PLEASE PRAY FOR ME! I AM HERE AGAIN!

[chaddavis333]

Once again, I am looking at the dragon right in the eyes. About 3 hours ago, I took my last three. Over the last 3 weeks I managed to take aroud 60 of the 5 mgs vic's. I am always finding a reason to do these. I hate this. I hate always coming on here and crying about it. I really want to change, but the feeling of energy they give me is like no other. Yes, I know it is a synthetic feeling, but I still love it. I have a great job and family and faith, but I keep doing this. Monday morning is going to be awful. Day 1 begins all over again, and the usual demons will come back. I will wonder how long this will last, will I ever be the same  - the same crap I think about everytime. I will also tell myself I will never do this again, and I will hope I mean it, but I guess time will tell. Please forgive me everyone for the crazy and stupid stuff that I will be posting over the next few days.

[gnarly_1]

HEY Chad good to see you wish it where on better terms......dude you need to plug into aftercare I know your a man of faith I am to and God will deliver you of this but it takes work on your part N/A AND A/A are free if not that there is an all Christian group called celebration recovery google one in your area buty you got to work this thing or its going to keep coming back ask anyone with some significant clean time we all get aftercare detoxing is just the first step you have a disease and you need to treat it or it will overwhelm you im not trying to be harsh but in the last 6mo you have been here 3 times its time to change up what your doing a lot of us learn the hard way but eventually we all learn I will keep you in my prayers good luck and God bless.......Gnarly  

[dominosarah]

The important thing is you are back and starting over.  We never fail as long as we keep trying.  What lead up to your last relapse?

[pill_Deamons]

I know what you are going throught I have kicked norco's about 8 times over the last year after a 12 year daily use of norco's I started at 16 years old never stopped and or looked back I'm now 28 and 8 days clean after a slip up of a few days after a few weeks clean. I tell myself that's it I am done then get a reason to take them again I hate it also. I believe this time is it I know you have to want it and really work for it a lot to get stay and keep being clean and sober. If you want to you can message me I can help you and give you all the support you need to help you stay clean. I'm only 8 days myself but we can be each others help I'm looking for some one to help me along the way also. I have met great people here but the more the better. I have a list I have made that has helped me through my 8 days a lot I can message it to you if you would like to see if it can help you. Good luck god bless and message if you need a person to help you that is in you're shoes and just went through what you're about to.

[IwillDoThis]

sending your prayers - when you are truly sick of it and truly ready to get off the merry go round - you will.  You make the choice every single day

[lal757]

    You suffer from addiction, there is no magic cure you have to get tired of the rat race.  Just keep on trying to get clean and praying to a higher power in rehab and na we call this our higher power because some just dont want to use a God as a higher power the group can be a higher power for some.  I trust my God to take care of me and keep me clean from drugs.  We will pray for you and believe with all your heart and you shall have what you ask for amen.