the pills and be DONE with it!!!  

You are young, and your life is worth it!!!

Good luck!

TH

[taperme]

The good news is that you are taking a pretty low dose and have been taking it for a pretty short time. That will work to your advantage. From what I understand from your post, you take less than one pill most days, right? I think you could probably just stop cold turkey without too much difficulty. You may feel a little yucky for a few days but probably not too bad. I wouldn't go on Suboxone at that low dose without trying to quit on your own. That would be just substituting one thing to get off of for another and I think is more appropriate for someone on much higher amounts of drugs who has been unable to quit on their own.  You are smart to do something about this before it gets worse. Being 18, you have your whole life ahead of you and stopping now will be the best thing you can do. If you are absolutely sure you aren't ready to stop cold turkey, you could try to just take the one quarter pill only for a couple days, stretching out the amount of time between taking them.
Also, can you talk to your parents? You may be surprised by the support you get from them.  Keep posting here and asking questions and good luck.