Oxycodone Addiction

[tee1205]

I am a 17 year old male who lives in Southwest Florida. I am currently addicted to Oxycodone 30 mgs, also known as Roxys, or Blues. I have been addicted to Roxys a few months shy of 2 years. In Florida, there is a huge oxycodone epidemic, I would compare it to the HIV/AIDS epidemic in Africa. There are thousands of pain clinics all over the state of Florida who advertise in newspapers the kind of drugs they give out (Roxy 30 mgs, Xanax 2 mgs, Just bring your MRI!) It's insane how abused the system is here, but even more insane is how the doctors know each and every single thing that they're doing is illegal. There have been clinics reported all over who are carrying $200,000-$300,000 dollars in cash out the back door in trashbags every single day! You pay cash for your MRI, you pay cash for your doctor's visit because most clinics say they can't accept insurance currently because they're new and haven't been able to set up the system (which is b/s), and then you pay cash for your pills that you fill at the in house pharmacy so you don't take the prescriptions out to Walgreens or CVS who electronically keep track of the prescriptions filled. During my junior year in high school, my addiction started and followed me into my senior year before I was forced to withdraw from school due to excessive absences and failure of more than 4 out of 8 classes. I am a very intelligent kid, I made good grades and did awesome in school until my weekend partying turned into full blown addiction. I started snorting them and then I learned how to get them into a needle and it was really downhill from there. I'm cover in track marks, my body is so depleted and sore and tired. I never have energy to do anything and I know my body is f****d up right now. I have unsuccessfully tried to detox and stay sober about 5 different times. I have turned everyone against me, my friends are gone, my family doesn't trust me or believe anything that I say, I have no money and can't even tell you how I financially fuel my addiction. I need help, and I've known that since the first day I felt withdrawal. I feel helpless because I've tried so many times and have failed, and I have no one to talk to who understands my addiction or knows what I'm going through. Try explaining dope sickness to your 56 year old parents and how bad it *****. They have no clue what it even means. The are about 10 or more serious withdrawal symptoms from opiates and each one of them is HELL! At this point, I just don't know what to do or try anymore. There's a lot going on and I guess my question would be, any advice?

[jayeye]

tee u still with us post if or checking in pls I sent u a message we can help

[ohyeahohyeah88]

hello, i was just researching roxy's or dilaudids, because....i too was addicted....on and off for...5 or 6 years. i mean...i dont think that i did as many as most people who are addicted are. but...i would do....one or two here and there....10 one day....3 another....but....i've never gone through SERIOUS withdrawals...i just feel kinda crappy and tired for a few days....but i still do what i need to do.....in my opinion....if you dont honestly need these for pain....then do yoga...or pilates...take a walk...drink a glass of wine.....just do a pill once in a while when your in pain...thats what i do....but thats just me...everyone is different.

[Massman508]

I understand it's for addiction, I have legitimate chronic pain that I need these for. I have been in Naples for 4 days and have not gotten out of the house because I cannot withstand the pain. I am sorry I am asking but this is not how I want to spend my vacation, bed ridden and in pain. Please help

[bama88]

Were trying to quit man. So why would you ask this kid where to get them? Shame on you. This is a forum for addiction. Not supplying. Go somewheres else please. I understand you left your oxies at home. But please respect this is a forum for addiction. Not to keep using. If you want help and want to stop then join us. If not please respect our forum. This kids fighting for his life. Did you read thru the post? Good luck.

[Massman508]

I am from mass and left my script at home for my perc 30s.. I have to separated discs in my back from falling off a ladder and am here in Naples for the rest of the week for vacation and cannot do anything because of the pain... Can anyone recommend any clinics or can anyone here help? Thank you

[swflafun]

Hey man, I hear you LOUD and CLEAR. I'm in Naples, 40, spent the last 18+ months of my life with a "whatever I could afford" habit on the infamous blueberries. And I could afford a lot. 7-15 per day. Never managed a needle, I have a phobia of needles, but was snorting 3-5 at a time.

The big question has already been stated: Are YOU ready to quit? I know about parents too, mine are in their early 70s and have had a serious problem with understanding addiction, plus my twin brother gets the cocktail of 120 30s, 60 15s and 2mg xanax per month. He got me started and it was all downhill from there.

There is a thing called the Marchman Act in Florida. As a juvenille, I am not sure exactly how it works, but it basically boils down to this: If you are danger to you or yourself, you can be forced by the county to be commited for drug detox. It involves having a family member filing this at the courthouse. You will have to go to court. As long as YOU are willing to accept it, they will transfer you to a detox clininc, probably SWFAS in Ft Myers. If you are not voluntarily willing to go, they can force you. Only problem, it's 3 days max and you are going to be a screaming maniac at the end of day three. This is usally a last option alternative. The key here is, are YOU willing to go? If you are, it may be a step in the right direction.

Check your MedHelp email box, I am going to send you a note shortly.

Hang in, I know it seems like you have no options, but you really do and this IS beatable. It's not easy, it's not fun, but once you see life without that opiate fog, you will be in total amazement of how wondeful life can truly be. You just need to want it.

Gary

[jrizzy303]

Im actually not leaving.change of plans. Yeah I started painpills at sixteen. before pills it was weed, coke, x, anything until i found pills. They are the devil. Me and my brother were both into them and we were pill buddies along with being very close. For years up into my age 21 I we were on them. I then turned to suboxone. But it didnt stop there I was back and forth from doctors to get pills to suboxone rippen my brain back and fourth. Until this passed year my brother and friend were robbed at gun point and for there roxys 30mg. Friend stabbed then both shot. It was a wake up call. Very sad time now. But I have to now get clean because they werent able too so now I get sober for them. I tapered down to 2mg of suboxone and then stopped I at 18 days clean today. I think suboxone is a very good option if you failed many times cold turkey. My brother tried methadone but it seemed to make things worse cause the meth dont block the worse pain pills. Suboxone has pill blocker that saved me many times from getting high cause to get high I had to detox from sub and that aint fun to stop for three days just to get high. Hang in there

[jrizzy303]

Boy I sure can relate to you I live in fl too. I would love to chat with you I got to run out for a few minutes but when I get back we will chat. Hang in there I may have words to help you

[soaddicted]

im also only saying about the methadone and sub if you absolutely couldnt do it cold turkey. but with your age i really think you could go cold turkey if you really want this..

[soaddicted]

i completely understand about you not blaming them because we are the addicts and your right we lie and manipulate to the fullest. have you looked into methadone maintenance or suboxene? there are alot of people on here that had done both that could help you with those because they have been on them. sub is kinda expensive without insurance but methadone maintenance you pay by the day which is anywhere from 10 to 12 dollars a day. are you detoxing now or you still able to get pills?

[throwindatowl]

Hey bro, You wrote a long post how much the blues s.ck. How they are ruining your life. Let me say Im 36 daysclean from blues. I live in fl too and know exactly what your talking about. They are way to easy to get. I feel bad for the young people. Im sooo glad those werent around when I was younger. Im 35. Ive been addicted for afew years as well. I never shot up but that doesnt matter. Dont beat yourself up over this man. Ive tried to quit before too. Many times. I realized now that I didnt really wanna quit. I do now. Do you? Do you really wanna quit? You can make it through the wds. You can. My advise. Answer that one question honestly. Do you really wanna quit? If you answered yes then I would go to a na mtg asap. I know bro. NA! You dont have a choice really. You need people that understand you. Your an addict now and its your responsibility to go get help for yourself. Its not just a drug problem man. Your an addict. I know it hurts to admit it. It hurt alot but admitting that made getting the help alot easier. If you keep going you will get yourself back man. Youll be able to look at yourself in the mirror and your family in the eyes. Its the blues that make you lie, steal, and cheat, I did all those things and staying clean is the ONLY way I can make it up to them. There is great people here. Listen. I have a hard time with that. Your parents dont get wds. They do get there son going and getting help for HIS problem. They dont have to get it. I wish you well bro. Be strong. Remember your life without the posion. Im getting mine back and LOVE IT! Fight for yourself. You can only do this. Your young. You got this rest of your life bro. Do it. Go get help man. It will help you more than youll ever know. Your addict friend in VENICE FL.  Jason. Do it today man.

[tee1205]

Currently, I have no insurance. I've spoken with about every rehab and detox center in the state of Florida, if it's not $20,000, they don't accept juveniles, and there's no state funded programs in Florida either. My family is aware of my addiction, yes, but they have not known since the beginning, I would say about 6 months though. I don't blame them for not helping, because I lie to them and manipulate like any and every addict does.

[soaddicted]

hey there, im so sorry your going through this and even worse to be so young wow my heart hurts for you. but with that said i know what your going through and its hard. but you have to get help your life depends on it. do you have a regular dr?? so does your family know about your addiction? im just trying to get some more info so we can talk more..