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Hey, i've been on Oxycontin and norm's for about 3 years now for stomach pain (Really bad IBS and ulcers). Starting slow, but by the second year I was hoovering my prescriptions early, picking them up before time and upping my dose steadily.
When I first got on them they were a godsend, I was becoming suicidal with the pain/lack of sleep and I didn't find much of an answer about the actual causes until over a year later. At this point I should of stopped them, but I thought I could just do them for a few more times then quit... And almost two years later i'm sitting here with a 350ish mg per day habit. And I get the feeling that i'm never going to get rid of my stomach problems without getting off the oxy. (They're more manage-able than they're ever been, just not 100% still)
I'm on day two right now, and i've done this before. Cleaned up for a month or so before slowly slipping back into addict use again (recreational > I can't be arsed dealing with coming down > Addict). I think what i'm most aware of is that cleaning up is one thing, and holy heck it's not fun and i'm not looking forward to it plus my stomach issues do actually cause pain, It's the staying clean that's going to be an issue.
When I first got on them they were a godsend, I was becoming suicidal with the pain/lack of sleep and I didn't find much of an answer about the actual causes until over a year later. At this point I should of stopped them, but I thought I could just do them for a few more times then quit... And almost two years later i'm sitting here with a 350ish mg per day habit. And I get the feeling that i'm never going to get rid of my stomach problems without getting off the oxy. (They're more manage-able than they're ever been, just not 100% still)
I'm on day two right now, and i've done this before. Cleaned up for a month or so before slowly slipping back into addict use again (recreational > I can't be arsed dealing with coming down > Addict). I think what i'm most aware of is that cleaning up is one thing, and holy heck it's not fun and i'm not looking forward to it plus my stomach issues do actually cause pain, It's the staying clean that's going to be an issue.
Take regular baths, or showers if you can't have a bath. I've been having three per day and i'm sure as many as you can get is beneficial. Epsom salts also if you can.
How did you get into five 80's per day girl_2? Chronic pain aswell? Do you live alone? Or just not able to tell those around you?
Ouch, it sounds like your habits as big as mine girl_2. Thinking about it, i'm pretty sure i'm taking more like 400-500mgs per day, well was. Day seven so far, and the stomach pains come down to a more manageable level and will hopefully continue to do so as my body gets used to no painkillers. Heck, even my sense of taste is so much more acute.
It started to get better from Day five Wodagirl so don't give in now, stay strong because day three and four seem to always be the worst for the body pain and flatness/emotionless period I found. Day five you're still weak, but you can feel yourself finally getting a bit stronger.
And to be honest about the triggers EvolverU, thinking about it I actually did get off them for awhile a year and a half ago for a brief period. But a relationship gone ****** during that period triggered me big time. Started using for recreational again and before you know it I was back on the program.
It started to get better from Day five Wodagirl so don't give in now, stay strong because day three and four seem to always be the worst for the body pain and flatness/emotionless period I found. Day five you're still weak, but you can feel yourself finally getting a bit stronger.
And to be honest about the triggers EvolverU, thinking about it I actually did get off them for awhile a year and a half ago for a brief period. But a relationship gone ****** during that period triggered me big time. Started using for recreational again and before you know it I was back on the program.
I'm on day four. Oxys. I'm not doing too great....but, I'm hanging in there...I feel like WE CAN DO IT......
Hi all.. It is so nice to chat with people in the same boat as me. I am new to the site. I'm on 5x 80mg oxys a day. I need help! I am 29 and scared! How did this happen! I am here if you wanna talk.. Maybe we can help each other!! I'm so sacred I can't even explain.. And sooo alone! Days are a blur and just go by so fast!! It's sad...
How is your day going??
How is your day going??
Yeah, I'm pretty restricted with diet. Mainly because of the IBS though, ulcers is just no spicy/sour/hot food and no caffeine plus minimal sugar. Paleo (caveman) diet for the IBS, so no grains/seeds/nuts/beans.
It really is mostly the pain that keeps me coming back to the oxys. This is the kind of pain you could shoot me and it'd be a relief. I think it's also do to with a lack of faith that i'm actually going to get better. It can be very hard with long term chronic pain, especially in the stomach since eating food is really not at all satisfying and ultimately rather painful. In the stomach immediately usually, and in the gut later on during digestion. I don't think i've felt like i've had a full bowel motion for over five years (had this problem before opiates)
It really is mostly the pain that keeps me coming back to the oxys. This is the kind of pain you could shoot me and it'd be a relief. I think it's also do to with a lack of faith that i'm actually going to get better. It can be very hard with long term chronic pain, especially in the stomach since eating food is really not at all satisfying and ultimately rather painful. In the stomach immediately usually, and in the gut later on during digestion. I don't think i've felt like i've had a full bowel motion for over five years (had this problem before opiates)
Hey Jethro, Ricart was here earlier, but he might not be around right now. I just wanted to congratulate you on day six! I read your thread and I'm proud of you. How's it going? Is there a special diet you can follow for the ulcers? Probably not very appetizing but I'd imagine it would help ease the pain a little. Also, what do you think brings you back to using again and again (I mean besides the ulcer?)
Thanks for your previous support.
I'm back, and i'm on day six so far. Feeling good about it, even found an old stash on day 3 and didn't crumble. I'm still in agonizing pain from the ulcer and intestines. My friend made me a stew with a whole can of tomatoes on day 2 I think it was and i've just felt like my insides have been burnt since then.
Anyhu's, just checking in I guess and saying hi :)
I'm back, and i'm on day six so far. Feeling good about it, even found an old stash on day 3 and didn't crumble. I'm still in agonizing pain from the ulcer and intestines. My friend made me a stew with a whole can of tomatoes on day 2 I think it was and i've just felt like my insides have been burnt since then.
Anyhu's, just checking in I guess and saying hi :)
Thanks for your support. I'm not proud to say I relapsed this afternoon on day four. Though on a brighter note I've arranged to get away down country for a few weeks to get out of this situation. I've tried so many times in the last few months to give up. I get to day 3-4, and with a friend up the road and easy doctor access this just isn't working this time. I'll have no access to any meds, and no animals (birds who constantly make me climb trees to get them back and fly off unexpectedly into vulnerable spots). Every time one of them flies away during a w/d my body just cringes, plus the little one could get munched easily (other is a cockatoo so she takes care of herself better, just doesn't fly home and is very noisy).
Anyhu's, I did come to a realization today. That it really isn't my friend. Even when I've said before to myself I want out I've always still thought of it as an old mate somewhere deep down, that let me do things I might not of done otherwise. I've learnt to sing mildly o.k, and since I learnt to do it while high and going yee-ha i'll start with Doh and Dear and see where it goes (as an example) I think I've attributed values that don't really exist except in my faulty perception which is really being driven by an unconscious force. I didn't even feel that good when I had my fix, pain was a lot better, but not at all like the elemental beating me up the last few days has been whispering in my ear it was going to be like that's for sure. Sick of feeling 60-70% and queasy all the time, with the pain there but dulled. When you're w/d'ing the beast is telling you it's gonna be great and super and 100% but it's really not true.
Feels positive to get help from friends and getting back in touch with friendships feel like it's opening up my sense of things actually mattering and having a future. I've been getting into my own hole and forgetting there is a rest of the world lately. Anyhow, I'm going to stop tomorrow so I don't completely dump on my friend and drive down as passenger on day four.
What i'm interested to know if anyone can shed some light is have I gone back to day one? Or can I maybe expect to be feeling a bit better in 4-5 days instead of say 7-10? I've had about 300mg's this afternoon (slightly under my usual daily dose) if that's relevant.
Anyhu's, I did come to a realization today. That it really isn't my friend. Even when I've said before to myself I want out I've always still thought of it as an old mate somewhere deep down, that let me do things I might not of done otherwise. I've learnt to sing mildly o.k, and since I learnt to do it while high and going yee-ha i'll start with Doh and Dear and see where it goes (as an example) I think I've attributed values that don't really exist except in my faulty perception which is really being driven by an unconscious force. I didn't even feel that good when I had my fix, pain was a lot better, but not at all like the elemental beating me up the last few days has been whispering in my ear it was going to be like that's for sure. Sick of feeling 60-70% and queasy all the time, with the pain there but dulled. When you're w/d'ing the beast is telling you it's gonna be great and super and 100% but it's really not true.
Feels positive to get help from friends and getting back in touch with friendships feel like it's opening up my sense of things actually mattering and having a future. I've been getting into my own hole and forgetting there is a rest of the world lately. Anyhow, I'm going to stop tomorrow so I don't completely dump on my friend and drive down as passenger on day four.
What i'm interested to know if anyone can shed some light is have I gone back to day one? Or can I maybe expect to be feeling a bit better in 4-5 days instead of say 7-10? I've had about 300mg's this afternoon (slightly under my usual daily dose) if that's relevant.
Thanks for the reply. Really helps to hear some else's take on the "you can't live without me" b.s.
Actually feeling ok'ish, just mentally feeling really weak. I might try and ride to a friends house a pass some time. Was so close to crumbling before, I have a friend down the road who's out this weekend as well and seeing him before, we almost went and got some more.
Actually feeling ok'ish, just mentally feeling really weak. I might try and ride to a friends house a pass some time. Was so close to crumbling before, I have a friend down the road who's out this weekend as well and seeing him before, we almost went and got some more.
You can get back.Just hang in there .Right now I know you feel awful and the only thing you can do is just get through the days.Don't go back now.Things will become more tolerable soon and then normal.The drug is playing tricks on you.I know if I started using,even for a few days,my mind would start that you don't even know how to live without me b.s. I used to take that same thought well into recovery(because I was told too) but had to discard it because it was not a valid or even true.All that thought served was to keep me weak and ultimately to kill me. Hang in there buddy
Oh, man. Day three and blue. Didn't sleep much last night. I want to get off these so terribly, but the two mind syndrome is so hard to deal with right now.
I guess it's just that I really can't remember what it feels like to be normal. I was sick for years before I got on the Oxy's. Surfing and Yoga used to be my life, I've strayed so far and i'm just feeling so lost. It's hard to convince myself i'll ever get back on that level.
I guess it's just that I really can't remember what it feels like to be normal. I was sick for years before I got on the Oxy's. Surfing and Yoga used to be my life, I've strayed so far and i'm just feeling so lost. It's hard to convince myself i'll ever get back on that level.
Ah, Saturday morning in New Zealand here. Thanks for the reply ricart70, what usually happens is I get to day 4-7 and crumble because my stomach really does cause a lot of pain and the IBS is terrible if I've eaten the wrong foods. I usually just want a night of sleep more than anything and the oxy's=sleep.
In saying that, diligent diet watching can keep the worst under control and i'm going to make it through time. Sleep is the constant thorn in my side here as the time's I've been off the oxy, it's back to the old problem of struggling to sleep with an uncomfortable and painful stomach.
In saying that, diligent diet watching can keep the worst under control and i'm going to make it through time. Sleep is the constant thorn in my side here as the time's I've been off the oxy, it's back to the old problem of struggling to sleep with an uncomfortable and painful stomach.
Hey glad you posted and glad to meet you! It is always a little slow here on friday nights.Great job on day 2. I know what you mean by the feelings.Just as the buzz provides a pretty good facsimile of a good happy feeling,the withdrawal provides a feeling every bit as real as true hopelessness.Just keep going and try to get your mind off of it by watching a movie or taking a walk,a long one. I find that I had the same trouble as you with staying clean but once I realized that it can take a while to really become stable I had much better luck and could feel comfortable being sober.If you have only stayed clean for two weeks try making it a month.If you have only stayed clean for a month try two and I guarantee you will feel better at two than you did at one. You can do it.Keep posting buddy lots of good people here.
The feeling of complete pointlessness keep's coming upon me, it's really hard to shake. I know it's part of the w/d but that knowledge only midly helps in an intellectual way. I did massge, and tought yoga, well, I did before this all happened. So i'm going to try and do a whole lot of that plus meditation with this one and see if it helps. I know from past experience it's so hard to find meaning in anything for days/weeks. Meaning that detracts from the hot/cold, lack of energy and constant trips to the bathroom that is anyway...
I think I feel much better just making a post. I've been trolling these forums for the last year and so many stories sound like mine, albeit different circumstances. I didn't think I needed to post, but doing so I feel better I did.
I think I feel much better just making a post. I've been trolling these forums for the last year and so many stories sound like mine, albeit different circumstances. I didn't think I needed to post, but doing so I feel better I did.
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