Paralyzed by fear Day 7

[Tattoo67]

I am paralyzed by fear.  Not over the possibility of using again, but fear in every other aspect of my life.  I am afraid I am going to lose my job, my house my family.  The reality is my family is great but work is the issue.  I just keep thinking I am going to get fired and I will lose everything.  I know people have it much worse, and I should be grateful to have what I have.  I should be grateful I am clean 7 days, but after getting clean I feel like the world is coming to an end.  I can barely work (which is no help considering the situation).  I can’t talk to my wife about my fears because I want to stay strong for my family.  I am a real mess and need to get past this so I can work to make things better.

I have always been the type of man to face his fears with hard work and determination to make things better.  Today I don’t know where that man is.  I am so scare and driven by fear that I can’t even get it together to successfully look for another job or be there for my family who loves me.  Please tell me these feelings will pass.  

A month ago I put together 26 days clean and I don’t remember feeling this way.  I don’t know what to do.  Sorry for the long rant but I am beyond hopeless at this point.    

[justneedtotalk]

Congrats on the seven days.....Everyone here said it best that it has ONLY been 7 days.  I am sure you are feeling a little better and each day will improve dramatically from here on out!  You are still having to fight the mental part of this process which for most is the toughest.  Just think though, that if you were still using and having to fight this fight would be even worse.  Everything will work out for the best, you just have to stay sober and actively fight each day to resolve your other problems.....In no time, you will be past the physical and mental effects and your current problems will hopefully be worked out and that feeling of accomplishement and pride of having beaten this will be overwhelming!

Well, hang in there......Keep posting and God bless!

[dominosarah]

What sort of issues are you having at work?  Is it something you can talk to your boss about?

[Innerstrength67]

Hey tattoo, the feelings will pass with deep breaths and changing your mind set. It's not easy. I know. I quit 2 jobs over pills and the financial fear is gripping. Ypu didn't loose any of you strength during your 26 days and now you have 7. Just remember that at least being clean Ypu have a chance at a better life. This is not only a disease of drug addiction, it is a disease of the mind and spirit. I know exactly how you feel. All we have is today.

[donewitis]

That's what you have to keep reminding yourself..this is just for now. These fears are not facts..this is your brain trying to compensate w/o the DOC. I know I have gone through some dibilitating anxieties during the w/d..even after. I just kept on saying to myself, "This too shall pass."
We are living through some scary economic times..lotta free floating fear going around..take deep breaths..and do the next right thing..whatever that is. Take a walk, take  ahot shower..have a cup of relaxing tea.
Congratulations on your clean time!

[LeaAnn807]

Hey! Congrats on your seven days.  That's wonderful.

Now that being said....7 days isn't enough time to heal what has to heal to make your brain start producing what it needs to make you feel good.  The body is better.  The brain....not as much!

It will get better.  If not in a couple of weeks, talk to your doc.

Congrats again! : )

[ricart70]

Hey,I know how you feel if that is any consolation.That 26 days you had last month will definitely help this time.Thats 26 days of healing.I know at 7 days I couldn't do much.My problem is that I never remember the bad.I hope you feel better soon.Are you sleeping?