Panic attack ughhhh

[Vecci4u]

So my wife and I are spending the night away at a nice hotel...... Right now I am going through taper of norco I've been addicted to...

My mother is visiting along with my son from a previous marriage and were already at the hotel,.... Long story but I seem to always stress when she is around without fail.... Just a lot of drama with her... And to boot my wife and me have not been the best lately...

I have had this anxiety issue for some time( I have got treatment) before because I would think I was having heart attack and end up in hospital,...

So on the highway it struck, anyone that has these problems know panic attacks are absolutely terrifying..... I got through it , took a Xanax and calmed down.... But they leave you feeling just drained....

Hoping to just relax tonight while my mom takes my son and daughter home and a bit of break from everything for a night...

Man that was scary, and on top of it not feeling hot as I have cut from 12 to 7 norcos......

[Vecci4u]

Yep I tried the gambit of anti depressants... Landed on Effexor last..., it was ok . I am starting to think you just trick your mind your better on that crap( not that some people, bi-polar) but to me seemed like crap...

I tapered off that for months and months... Because Effexor side effects are out of this world.... Constant brain zaps, dizzy.

No thanks to that I'd rather have a anxiety attack then run on that stuff

[Clong45]

Yea I was thinking you might be starting to "feel" again that's why I mentioned it.  That means you are on a good steady decline with your taper.  Music is really good to listen to during the emotional times.  It's good for me anyways.

Since you have a past with anxiety and panic attacks, are you taking some kind of anti-depressant?  Cause I got put on Paxil years ago and them things really played with my mind. I took them for three weeks and flushed them down the toilet.  Them things where crazy!  

[Vecci4u]

Clong...

You are so right... For the past few years my anxiety has been nearly nothing.... So those opioids were for sure blocking out reality.....

I am feeling things at these lower doses that I defenetly was not feeling before... So sick of the way my life was with them I wouldn't go back up to what I was doing in a million years... These panic attacks actually as crappy as they are let me check myself that hey you are not immortal

[Clong45]

Glad you are hanging in there!

Anxiety and panic attacks are very familiar to me as well.  It can be very exausting.  Thankfully I haven't had a episode In a couple of years now.

  We addicts become a cold fish cause of the opiates, they just seem to block everything out to where we feel nothing at all.  So don't panic when the emotions come up.  Just get somewhere by yourself for a few and let them out, it's a good thing.  You will find you will start to be more sensitive to touch, smell, taste.laughter and sadness..   It's like you are reborn again.  I actually thinks it's a awsome feeling.  I'm telling you this cause you will have some mental and emotional things happening to you that you haven't felt in awhile.  Don't panic and remember it's normal.

[Vecci4u]

Thank Bkitty for the support ..... I am feeling better... Leaves me a bit uneasy as its like a earthquake with mini tremors after....

Every full blown panic I had was when my mom was in town around... I must really have a lot of inward anger to her.... But it's just not worth going there with her... She leaves on Tuesday so I will manage,,..

Best to you kitty ;)

[Bkitty]

I am glad that you have calmed down and are feeling better. I know the anxiety *****! You have also recognized that your mother is a trigger so stay alert and dont let her get into your head. You are doing an amazing job and have come a long way! ((hugs))~Bkitty