PLEASE HELP ME !!!!! PLEASE READ!!!

[PLSHLP713]

I have been taking lorects for about 5 years now and I take anywhere from 15-30 a day, everyday sing day  I have no idea how to kick the habit because I have a full-time job and I know that I cant go to a residential treatment center.  Someone please help!!!!  I have no idea what to do, and my addiction keeps getting stronger and stronger.  Is there anyone out there that has any adivce??

[kolo13]

STOP,STOP,STOP!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!   You can do this without a residential treatment center. Enlist a loved one or friend to help you. Have them dole out your pills  in smaller amounts on some kind of schedule to get you to a lower dose. Then stop taking them completely on a tuesday. Call in sick with swine flu on wednesday. That will give you a five day weekend to detox. Stay online, you will get support here and all kinds of practical advice on how to get through it. It is doable and you get your life back. Obviously this is just one of a million different plans you could make, but MAKE A PLAN. Good luck.

[PLSHLP713]

Wow, thank you so much for your advice.  I cant believe how fast I got a response, with a problem that I have been dealing with for 5 years, so I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  So since Ive been taking so many for so long I dont know how to detox myself.  I did get some subutex from a guy last night who is trying to kick that habit as well, but Im nervous about taking it at work for the first time tomorrow.  I know that suboxone works, because I did go to a traetment center 2 years ago and I remember that pill being wonderful when it came to withdrawals, but im that familiar with subutex.  Either way, my family does support me (mom and dad) with my recovery, but I think its time for me to handle this myself.  I've put them through too much already... Please respond.  Believe it or not, youre one of the only ones I can turn to right now...

[keekee57]

Thats a great suggestion. Believe me you are not alone. I battled my addiction to pain pills and benzos for 14 years. Today I cannot smell anything, NOTHING!!! I snorted everything in sight for the last 3 years of my addiction, and it got me. Its sad that now I cannot smell the roses, smell or taste the food I eat, or smell my wifes sweet perfume. But I have my life, and a great support system like this one, so come along and join the forum, there are some very supportive folks on this site such as kolo, we have all been there, and that is the best thing you can do, call in tuesday for the swine flu, and keep all of us posted, every minute if you want. Believe me recovery is a wonderful thing. Work it.

[ZJILLIAN]

I love kolo13's answer to your post. It is the best of plans boiled down to essential.
You do not need a treatment center, but you need to use this site as a support daily. You will feel all sorts of things and will need to talk to us about what you are going through. I think when we say that you can detox on your own we actually mean with the help of this forum or something similar. \

If you have never experienced a withdrawal it can be lonely and frightening so it is important to keep posting and reading posts as you decide on your plan and begin to taper.

You can do this. Really! And your acknowledgment of the problem is the brave first step. In other words; you have already started to do something about your addiction.

[PLSHLP713]

I am almost to the point of tears reading the posts that have been written.  I honestly feel like in these past few hours, I have already buit a support system, even if it is with ppl Ive never met.  So thank you all so very much.  I must say, I am nervous about tomorrow at work, but I am confident that by self-detoxing with a subutex taper, I will be able to beat this terrible addiction.  I promise I will update this post on how my first day of  recovery was tomorrow whenever I get off work.  I also want to attend some AA meetings at somepoint, its just so tough, with my job being as demanding as it is.  And if worst comes to worse, I will call in sick and keep my eyes glue to this website for yalls support.  I feel like I want to thank each of you a million times, because for the first time in my life, I am actually doing something about my addiction, and I am doing it on my own.

I have been battling and hiding this slient addiction for a long time now, and I have finally had enough.  I feel like I have been a complete burden on my family, who continue to love and stand by me, even though I feel like I dont deserve what I have been given.  I come from a good family, but unfortunatley, my family had no idea about my addiction, and really have no idea how to handle one or live with one.  And I guess, thats why I feel so alonf right now.  But  I know I can do this, and finding this website has already given me hope and encouragement, so thank you again so much.

I am new to this site, but I saw a 'friends list' tab, I believe...  Is there any way, I can keep in contact with you guys on this site?  Or just through the post?

[avisg]

If you are going to take sub get it from a doctor DO NOT GET IT FROM YOUR FRIENDS.
You need to be monitored by a doctor that know what they are doing .If you want to get clean you have to stop the addictive behavior getting drugs off the streets is addictive behavior.

[ineedtochange]

You can do it!! Today is my six day sober. The withdraws suck like hell but I mean the way I thought of it is if I really had the flu thats how i'd feel and theres nothing I could do about it. The withdraws go away andd then you have to battle the mental issue. Thats what this site is really good for. My suggestion is just take naproxen for the aches or suboxone if you got some and take somthing for sleeping. Take hot baths and keep yourself occupied. Thats good you have a fulltime job that'll help. You dont want to miss too much work though because keeping your mind busy is a good thing. And if you ever feel like talking just come on this site. Im new to this site and thats what i've been doing. I have more of mental problem with it then physical. I just crave tooooo much!! Good luck. Im here.

[PainKillsMe]

Today is also my 6th day and withdrawal does sux, but I feel like a new woman since day 4, 5 and now 6 of being drug free.  I can fall asleep with the aid of pain pills and I function soooooooooo much better.  Fortunately for me I am between jobs so it was easy to lay on the couch all day and read threads from this site.  Keep reading the post and keep posting here.  It will surely help you.  It did for me.

[PainKillsMe]

I meant to say, I can fall asleep WITHOUT the aid of pain pills.  

Oh yea, I took a lot of hot baths the first 4 days.  Then they tapered off to 2 the 5th and now only one the 6th day, but I felt the need to take one today.  Its all good now!!!  I have so much more energy than ever before.

[dominosarah]

Why did you feel the need to take a pill today?

[troubleinohio]

we are here for you , but listen-- i have to highly advise against using your friend's SUB!! FOr many reasons! First of all you have to be in WD for so many hours before taking it and Im not sure on all those exact details...but even if you know how to take it correctly...who's to say your friend has enugh Sub to share with you? HOw long did you plan on using your buddy's Sub? You dont want to end up in WD from SUB..that will be worse , FAR WORSE to WD from than your current hydro problem.  You dont want to CT off SUB, honey.
Get yourself some Immodium or Pepto for the diarrhea that will come, some advil for the bodyaches and pains (or whatver OTC pain reliever you prefer) and tough it out. YOu can do this, and we are here for you. I just hope to see you do it the right way, okay? Please keep us updated!

[scaredmom330]

I am here for you! we all want to support and help you. but I agree don't take the sub! make a taper plan, pick a jump off date and do as kolo said make it a tuesday and call off and have a 5 day weekend, but the following monday you will be feeling good. stick with us.check out the thomas reciepe and aminio acid protocol.. good luck my friend!

[PLSHLP713]

Hello everyone!!!  I have been so anxious to get off work and tell yall what happened today.  I woke up this morning and was very hesitant to take the half of the subutex, but did any way and I am glad I did!  At first, I didnt know what to expect, or what to feel because Ive never taken sub before, and to be quite honest I really didnt feel anything.  I had the otherhalf in my pocket the entire day in case I needed it, but didnt take it.  I took it about 15 minutes ago which made it 12 hours since I took the first half.  I know that sounds pretty trivial, but coming off a 20 pill a day habit, a one pill a day habit made me feel pretty confident.  And not to mention, I was pretty productive, because I thought I was gonna be a zombie all day by taking the subutex.  Nope!

I know I can beat this addiction, and I know that by listening to all of you and talking with yall, I can do this.  I know it sounds retarded but I was actually really anxious to come home and tell yall abt my day, lol....  Thanks for all your posts and support on my first day of sobriety, it really feels good!  

[leeisgettingclean]

please be carefull with the sub...you see that one pill is prob as powerfull as the 15 ...are you seeing a doctor for the sub? I am glad you are making a good choise just dont take the sub as a " mirical drug" because many will tell you..it has its own curks beleive that!

[PLSHLP713]

Actually, you are right.  After I took the second piece, I did feel it kick in a lot more even tough i took the previous half 12 hours ago.  I would like to take subutex the right way, and detox safely, believe me.  Should I just go and ask the doctor and tell him I have a problem??  

[leeisgettingclean]

i would suggest you stay away from sub..detoxing off your dose( i detoxed c/t ogg 15-20 10s a day) is only going to take 5-7 days and you will feel so much better, getting on the sub is just putting the w/ds ogg till another day and they are going to be 1000% worse and 100% longer...I know its not suggested that we tell members how to detox but i will tell you that i went cold turkey and in a week i felt better than i had ever while on em, do you have any health problems that w/ds could make worse..like blood pressuse or anything? Sub IMO should be LAST resort and really should only be used if coming off herion or a major oxy prob IMO ..just research it so you can make an educated decision, lots of peole sau\y they wish they just taken care of the pill problem and had never gotten on the sub..if you can not handle cold turkey for whatever reason consider a taper..just what ever you do, do it educated so that you dont get in over your head and start a larger prob