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1750887 tn?1313099291

Percocet addiction

HI..Im new to the forum and hoping for some help without having to go to a Psych. (did that already)..was no help..
Im currently taking 10-15 percocets a day..average..I woke up this morning and told myself Im not going to take anymore..I just took 3 excedrin extra strength just to be able to cope..I have a 2 year running around me banging on the computer so apologys for any typos..but He is my inspiration..I cant keep this up..I cant spend 1600$ a month on this crap anymore..I tell myself Im going to ween down I try but I just cant..Like right now I wANT to take a 1/2 just to ease my pain in my legs..thats where it always starts for me..leg restless leg syndrome..my jaw hurts ..as soon as I wake up its like I have to have one just to feel "ok"..I did this before in 2008..I quit for 6 months and started up again..I then ran out for a week..went through the withdrawls for a few days and then ..boom..my dealer came through with more..I just wonder if its best o stop cold turkey? Do i ween off to feel better? My psychiatrist (who I visited once) suggested I ween off them..he gave me some Lovax I think its called and told me to come back next week..I never did..DO i ween off???I dont know what to do..I cant function..Im supposed to be starting a new job out of this town(thk god) so I will have no connections to my dealers..but I start to think that maybe i could drive 6 hours to meet up with them every week..crazy but thats addiction..I cant go through withdrawsl my 1st week on the job..I guess Im just venting and rambling at this point but I guess thats what this forums for..If anybody else feels my pain love to hear from you..or if you have any decent advice I would love to hear it too..btw Im a 40 year old male..with a wife and a 2 year old and a 9 year old..I have to pull it together for me I now..but I cant do this to them either...Thx again
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1750887 tn?1313099291
I'm here ladywithme... The rollercoaster continues. I went four days strong and then yesterday decided that my back was hurting so much that I take a p10... I took it out. I nibbled on the top of it (this is sounding odd) I maybe ate a tiny piece and decided to throw it out. Picture this. 2 year old in the back seat. Wife pumping gas while I'm sitting in the passenger seat...nibbling on a piece of perk..(low point indeed). We were on a 5 hour road trip to look at houses for us. (new job that I have since screwed up royally) I haven't even started it yet. My new bosses are so confident in me they found a house, put a down payment on it. Offered to pat fir all moving expenses and I emailed. Them today I can't work for them?!?!  Reason? Yea there is.. Can u guess y? Yes u can. I'm in the worst possible situation right now but to a rational thinking person it's prob not. Long story short. If that's possible. I have been in management for a large prob the biggest shipping company for 18 years. I quit because I needed a change. I went on to study to be a pharmacist- ironic- pain management office that I opened up with my mom 2 years ago. We obviously made alot of money feeding of the hunger for the roxys/Xanax/soma/Valium/colonopin/ etc... We did do du ozone as well. Anyway we were raided. Dr arrested. Mom arrested. Huge deal. My brother and I in all kinds of mess. We were on the news. It's ugly. It's all in the past now. I've moved forward. Been out of work the past year (voluntarily) and basically raised our boys.. High as a kite - disgusted- I subsequently spent.. As mentioned in my previous posts 1600 at the low end up to 2500 on the high end. Bought a brand new odyssey for the wife.. Bought myself toys. Blew threw all of the money I saved. I'm now at a crossroads---- I have a decent job offer now that will peob be the best thing to move forward with.. But. It means I have to leave my family for upwards if two months or more. I'll be living Alone in a 4 bedroom house. At this point in my life I can't do that. I can't bare to be away from my baby for more than one day... Yes long term it's gr8 but I have had anxiety bout this since I was told bout this job. I don't want to move. I don't really like the job itself. I just can't think clearly about it. Sooooo that's the story. I know it's a long one but my thumb is just spittin it all over this friggin iPhone :). I'm going to lose all my toys cars. But I don't care. My boys are 1st. I just need to get my *** up and find a local job and be happy. I guess that's what's started my re overt process. I know I have to do it. For me. For them. For life. Thank u all for the encouragement. I need it bad. The longest post ever???
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1454150 tn?1288127898
hey mdeez, where are you? just checking up...remember you're not alone!
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Plz don't give up MD, u gotta fight buddy. Nobody said it would be easy, but it is necessary. Do it for your kids.
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1454150 tn?1288127898
hey mdeez, you're scaring me! what do you mean by "my family will understand, i hope"?
don't check out on us here, please!

w/ds are very hard and it ***** royally, but believe me when i say they DON'T last forever! i'm at 35 days now and i don't wake up sick anymore, sleep is returning and i'm learning to live life on life's terms. it IS hard but really worth it.

do you believe in God? i do. He helped me the most when i went through the worst of my w/ds. i literelly cried out to Him to give me strength and He did! when we're at our lowest Christ IS there holding our hand and in my case He carried me! is there a way you can attend a meeting? you need to see people who have overcome their demons and who are now living a happy life of sobriety!


listen, i need to get ready to go to Mass, however, i will be Praying for you my friend, and i will Pray that you'll come back to this forum and talk with us--we can help you get through this. i'll check back on you soon. hang in there friend. all is never lost! God Bless.
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1235186 tn?1656987798
md
after putting chemicals,toxins and poisons in your body for years it does su ck when you are going through the detox process. we say  the acute physical symptoms last for 7 days.. there are many factors, your age, how long you used, other health factors,# of times of detoxes,what you used. then comes the energy crash, the mental part, the depression,it is an emotional roller coaster, no sleep. yes it is a long process to be healed. it is a long road to recovery. read the in the health pages about P.A.W.S. it is a  discouraging but true article. you didnt become an addict over night and you arent going to be healed within a week or even a month. please be patient. time,time,time, remember to count in minutes,hours,days, then you can move up to weeks.
"i'm thinking its time to go for me" like in where? my family will understand. you need to stop that thought right now. you need to shake off your lethargy and move forward in this. please pray ask the LORD to comfort you. look at your 2 yr old look at your wife. you are going to win this battle over addiction. it is a war my friend are you going to let the addiction win. i hope not.
i am praying for you, i am going to church to storm the gates of heaven for all my mh friends so the chains and bondage of addiction are broken in the name of JESUS
debbie
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good luck and dont give up on yourself until the miricle happens,LIke yourself and many others there is hope in recovery.I too was spending lots of money and taking 30-40 10mil perks and or vikes a day.It has been about 600 days without opiates.For me I go to aa and dont pick up no matter what.When I was c/t detoxing I drank 2-gallons of water a day and stayed as busy as possible.It truly ***** when you are going through this crap but when you look back if it did not kill me it makes us stronger.Life today without opiates is awsome
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1750887 tn?1313099291
I've come to the reality that withdrawals don't just go away after a few days. People saying " I've been off the Oxys for 30 days and feel gr8" fantasy land. Wds are forever. Especially for a user. It will always be hard. It will always suck. They just don't stop. I'm just so fed up. Don't wanna share my feelings anymore. Doesn't help. It just males it all
More depressing. I'm done. Appreciate all that have given advice and wish u the best. I'm just not ready for this. I'm thinking it's time to go fir me. My family will understand. One day I hope. Oh boy. Md.
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Thanks. I'm stickin to it. Not feeling great but it is what is. I've gotten myself into this and I must get myself out. I'm actually looking forward to being me. This will be the first time in years.  Well here goes nothin. Can't think bout it too much like u said. Make u crazy. :)
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1235186 tn?1656987798
well ok if you only took 1/2 in 24 yep its time. you are strong enough. you were able to taper and you did well. be positive. your withdrawal  symptoms might increase a little but maybe not. everyone is different. try not to anticipate because everyone always expects the worst. just take it as it comes. you can do it. you are doing great
be careful with the immodium, no you dont want to poop concrete and you dont want to have to purchase dynamite. lol.
dont be anxious, many times fear is the only thing there is to be afraid of.
sending hugs and prayers,
debbie
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Welp..Im thinking its time..almost 24 hrs since my last 1/2..I hope to stay strong enuff...
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1750887 tn?1313099291
I just read that if you take enough of immodium they nit only help with stomach issues but the withdrawals themselves. I read a person took 20 mg-30mg of them. Is this a good idea? I don't really want to poop concrete. But. If it works and I can function. Wth. Just curious what u guys think.
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Well I gave in at 300 am last night and took a 1/2 p. I'm so disappointed in myself. I have to do this. I've done it twice b4 and this time seems harder than ever. I had so much pain in my left peg it was unbearable. I feel like I'm never gonna get through this. It's strange my right leg felt virtually nothing and my left was like it was in a vice! Is this common? I tried the immodium. I'm taking magnesium supplements. B12 supplements. Ensure shakes. Drinking orange juice n water. The melatonin seems like it makes me so tired I can't sleep. If that makes sense. So here I am going backwards. Again. I'll try again today I guess. So pissed at myself. Oh well. I just feel like I went through 8 hours of wds and now did I just stat everything over? I'm sorry for the scatter brained questions but this really sux. Thx eeveryone.
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Oh @ athebeach.. That is the least of my worries. Thx.

@freshstart01- I spoke to him fir two hours and he gave some samples of luvox for OCD. And said "why don't u just taper off of the p's?" like it's that easy. We just didn't cliick. There was no plan. No help at all just wasn't for me. No offense to any docs out there. Lol. I just need more help than what he had for me.

Another note. I'm at 1/2 so far 15 hrs and counting. Everything is in hours now it seems....
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Why didn't the phyc help????
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1235186 tn?1656987798
immodium is for the bathroom and stomach issues.
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Hey y'all. I thought I was forgotten bout. Lol. To answer a couple questions. Haven't started my new job yet. Still trying to get the house I'm in now sorted out and find a decent one in Tampa. It's slow goin work. Luckily my new boss is understanding and is working with me. I have to start working soon tho. It's getting tight. I look at my 2 year old and just can't help but get upset. I don't know y. I worry for him and that's a whole other subject that my wife and I are dealing with. I do have access to the pills still. No scripts. Just 400$ a week of pure h e double hockey's! I refuse to do that again. I prob have bout 20 left. I know I'm dragging this out. In my mind I feel like the minmal wds are better? I don't know. I'm aching like hell right now. I took a 1/2 p10 about 12 hours ago. Two weeks ago I'd be up to 7 by now. So I have to give myself credit. I may take 1/2 tonight just to be able to function with my baby and 9 year old in the morning. I honestly don't know if this is functioning tho. Am I? I know this post looks like a contradictory bunch of craziness. But. Hey. That's the craziness that these pills put in me. I really am learning to hate them. I keep thinking about how I'd go out to the park with the kids and have to pop at least two to cope with people at the park, or the mall, or going out to eat. Which I never really ate much cause an empty stomach is best fir me with these things. Anyhoo. That's where I'm at. I wish all of u the best I. Your own sobriety as well. Cause I know this is a *****!  Md. Btw. What does imodium do for you? I've heard alot boutit...
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We are both in the same boat I am 43 with a beautiful wife, 12 year old son and 7 year old daughter.  I am also spending about $2,000 a month and can not afford to continue emotionally or financially.  First you have to keep the focus on yourself keeping in mind that you want to be a better father and a better man at the end of this.  When I quit drinking over 20 years ago I had to do it for me not for anyone else.  Second I am trying to tapper down from (15) 7.5 hydro’s a day down to 2 a day so I can stop cold turkey.  Like everyone says this is very difficult.  I stare at the clock waiting for my next dose, think of ways to take a few more now and cut back later.  It is really tough, but I am hoping it works and gives me the discipline I need when I finally go C/T next week.  Hang in there and stay strong.  If you really want to quit nothing should be able to stop you.  At least that what I am thinking for myself.

Best of luck

Tattoo  
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1235186 tn?1656987798
hey thanks for the update. you are doing great. keep fighting the good fight.
congrats on your taper, it takes lots of discipline. how many pills do you have left?
when these are gone do you have access to more? it is best to cut off all ties, cancel scripts, delete dealers # whatever way you are getting them
your post wasnt deliberately overlooked. the day and hr all matter if it doesnt get a response within a few hrs. it usually goes to the 2nd page and most people only look at first page.
did you start your new job? remember it will take time to heal all of the wounds that have been inflicted during your use. as you walk a straight line your family will take notice. be patient. it will all come together.
keep the faith. keep pressin on.

debbie
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495284 tn?1333894042
COMMUNITY LEADER
Focus on getting off the pills and your recovery.  If your mom is mad at you then you have the choice to either talk to her or not.  Surround yourself with those that support you.  Sometimes our families arent supportive and that suks.  With time hopefully they will come around.  Our actions speak louder than words.  Stay positive as you can do this!!     sara
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1283286 tn?1312911966
You need to get some immodium. Just do it. Its probably the one and only otc med out there that helps withing the first couple of days.. If you can't get the nerve to flush, then taper as best you can. The day will come when you will be out and then the choice to stop becomes pure reality....Quit beating on yourself and get a pencil out and strap it to your back. Forget the bs talk around you. You know its bull so do your best to work around it....Spin your thinking around. You can do this..Dav
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1750887 tn?1313099291
Well I see nobody replied to that one. Lol. Don't blame u. Had a whoa is me moment fir sure. I'm continuing my tapering to 1 a day at this point. Today I took a 1/2 of a perc 10. That's it since 6 hours ago. Coming from 10-15 a day 2 weeks ago. Obviously it's hard but it can b done. I keep telling myself to stay strong. Temptation is a bi$&@. But if I can stay at a half to a whole fir a few I'm making progress. Wds are there. Upset stomach. Rls. I basically wait until rls and pain kicks in so bad that I can't take it anymore. At first it was 6 hours. Then 8 hours. Now up to 15 hour intervals. I hope I'm doing the right thing here. I'm still getting wds. But I can handle them fir now. Oh well. So there it is. Appreciate everybody's input and help b4. Md.
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I apologize for the late response. I'm struggling right now. Not sure if I can cope. I've really screwed everything up and I'm so upset that I'm lost. I finally got up the courage to quit ct today. It's been 12 hours since my last perc and feel like I wanna die. I'm on advil b12 potassium pills Gatorade. Water. None really helps. Sleeping pills benadryl. Last night. I broke down and took one perc at 400 am. I couldn't take it anymore. That's the last one I had. Wd's are kicking in bad. I've been through this b4 and know what to expect. I just can't deal with it now. I have too take care of my 2 year old in the am. My wife is accusing me of cheating on her now to top it off she called my mom and caused a huge mess. I'm not cheating btw. She's just paranoid about me talking to any woman. Via Facebook or whatever. I just can't deal with this. I have 30 or so percs left. I hear them callin to me. Just take me. One won't hurt. But I feel this weening/tapering isn't helping me. I thought of going to a half or just one today but I really don't want to. I'm trying to resist the urge. I have to. I'm crying like a baby as I write this cause I've really screwed up by getting on these. I could jeopardize my new job that I'm supposed to start next week. I'm so scared and honestly have no where to turn. Mom is cussing me out. Wife is upset that I'm talking to people. No friends. I'm so lost. Not even my own brother supports me.
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1235186 tn?1656987798
sorry this is your only post my mistake.
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1235186 tn?1656987798
i just posted on your old thread and then found this one. try to stick to one post. it is less confusing that way.it is best to just flush. they will call your name and you know the crutch is there. block the #'s of those you get pills from. you need to cut the connections.
the sooner you stop using the sooner you will get through your detox. weaning drags it out.
use the products suggested to you. have a positive mind set. tell yourself these pills are out to seek,rob and destroy your life. this is a battle for your life and you have to win. the pills have been running your life for too long. you will be the victor. ask the LORD to give you strength. a hope, increase your faith.
drink lots of fluids, take walks, bendryl many times causes more rls. get natural supplements.
sending hope and blessings
debbie
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