Percocet Addiction

[KMHSMB]

Has anyone been addicted to percocets? I posted on one of the forums and noone has replied yet? Can someone answer me PLEASE!! I really need more support then what I am getting at home, I get it kind of thrown in my face a little by everyone!!! And alot of those people were or are still in the same boat I was in. I was up to taking anywhere between 10-20 percocet 10mg a day, depending on what I could get that day, I did quit for a few weeks, using saboxens, but I ended up in the same boat again. So this time, I am trying to do it by myself, I keep denying that it was a problem. Someone HELP!!! I haven't took a perk for 5 days now, but I did have a script of ultrams(tramadol) it wasn't alot of them though, there gone now, and it seems the withdrawls are really hitting me. I have a 6 month old daughter and I can't do this to myself, for my sake and hers. Any response would be nice.

[tryn2quit]

I can't stress enough the admiration I have of your strength and will power of all of you whom have quit percocet or trying to quit. I had a motorcycle accident 3 yrs. ago and ever since I suffered a permanent injury to my left hip and leg, I have been taking these things (2 to 3 pills of 7.5 mg.percocet) daily, sometimes 4 to 6 on the weekends with the occasional 10mg. I get from a friend, I have been to pain management but "enough is enough" At this point I really believe that the pain is psycological so I can use as an excuse to take these pills..I started weening down last week and taking (2) 7.5mg pills p/day. till they're gone. I am deathly afraid of the withdrawl symptoms and ask any1 here if there is a natural supplement I can take to help through the WD's. Please Help!! any advice will be greatly appreciated.
Thank you and God Bless all of you who are dealing with this powerful addiction and are trying to quit!! I know how powerful it is to the point that all you do is anxiously wait all day till its time for your dose and dont care about anything else...
Alex

[Lokeooo]

Hi there.  I'm Dave, a 45 year old. Started taking Perc's 6 years ago when my doc prescribed them for arthritis.   At first, they were great!  My feet and knees had no pain.  I got 5 per day,  which is 150  per month.  10/325's.  After about 2 years, i started running out early.  So,  i'd buy more on the street, eventually buying at least 50 per month.  Sometimes more.  So,  here it is on year 6,  and i'm taking at least 200 pills a month.  Anyone out there who buys pain pills on the street knows how expensive they are.  I was spending like $500 a month.  So, one day last week, i took a step back, and thought about all the things that were wrong here.  My poor wife....God knows she loves me to stick by me.  Our bank account sux.  Not to mention my health.  Also, the fact that buying off the street is highly illegal.  And a thousand more reasons to quit.  I think back to before i took pain pills.  How much better off i really was.  So **** on these pills.  I quit cold-turkey last Wednesday, and here it is the following Tuesday.  It sux,  no doubt.  I've been really sick,  but its getting much better now.  I know i'll never take another. No matter how bad i jones for one.  I hope you can be as determined as me to quit.  We all have the power with-in us to do it.  I cant wait to get my life back on track.  I allready am.

[GuyinLA90212]

I am an unfortunate 42 yrs old male. After my 2nd open heart surgery (5 bypass) 4 years ago they gave me percocet 10/650. I have been getting 100 every 25 days. I take 5 a day in average. I know I am addicted to it. Because I tried to get some extra percocet from online pharmacy with home made script, which I got caught because they sent that script to my doctor. I have sever angina. I had my first open heart surgery at teh age of 29 (3 bypass), then  more bypass 4 years ago. Percocet makes me feel better, gives me energy and makes be extremely productive. I actually got promotion from a manager to a director. But these mood sewings are killing me. I do not know what to do. I feel like I will not be as productive as I am if I stop Percocet. But I hate the idea that I am an addict. The most I have ever taken was 8 in one day and I do get very scared of being over dosed.

[XoX DannieGrl XoX]

hey hun i know exactly how you feel I have tried to kick the perc's for umm im going on 51/2 yrs I NEVER EVER thought i could become addicted to anything and do yu know why because before i was introduced to pain pills I partied real hard but on weekends only. See I was one of those junkies that was able to act like a normal everyday person monday - thursday but as soon as I got home from work on a friday I became a whole diffrent person my fiance and I and friends would go ot every weekend either to a bar or club and my drug 5yrs ago before pills was coke so as soon as i walked through the door I called my so called friend (dealer) and got high the best part of the night was getting ready to go out I would take a bump and then shower take a bump then do my hair take a bump then get dressed and it was a every weekend thing my cousin her fiance we would all get ready together and then after about two years it got boring well not really it didnt get boring until i tied to come down off the coke and couldnt so i started taking xanax or valiume t fall asleep then i needed a root canal and met Mr. Vicodan alot of people tell me that pain pills make them tired but for me it had the opposit effect i get a burst of energy when im on them after awhile taking the vicodan i found out an uncle who i am close to takes percocet & oxy's daily because he has back hip leg sergery about 3 times so he gets 180 count of perc's a month along with 180 count 40mg oxy's and 180count 20mg oxy's yea i know damnnn and he is slightly senile so i started stealing pills from him now its five yrs later an i have to take either 4 10mg percocet three times a day or i take two 40mg oxy's three times a day and thats just to function I dont even get high from them anymore I have tried so many times to stop so Melody i know exactly how you feel. I think you quiting for 5 days is wonderful congradulations I was never able to make it more then 2 days. But I am gonna say this try to stop again please because the longer you take thm the harder to stop it is gonna get and do you really want your life to resolve around how your gonna get your next batch or how much ur gonna spend this week on pills or should you either pay the cable bill or buy 25 pills? because thats what I go through only thing is i take mine frm my uncle so its worse cause if i had to buy them i wuldnt be able t afford it there for i wouldnt have a choice but to quit. Just so you know you are NOT!! ALONE. im so glad i found this site just hearing that im not the only one out there with a problem really helpd me and it can for you. I cant tell my family whats going on becaus like my father who was and still is a drug addict i would be looked at as a dissapointment and would live up to everyones expectations that i would turn out just like my dad. So when i found this site only yesterday i felt like i found a whole family that would just listen and be there and i want to be here for you! So if you ever need to vent, talk or anything i will always answer your posts because you are NOT ALONE!!! try to quit again and keep trying ! you dont want to be me 5yrs later. there is a thing on here called Thomas's recipe that is supposed to help with the withdrawl symptoms im going to buy all the ingrediants this weekend and im going to try it out. Anyway melody i hope i have helped alittle write me back and let me know how you are doing and if ur gonna try thomas's recipe also ;0) xo DannieGrl xo

[XoX DannieGrl XoX]

this is my first time talking to anyone about my problem Im 27yrs old and Im a mother of three girls five years ago I never heard of percocet, vicodan, oxycodon or anything else The I needed a root canal and my dentist wrote me a script for vic's I took them for the 1st two days and then they sat in my medicin chest because at the time i was partying hard with other vices my drug of choice was coke and i hated it I did it and loved doing it until i was half through my 4th pouch of the night and then it really sucked and trying to go to sleep was the pitts so I wanted to stop doing it where were my kids ? at the time i only had one and he stayed with my parents on weekends (i only did my drugs on weekend ONLY) it was a tradition but anyway the coke got old real fast and one weekend i decided to unplug my phone and just relax no friends no coke...and then i got a killer toothach see i grinde my teeth so at the time they always hurt but coke numbs you so. but i didnt do coke that night i took the vicodans and i loved the warm feeling that came over me and still i had energy so I went back to the dentist and lord knows he definatly found lots of work to do on me so it was see him get a script and thats how it went for awhile until i got pregnant with baby # 2 and i stopped everything how i have no idear i guess it was cause my baby didnt ask to be here i put her here so i refused to hurt her in anyway and when i gave birth i needed a emergancy c-section and intead of the lil bakini cut most get i was butchered from the belly button down and required 37 staples on the outside 76 stiches inside, I couldent walk move or even breath it hurt so bad forget coughing i would have rather taped my nose and mouth close rather then cough. and the good doctors put me on percocet...Now its 5yrs later and im addicted to percocet and oxycodon thre hasent been one day n 5yrs that i havent taken them I started out taking two pilles every 6 hrs now i take 4pills every 4 hrs and if i have oxy i take two 40mg every 4 hrs I cant stop I have tried so many times so many and it just hurts so bad and whats worse maybe if i had to pay for them i might have to stop or i would be homeless but i get them free from a family member who dont know im taking them he is old and almost senile and thinks he drops them and loses them. its sad i know i know im pathetic I look in the mirror and tell my self how pathetic i am all the time I dont get high from them any more not at all all it does is make me function. I wanna be a normal person again I dont wanna take pills anymore but my family wouldnt be supportive they would disown me and i would be the topic of gossip forever just like my junkie dad.(he has been a full fledged coke head since before i was even  a twinkle in my moms eye and he still is ) I had a best friend who actually was a drug dealer he sold special k in the clubs as welll as extasy and then he started selling pills and about three yrs ago he begged me to stop taking them he told me he had a friend who he got the pills for and she was so bad with them that she didnt even take them to get high just to live normal and not hurt and i laughed at him and said that would never be me and well he refused to sell me pills so i got them from others and guess what NOW IM THAT GIRL so haha the jokes on me i guess. I dontt know why i wrote this i guess because i just feel all alone There is noone i can talk about this to Iwould normaly call my friend the one who refused to sell me the pills but 4 months ago i went to visit him on a saterday afternoon and he was out at a club the night before and when i got to his house i found him on the floor he died of a drug over dose There is noone else in the world but him who knew of my problem so now i really am just so alone and im worried about my health i heard pain killers cause kidney failure so im scared is there anyone on here who takes percocet and oxy daily like i do? xo DannieGrl xo

[melody420]

im not exactly sure if i am posting this right, but i came across this site and was hoping for some helpful advice or even someone to listen...but heres my story:

i have been addicted to percs for 8 months now, ive been taking them steady until i recently decided to go to detox for it about a week ago. i went through really bad withdrawals and stayed clean for about five days, as soon as i got back, i had stolen some from my family, and now they just make me sick, but i still take them anyways and now its happening all over again. i feel so so weak from this awful drug. its to the point where i can't function or happily get through my days if i don't have a few in my system. now im scraed im going to have to go through this withdrawal thing all over again. i don't know why this keeps on happening but i can't seem to be strong enough to stay away from them, can someone please offer me some advice or any tips? i would extremely appreciate it and would be glad to hear anyone's opinion!!!

[KMHSMB]

Thank You so very much!! Such a good point, extremely good!!! I know that he loves me, and I'd rather see him play video games then doing drugs, but I don't know! I don't like feeling like a video game is more important then his girlfriend~~ he claims he wants to marry me, my daughter on the other hand is what is making me do so well, I look at her everyday and when the thought of losing her crosses my mind, I cry!!! She is my inspiration, she will NOT live the life I lived growing up!!! I refuse to allow that to happen, and if I don't stop now, it will have her growing up living the same sort of life that i did!!!! But I am doing exactly what you said, getting my head clear, (which I was always the strong will, strong minded one, who had dreams and ambitions) I am going to bring that part of me back to surface, and then I'm probaly going to go get custody of her without him knowing, I would never keep his daughter from him, he is a good father, and he takes care of us pretty good (he plays with her) as far as I go , he acts like as long as he pays the bills, there should be no complaints, and that's not what love is about, ****, i'd rather live in a shack and have true love then be rich with neglection!!! But i'm gonna wait til' i'm clean for a little while before i make any life turning crucial decisions, my head is still a bit  misty, not today it doesn't seem but I still need more recovery!!
For the other person....you didn't offend me! I put my b.i. out there to get opinions, it's not like ya cused me out lol but thanks for the concern!!!!!
Sincerely, strictly me

[gipsee]

I guess addiction to video games is as bad as anything else can be.   But don't look at it as though he's avoiding you... it's just his addiction.  

You have a brand new baby... work on yourself first.  Do the best you can do for you and the baby.  Forget about the percoset...you don't need them to cope w/HIS addiction.  He's going to play video games whether or not you take the percs RIGHT!

Once you are "clear-headed" and not using drugs, your decisions will be totally different from the ones you will make now when you are not so clear headed.  How can he take care of a baby and play Video games... get yourself away from the percs...document everything in a journal, when you are drug free...hit him with the same "taking the baby away"...then it will be his decision on what he wants.  By that time you will have already done what is best for yourself.

One step at a time.   I know for myself, I would get myself in a Tizzie for issues when I was using pills to get me through...I would have handled some things quite a bit differently under "no drug influence"... I made some bad choices... now I have a time of clean-up... one day at a time.

My G/F (very close) does percs...Vics... anything she can get into her hands when her 'script runs out.   She maintains, but I know it is taking it's toll on her... all of a sudden she's starting to ask questions.

Her hubby is getting very worried and suspicious... I can say nothing ... I won't break her confidence.  

Take the time to understand that those percosets won't change him... and they still won't make you feel better.   Think about the baby.... keep focused.

Keep writing

Take Care
Gip

[chemmonster7]

I know it is harde when the partener is drug free Im sure you will be able to keep your family togther 3yrs is alot of time together. Im sorry didnt mean to sound negitive, I think your situation just hits close to home my niece has a scumbag boy friend who does not work at anything legal anyways and he plays video games non stop while sh walks too work late at nite alone so I m  sorry, I like video games too but there is a limit lol good luck to you keep postiing very caring people here!!!!

[chemmonster7]

Right now your emotions are all over the place but if you feel is no help in you getting yourself clean then kick him to the curb but if he is helping you in this then wait, and yank that gamestation out of the wall!!!!! you need him now not after hes done being a little boy. now I have been clean for 3mnths and 6 days off methadone c/t but had a bad pill problem for 3yrs 50/60 aday hydros, soma, xanax pill w/d is not as long as the meth it was 7=8 wks hard core w/d still not quite up to par. there is great people and I love them dearly and Iv only been on here for 5 days good luck and post me back going out but I will post when I get back

[KMHSMB]

He really does mean well you know! And I love him dearly, we have a 6 month old babygirl who is the best thing that has ever happened to me! But he's always been a very drug-free person, so i can't get upset over his feelings of the whole situation! We've been together for 3 years, and I've told him he has 30 days to get his **** together or I am leaving, but I need more clean time on my hands cause he's a very good man and could have the power to take my child in a custody battle. But I don't want it to go that far, i want my family to work! Right now I am having all those mood swings and I don't know what to do!!! I'll post tomarrow, kind of tired!!!

[KMHSMB]

Thank You!! I do have my boyfriend, but he's addicted to his damn video games, that was one of my reasons for starting them anyway, he ignores me alot, when he's on the game, and the perks made the emotional pain of it all go away, and then it stopped desguising it and it made it all that much worse. Today I am feeling pretty good, and i know someone with seboxens if i get the temptation I heard if you take one of those and try to take any perks you will get sick from it!! But I have tooken them before, and it stopped the withdrawls!!! But I don't want to get addicted to something else u know!!! It's hard cause my boyfriend was very understanding at first, then he started to throw it in my face and threatening to take my daughter, which is making me more determined then ever. Now, I love him but I think maybe it may be better to leave him? I don't know, so far it's been 5 days, YAY!!! I'll be feeling okay for one minute and then the next minute i'm sweating and all? I've been doing okay with my daughter, and times when i get irritable and stuff my boyfriend does take her cause he knows, but I don't know is the way i'm feeling the depression from w/d or not? Should I wait til' there completely gone to make my decision on my boyfriend?

[desertgirl]

Hi there, I was taking alot of percocet after a surgery for about 2 months, and the w/ds were there. I think the best thing for you to do is to isolate yourself from the people in your life who are offering it to you. Do you have any family that can help you with your child while you are going thru w/d's. I think I started feeling better after a week. Let us know how you are doing!
Jennifer