PARANOIA

[stilltrying1965]

I felt good today but when Kim went out to her mums for a while (1st time shes been out) I got really paranoid and started to panic and convince myself that she had scored deep down i know she didnt but is this normal. I do trust her to stick with it and i know she didnt do anything but i dont think shes strong enough to turn down a dealer yet and it made me want to use again but i didnt leave the house but got more and more agitated and annoyed and angry until she came back. I kept saying to her youve scored i know you have id convinced myself she had but i looked into her eyes and knew she hadnt. Why did i get so angry..........................................................

[faithnhope41]

God bless you both. You're irritable because you're detoxing, You're scared for her and you, this isn't paranoia, it's normal.  I've never detoxed off heroin, but have been addicted to oxycontin and I'm told it's just as bad.  You sound sincere about quitting, but being with a fellow addict isn't easy. Keep each other strong, and show some faith in one another. & days is awesome, keep going, you CAN DO THIS. Remember you're going to be angry and sad and irritated for the next few weeks, understand this is all part of your body transitioning from addicted to normal. Stay strong. take care

[dominosarah]

These feelings are normal right now.  It takes our brain awhile to relax.  All these emotions are going to pour out now.  Give her a hug and tell her you are proud of her.  It is really nice to hear she got out.  Maybe a walk for the both of you would help too.  Fresh air is good!!!!  Keep fighting with the strength and determination you 2 have had.  You are over a week clean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!       sara

[10356]

Good for you james you did not leave the house in such a state.. I'm glad kim came home with no H .. as said above our emotions are right there on the surface.. If you both can get out for walks it will help with the anxiety.. Paranoia is normal you want to protect your two's sobriety.. give kim a big hug tell her you are proud of her and keep going forward.. lesa

[worried878]

hard when both are weak...someone needs to take the lead...r u seeking aftercare?....trust is an issue and can be hard when addiction is involved...live each day and feel good each day that u made it thru clean..and keep coming back