PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME GET FREE

[freenclean]

Please help me get free of 120mg of oxycodone a day for the past 4 yrs. i want to be free i want my life back it was so good before this junk please anyone i beg of you all please help me escape the hell i live in.i have takin it for chronic back pain and its to the point it doesnt even work anymore,i have all the vitamin info ,thomas recipe,amino acids,i have all the stuff on hand along with ensure,gatorade,and simple foods that are easy to fix and good for me i believe im set ,i plan on stopping c/t tommorow ,well today now i am looking for some real support i know the next week is gonna be the longest,touhgest of my life ,i have to do this im sick of chasing the bottle and just sick of the fog... i want to be me again its been so long i cant remember me anymore,i know it was better than this please help im sick of it and so is my loving loving wife she has stuck by me through this but she is getting tired if ya know what i mean and she is my everything so the junk has to go and im ready please hang with me i am gonna need support  its not an easy road as we all know thank you and take care. Free.........

[gnarly_1]

Hey Free just wanted to take a minute to encourage you....you have fought a good fight
your close to making it out of the tunnel just keep pushing forward your doing this one day at a time and you have hung in there thew the worst of it...soon you will be seeing the light
keep your faith in God and he will deliver you of this plight hang in there and get ready for the mental side to start taking priority just remember it ok to be emotional dont bottle it up
let it out its all part of detoxing I will check on you tomorrow good luck and God bless
......Gnarly

[10356]

You sound good Free Amazing what a couple of hours sleep can do for us :) You are starting to come out the other side ! Geez wait till you do get sleep and wake up and you are not dope sick.. Awesome ! Keep the positive attitude it will take you far. once the wd is over you may start thinking about some kind of aftercare all kinds of things can make this.. a pastor addiction specialist your own Dr. AA NA whatever you feel comfortable in. it will help to keep you on track.

[freenclean]

thats right brother its another day closer to the other side ya ive got the restless legs and arms thing going on to but its getting better each day that passes hang in there well get through this ordeal take care Free..

[6stringrock]

Good morning...you sound like me..I got about 3 hours sleep also. Real restless and legs going crazy. Don't feel to bad although it kinda comes and goes. Oh well today is a brand new day

[freenclean]

morning everybody well today is another day closer to the light at the end of the tunnel i got about 2-3 hrs sleep last night which was alot compared to the last few nights im still real restless but i actually feel a little better this morning than i have in the pasti think i may actually make it through this (it hasnt been easy) i want to thank everyone for sticking with me were not out of the woods yet but im getting there  i think im gonna lay back down and try to rest some more take care everyone Free...

[gnarly_1]

HEY Dude just wanted to take a minute to encourage you to keep pushing forward you are doing great hang in there like Vicki said your almost over the hump..good days are coming....do your best to keep a positive attitude in a few more days you will no longer be chained to a pill bottle keep posting for support where all out here for you
good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[vicki595]

oxytaker~  He's almost 3 days into this detox;nearly over the hump.

Free~Vent as much as you need to!!   Keep going...keep drinking fluids!!  You'll get there,Kiddo!!

V.

[oxytakersoscared]

DON'T DO COLD TURKEY!! WEEN YOURSELF OFF OR GET YOUR DR TO HELP IF YOURE NOT STRONG ENUF ALONE!! I BEG of you! Its too difficult for me at least. I HAD to cuz i was pregnant. YOU HAVE A CHOICE MAN!! Dont do it!! youre asking for a relapse! Do it 1/2 a pill at a time if you have to...one day at a time!! (they dont say that just to hear themselves talk ya know!!) its a very popular saying for a reason!! email me if u need to talk ANYTIME. I am an experienced pill taker/AND w/draw-er! lol (but i am, and i KNOW this FOG u speak of, and i know how  BADLY U YEARN for your life back!! But i'm telling you, addiction is stronger sometimes, you may want your life back w/ more than anything more deep w/in your very soul and exsistence! But those damn Oxy's r the devil. and we all know how powerful the damn devil CAN be....  Just be careful if u do the CT route. Dont be TOO brave tho, ur only human. if it gets to be too much, check yourself inbto a detox facility or WEEN off the damn pills!! Detox is not so bad..they give you subutex and its actually quite easy after the 1st 3 days. I actually was on subutex for many years just to stay away from these damn pills and heroin, Yes, i finally got driven to heroin because the pills were not enough. SO LISTEN TO ME, A SEASONED VETERAN OF THIS CRAP. DO NOT DO COLD TURKEY!! email me if u need to thruout your ordeal(whatever decision u choose to do!) i know u'll need someone like me (***@****)

[overit2day]

You are doing amazing! I am so proud of you!  You are definitely not alone at all... This forum saved both me and my fiance, and helped us get to a better place.  Keep those positive thoughts because it will keep you going.  Keep posting! We are all in this recovery together.  I know how nice it is to get feedback- when you are in a good place, or bad...
Congrats to you!

[freenclean]

thank you all for the kind words and motivation it has helped i made it through another day im closer to coming out of the dark hole ive been in for so long i feel better about the whole deal than i did his morning  i know this is only temporary and it wont last its just so hard sometimes that i get bummed out but i know i have to do this there is no other way im sick of living pill 2 pill day 2 day precription 2 precription hunting pills when i run short of my days to refill ive had it with all of it i just have to keep remembering how much i hate that and thats some motivation thank you all for being here for my venting and recovery take care and God bless Free...

[fibrogirlinoc]

i'm one day behind you. i stopped today ct and am fortunate enough to enter medical detox tonight but I want you to know your not alone and I can relate to everything you said.  If your wife is as great as you say,like my boyfriend has been with me through 5 years of chronic back pain and 3 years of oxys THEY deserve us to be here and with them.....i mean sober and able to feel not have that big space of pills in between you.  I understand soooo much when you said you miss your wife and you have physical been there but when your on pills your not, you feel soooo far away at least I do.  I know we need to do this for ourselves but I just wanted you to know I get it and I believe we can overcome this.  I hope you find your peace!

[want2bme]

It is becoming weaker and weaker the stronger you get...You have to starve the beast.  You have days behind you and you are that much closer to your goal.  Hang in there.  You are battling the worst parts of the physical effects of the wds..it doesnt last forever and it is only for a moment..Hang in there it does get better.
Kris

[10356]

I can remind you of your motivation.. a close relationship with your wife. a chance to live as a Free person instead of a Slave. To lift yourself out of the Fog your life has been in. To be Responsible and Trustworthy. To save a ton of Money. To not Continue to Kill yourself on a daily bases. I can come up with more if you like.. You are getting real close Free.. do not loose your resolve now. You are stronger then a Damned pill.. Hang in ok lesa

[freenclean]

thank you all for the support i hope i can make it through this nightmare im going through its ruff right now  i for some reason have lost my motivation Free...

[guv338]

Hang in there, your freedom is coming.  I have found that with the right mindset you can overcome this and you will be so glad and proud of youself for completing this ugly task.  You are doing a great thing for yourself, the rewards will be plentiful, just continue to push forward, thru the fog, and better days will be ahead for you.  May your day be filled with insight Into the battle you are fighting.  Guv

[freenclean]

todat is a bad day i wish i could just sleep through it oh well maybe tommorow will e better i gotta hang tough it will get better  soon so i am told  take cre everygody Free...

[freenclean]

no sleep again  i have counted all the dots on the ceiling  though 1322 to be exact ! i feel like i could sleep for a week but when i lay down the twitching starts and then comes the flopping around in bed like a fish cant hold still for more than 20 seconds wow this is fun fun  oh well i gotta come out the other side sooner or later take care all Free...

[scoenen]

sounds like my 2- 4 days and that was only 2 days ago- it does get better.  I have my bad moments but nothing like that!.  Breathe, soak and talk to us.  Keep positive and know it just a few days you will feel better, not great, but definitely better.  

[bandesdad]

Hi. I am lucky enough to have insurance that covered in-patient detox from ms:contin,so I was able to get SUBOXONE to help deal with the withdrawals. I was under the impression that after the drug was out of your system withdrawal would be over,unfortunatly that's not true. The reason i'm telling you this is so you don't get discouraged if you don't stop w/d soon. My Dr. told me it is the chemical imbalance opiates cause which cause the w/d's,so you feel them longer. The really bad stuff like the crawling skin,bones feeling like they are jumping out of your skin,vomiting,runs,cold sweats,etc....should only(ONLY isn't quite the RIGHT word) last three to five days. But you shouldn't expect to feel right any time soon(possibly as long as a couple of months  ). I've been off suboxone for two weeks and I am still getting chills up my spine,yawn a lot and constantly tired. Again Free, I'm not telling you this to discourage you,but to arm you with the knowlage this may take longer than one thinks. HANG IN THERE and it's got to get better, right? Good luck and be STRONG!  (P.S. if you can get your doc to Rx suboxone you won't need to hurt as bad)                                                    

[gnarly_1]

HEY Dude I was just going to ask how your doing but I can see by your post you well into the withdrawals ...just hang in there a lot of us have been where your at and it ant no fun but it is doable ...use your symptoms to strengthen your resolve to quit ...right now I would try a good hot soak in the tub...it helps out with a lot of what your feeling and you may need to take several soaks a day to get threw this...try and do something to occupy your time like rent a funny movie or just get lost in some music for a wile anything to get your mind off how lousy you feel right now....remember this is only temporary you will make it thew...praying helped me ...right now your in the middle of acute withdrawals it shouldn't get any worst then it already is so just hang tight YOU CAN DO THIS..I will check up on you later good luck and God bless....Gnarly    

[freenclean]

what a terrible day everything hurts ,skin crawling,mind racing,sweats,runs,cramps,dizzy,man this stinks, i hate it ,im in the bathroom every 10 min. i didnt know i had that much in reserve in me its strange how this junk shuts down so many things in my body and there now coming awake ,my body is shaking so bad its unreal i hope this doesnt last to many days cause i will not survive mentally  wow this is really something i cant believe it  i pray that it will be over soon please pray for me i need it this really is hell on earth Free...

[10356]

it is part of wd free. but it will pass.. I sneezed so much my stomach muscles hurt. this will not last forever. You are getting real close to getting over the hump stick with it You can do it. the freedom from the pills. not waking up sick. not have to count. geez so many things. wait till you notice the birds singing it will bring tears to your eyes for the beauty..

[freenclean]

i was just wondering has anyone experienced the runny nose and sudden cough and watery eyes,sneezing,and blury vision is this part of wds i was just wondering this is kinda strange on top of eveything else thats going on with me now any info would be great, take care Free...

[freenclean]

wow today is gonna be a day to forget i can feel it allready anyone else ever have the feeling that they wanted to crawl out of their skin,oh ya its gonna be a great day cant wait for tonight wow is this tuff !