I don't think either one of you are stupid and I'm sorry if I upset you. You don't have to explain your life to me. Who am I?? It's your plan and as long as you thiknk it's a good one and worth planning for, then that's all that matters.
I wish you luck and hope you never have to use tham.
Congrats on 4 months.
There are no pills hidden around the house now. There never were --- you didn't catch the meaning of the initial post. IF something happens during my recovery, IF I was to say fall and break an arm, IF needed while my husband was at work he would hide 2 (1 every 4 hours) pills somewhere. When and if I needed them I would call and he would tell me where one of them were. If another was needed another 4 hours he would tell me then. When he comes home he will check them and get whatever is left. They would not remain hidden like easter eggs for someone to find.
Just because I am a "recovering" addict does NOT mean that I or my husband or STUPID. People plan for all sorts of events in their lives and this was a responsible plan in case it was ever needed. As I stated I am a very organized and planning type of person. When I was initially getting clean I had a lot of anxiety about this issue and my husband lovingly and caringly sat down with me and we made this plan out.
It is not like planning to use, it is more like using responsibly if something happens. If you can't see the reasoning behind that, then I am truly sorry.
For the record, there are NO drugs stronger than a motrin in this house and hasn't been since January. Except for my blood pressure medication that I have been on since my twenties. We have 2 very healthy girls that haven't been to the doctor for any reason in years and they do not require medication.
Sounds like a good plan to me and u r lucky to have him for support...he sounds like a keeper!
If you view me as negative you are missing my point. I can change how you view my posts. I'm just speaking from experience and on my opinion. My words are not hurtful, nor am I doing anything to purposesly hurt anyone.
I know TONS of recovered addicts. They are recovered because they work the steps, help other addicts and live their life according to the Big Book where it tells us that when the obsession has been lifted, you are recovered. Does that mean you don't have to work at it, no, but you don't have to be stuck in that place of recovery forever.
I'm sure this will stir up a controversy over the terms recovered and recovering but who really cares as long as you are doing the best you can and as long as you're clean.
I have given many positive posts here and I've been coming a loooooong time.
I was genuinely concerned for someone who has pills hidden around the house. If one of my sponsees asked me if I thought that was a good idea, I would tell them no, especially at only 4 months out but hey, i't's your life.
We talk about posting positive but how positive is it when a newcomer sees people with some clean time posting about the fact that they still have pills when we tell them to flush theirs??
If you should ever need pain medication again in the future, and I pray you don't, you should go to the dr. and get them prescribed for whatever it is that's wrong. Your views on what warrants taking one and what doesn't could be skewed because you're an addict, recovering addict rather.
But, if my no nonsense, to the point honesty bothers you, don't read it.
I've never been disrespecftul so I don't expect to be disrespected.
You guys are great!
I Love You
Susan
Sounds like you have a good plan that is working for you. Best of all you have your husbands support. It is only a matter of time and you will have this thing whooped.
Before you know it no more playing hide and seek your it. Keep with your plan of attack and you will overcome adversity.
Good Luck!
Army
I think it's great that you have a plan. Don't let anyone rain on your parade! You are doing great and it's great your husband is supportive! JoAnn
My almost famous quote here is; 'Any way to getting clean is a good one'. The point is to get clean and stay clean. Some do it in one try, some in 30.
No I didn't get your meaning, sorry. I understand it now though. Even after only 4 months, I know that I should never consider myself RECOVERED!.
Love Ya and thanks for the comment
~Susan
When I was coming off the sleeping pills for the first week, my mind raced and everything caused me anxiety. My father died the day before I decided to get sober, so you can imagine the state my mind was in. I am also a MAJOR planner and have to have everything organized so one night when I was anxious and not sleeping my husband sat down with me and helped me with this plan to try and calm me down. You guys remember the first few weeks how everything made us anxious when we were getting clean!
lady you didnt read my p.s. if you did you woulda looked at someones homepage
If it works, go for it. I have in my journals my story of pills in the medicine cabinet. There were there for months before i flushed them. Would I recommend this? No, but I didn't have a problem with it.
Also, addicts are always in recovery, the minute you think you are "Cured", that is when the slip ups are MOST LIKELY to occur. Of course, that is not always the case, and I pray for your sake that it isn't for you.
Do you EVER post anything positive? This was what we decided when I went clean in January 4 MONTHS ago should we need it.
I had a retreatment of a root canal at the end of April and guess what, we didn't even need.
SO GO ON RAINING GIRLY!!!
lady thats an excellent plan, especially if it takes away any anxiety you might feel. weather your an addict or just got addicted, its always omportant to remember and have a plan. your doing great. keep the sun shining on your parade.Teddy
P.S. the remember quote came from a very intelligent, compationate person who happens to be an addict.
I'm sorry to rain on your parade but if after 4 months without pills you are still thinking "what if I really need them" and are playing out entire scenarios in your head, well, maybe you haven't fully tacked your issues.
I see this whole "plan" as a situation devised by someone who is STILL thinking aout pills. Clearly the obsession has not been lifted from you yet.
I pray that it does sooner rather than later.
Your so lucky to have such a supportive husband!! (mine doesnt even know I have a problem) Good luck and I hope u never have to use that plan.
Thank Goodness my husband doesn't even like to take a tylenol for a headache. He blows my mind. After all the grief I put him though, I don't think he would ever abuse drugs. Neither of us have ever drank, don't smoke. and I am the weak one. We talk about my problem often. At first I resented it, but now it helps me alot. Just like posting on this forum.
I remember going through my "not in use" purses when hubby was taking my meds. and not getting any of his own at that time. I was so peeved at him for taking MY medicine. Now, he takes them and I don't.....ugh! The circle of life...........
Well this is after being semi-clean for 4 months. If we would have tried this when I was going through the sleeping pill addiction, I would have torn the house apart also. I still have a tendency if I find an old purse lying around to dig through it to see if there is anything. I hope I never find one because I don't think I am strong enough to keep from taking it.
hey, best of luck to you. sounds like a good plan to me. you're a lot stronger than me. i know everyone is different but after i got off the pills i had no pain. i have RA. it would look like a bomb went off in my house if i knew pills were hidden.
It's good that you plan like that!!