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PAIN KILLERS!!! How do I get back to the person I was before
This really *****! I want to be rid of this nightmare of a life that i have made for myself. I feel so ungrateful for all the wonderful blessings I have. Three beautiful heatlhy smart children that are so wonderful. A husband that is battling the same addiction as I but none the less hes a great man. Days he feels like crap he still goes to work to provide for our family and pushes me to go each day. I'm to the point that I can no longer fight this. Ive always been what they call a "cookie cutter" wife and mother. Volunteered for just about everything there was to sign up for. Always overloaded myself and overdid myself even when i knew it was too much i always found a way to make it work. 5 yrs ago I had a uterin ablassion(sp?) in which i ended up with a hurt back as I was awake for the procedure and was so tense and twisted up from the pain my back has not been the same ever since. I started taking vicodin for pain after all my homeopathic methods failed. Vicodin made me feel like I could conquer the world and still be the outgoing soccer mom I had always been. Always on the go mondays gym tues gym wed church thurs gym fri was fam night sat church and sunday was cleaning day. Here I am 5 years later struggling just to get my kids to school on time daily and get if anything at all done at home. How did I get here and not realize where the pain killers were gonna get me. Why do doctors not inform their patients what the long term side affects and withdrawls of coming off the medication would be?? I'm so sad and depressed now they are putting me on a low dose of xanax .25mg 3x daily and lamictal. 1x daily for two weeks then 2x daily for 2 weeks. The meds make me more tired and 10x grouchier. I know the dr. says it takes time to find the right meds for each person but why put me on more meds when i cant get off the meds im already on? I need help! I dont want to be on these pain killers anymore but dont know how or even when I'll have the time to get off of them with three kids who go constantly. Anyone out there have any ideas for me. Im lost and want to get back to the person i was before this took hold of my life! This is a great place I can see already. So much support from others I see to one another. I wish it was like this in the real world. No judgmental people who look down apon you for taking what your doctor said was ok......i just feel like screaming.......i feel like i hate everyone. i have no patience i feel like just screaming driving somewhere but where theres no where id want to go. I feel like im in a hampster wheel running and running and getting nowhere! does anyone else out there no how i feel?
Hi , Tell your husband that you need to do this to save your life . He can't be in the pill world and help you . Not with pills so easy to get and being around someone using . not ever going to work .
Have him think about maybe doing this together as the most importent thing you could do for yourselfs and each other . Get back your healthy , happy , lifes together ....
It takes only a few days of W/D to get years of happy normal life back , it's so worth it ... Ron
Have him think about maybe doing this together as the most importent thing you could do for yourselfs and each other . Get back your healthy , happy , lifes together ....
It takes only a few days of W/D to get years of happy normal life back , it's so worth it ... Ron
I was previously taking up to 6-8 10mg narco perk or vicodin. Never anything harder than that. I have now weined myself down to 2-3 10mg norco a day. the doctor doesnt know about the pain killer addiction bc im affraid to spill the beans. Even if the doc did take me off i still have access to a lot of them due to my husbands prior surgeries hes perscribed 100 10mg per month. My husband wants to quit as well and his top rated stl sugeon has told him that pain killers acutally manipulate you into thinking youre in pain when you arent. At this point i want us both to live free of this madness but my first and foremost important thing right now is me getting well for my kids. So with that being said should i just continue to wein myself back every few days and try thomas recipee or should i just keep weining myself . thank you so much for the out pooring of support and love i feel from you all already. I've never been so dedicated to anything than i am right now. im ready and willing even if its just me doing it and not my husband.
Tramadol withdrawls for me were worse but also i switched from the tramadol(ultram) to vicodin so it wasnt as bad. Ive also seen people detox from vicodin or other pain med to tramadol to help taper off and that worked foer them as well. but none the less they never got clean so....
the problem with the tramadol is that you can take less and they are stronger. Or they were for me anyways. I can now take 2 of them a day. and be fine allday long. they make you much more wide eyed. I always felt like i was bug eyed when i took them. Even when i look in pics of myself i can tell when i am on tramadol but never could if i was on the other pain meds. I do know that some ppeople have had neurological side affects from abusing tramadol. I had a friend who began to have seizures from over use of them. They also say that mixing the muscle relaxer Soma and tramadol can cause neurological affects as well. I;ve seen that happen first hand so I hope no one out there that can see this is taking them together. that is very scary. Those are my thoughts on the Ultrams(tramadol). thanks for the feedback its very comforting. Lots of love to all the supporters!
Tramadol withdrawls for me were worse but also i switched from the tramadol(ultram) to vicodin so it wasnt as bad. Ive also seen people detox from vicodin or other pain med to tramadol to help taper off and that worked foer them as well. but none the less they never got clean so....
the problem with the tramadol is that you can take less and they are stronger. Or they were for me anyways. I can now take 2 of them a day. and be fine allday long. they make you much more wide eyed. I always felt like i was bug eyed when i took them. Even when i look in pics of myself i can tell when i am on tramadol but never could if i was on the other pain meds. I do know that some ppeople have had neurological side affects from abusing tramadol. I had a friend who began to have seizures from over use of them. They also say that mixing the muscle relaxer Soma and tramadol can cause neurological affects as well. I;ve seen that happen first hand so I hope no one out there that can see this is taking them together. that is very scary. Those are my thoughts on the Ultrams(tramadol). thanks for the feedback its very comforting. Lots of love to all the supporters!
I saw from your earlier post that you have used tramadol. That is a different type of painkiller that some find harder to withdraw from. Need a little more info about that particular med.
i know exactly where your at! Exactly! I dont have a husband but I do have 3 kids and im day 6 now from a roxy addiction. I still eel like crud, but Im making it, and we will both be better mothers because oF it!
Wow, you have a lot on your plate. You do know that being a super woman is not mandatory?? your children need YOU not the super you. I know the media makes it seem like we as women need to be everything for everyone and that is just wrong. You sound like a good person in a bad situation.
Getting clean is very doable. One suggestion is to tell your doctor. I say that knowing how difficult that is...been there, done that and have the tshirt. Hardest damn thing I ever did. Cutting my supply was the only way for me to be sure to never go back. A good doctor will help you with a taper plan. That will make the withdrawals bearable (not go away, but better). If that is not an option then let us help you go cold turkey. It really depends on how much you are taking. You are young, but there are some medical conditions to consider if you have any that could endanger you.
The trick is the timing. You have to be ready for about 3-5 days of being very uncomfortable... much like having the flu. After that you need to be ready for some residual effects...sleep problems, possible restless leg issues, depression and anxiety. After about 30 days they seem to get better for most.
My main concern is for anyone dealing with addiction after detox. Just stopping the pills is actually the easier part of withdrawals. The mental cravings and habit of taking pills and why needs to be addressed via supports like NA, AA or possibly private therapist. But, that is down the line. I just know that without those supports many relapse.
As a back pain sufferer of many, many years....I found for myself that my body seemed to be making it worse so that I would continue the pills. Many others have reported much the same. Typically after 30 days of being clean many then can tell where their pain levels really are.
Keep coming back and post so we can continue to support you. glad you got here. It made all the difference to me and many others.
Getting clean is very doable. One suggestion is to tell your doctor. I say that knowing how difficult that is...been there, done that and have the tshirt. Hardest damn thing I ever did. Cutting my supply was the only way for me to be sure to never go back. A good doctor will help you with a taper plan. That will make the withdrawals bearable (not go away, but better). If that is not an option then let us help you go cold turkey. It really depends on how much you are taking. You are young, but there are some medical conditions to consider if you have any that could endanger you.
The trick is the timing. You have to be ready for about 3-5 days of being very uncomfortable... much like having the flu. After that you need to be ready for some residual effects...sleep problems, possible restless leg issues, depression and anxiety. After about 30 days they seem to get better for most.
My main concern is for anyone dealing with addiction after detox. Just stopping the pills is actually the easier part of withdrawals. The mental cravings and habit of taking pills and why needs to be addressed via supports like NA, AA or possibly private therapist. But, that is down the line. I just know that without those supports many relapse.
As a back pain sufferer of many, many years....I found for myself that my body seemed to be making it worse so that I would continue the pills. Many others have reported much the same. Typically after 30 days of being clean many then can tell where their pain levels really are.
Keep coming back and post so we can continue to support you. glad you got here. It made all the difference to me and many others.
I totally know how you feel . . . . I have been there and then some. At least you are facing it now; I let mine go on for about 15 years; years I can't get back and most of which I barely remember!
How much Vicodin are you taking? Does the Dr. that you just went to know about the pain meds you are currently taking? Is there anyone you can talk to about a taper plan? It is really important to learn the right way to do it when you are ready, because it can be dangerous to stop suddenly. In any case, you came to the right place. There are so many people here to offer their experience, support and information.
It IS really hard to do it all - and the pills trick you into thinking they help; especially at first when they mask the pain so well. But you can get them out of your life for good. It will not be easy, but then it seems that nothing worth having ever is!
How much Vicodin are you taking? Does the Dr. that you just went to know about the pain meds you are currently taking? Is there anyone you can talk to about a taper plan? It is really important to learn the right way to do it when you are ready, because it can be dangerous to stop suddenly. In any case, you came to the right place. There are so many people here to offer their experience, support and information.
It IS really hard to do it all - and the pills trick you into thinking they help; especially at first when they mask the pain so well. But you can get them out of your life for good. It will not be easy, but then it seems that nothing worth having ever is!
Hi , Welcome , Many people here have been where your at . You can get the advise , support from others who are now pill free thanks to this site .
It works . Just post questions .
Whats your dose ?
Is Hubby ready to quit or just you ?
It will be very hard to quit with pills at hand . Hubby has pills . Don't think it will work . To easy to get if you have a weak min. and you will have weak min's .
You can do this ,
Yes the first 100 hours are like a bad flu and you will feel like crap , But about day 3-5 you start to feel a bit better . The worst of the discomfort is near gone .
you will start to feel better about yourself , pride in fighting for your life back
You will have little sleep , energy , emotions very messed up . All of this is normal detox W/D . Some have it harder some not as hard . But no one ever dies .
About day 10-14 you will feel so much better , life is good again .
about day 30-60 you will be near normal again and very happy ,
Life without pain pills is really nice , I should know , thanks to the help , support i received here i am now over 4 months (100mg a day Norco )pain pill free .
You can do this ... Ron
It works . Just post questions .
Whats your dose ?
Is Hubby ready to quit or just you ?
It will be very hard to quit with pills at hand . Hubby has pills . Don't think it will work . To easy to get if you have a weak min. and you will have weak min's .
You can do this ,
Yes the first 100 hours are like a bad flu and you will feel like crap , But about day 3-5 you start to feel a bit better . The worst of the discomfort is near gone .
you will start to feel better about yourself , pride in fighting for your life back
You will have little sleep , energy , emotions very messed up . All of this is normal detox W/D . Some have it harder some not as hard . But no one ever dies .
About day 10-14 you will feel so much better , life is good again .
about day 30-60 you will be near normal again and very happy ,
Life without pain pills is really nice , I should know , thanks to the help , support i received here i am now over 4 months (100mg a day Norco )pain pill free .
You can do this ... Ron
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