Please help!!

[want_out_now]

Hello, earlier today I took my last 40mg oxyneo/oxycontin. I figure on average I have been taking around 220 mgs per day either using oxycodone or oxycontin. I am prescribed 100mg of day but have not been sticking to it. I can't seem to taper myself down either.

Will I be okay if I just stop? Oh I know the withdrawals will come but will I be able to get through them eventually or do I need to check with someone?

I'm just tired of it all, tired of the money it costs, the people I see, the counting is making making me crazy! The stress of always running out.

I'm in chronic pain and the lower back seems to be the thing I can't deal with at all! I'm hoping once it's out of my body I will be able to deal with the pain. Have any of you had to quit with chronic pain?

But I am scared, so scared.

Please help.

[kahart]

I also know what counting and wondering if im going to run out is like> It ***** its no way to live . r u in constant pain ? Can u make it with otc meds like ibuprofen or alive ? An alternative to quiting cold turkey is trying to go to a clinic and seeing what methadone will do for you . If you can go a short time and let them detox and withdraw you it might be an option. It is a very contravirsial drug and people have all kinds of opinions about it. I was in your situation and went on it for 90 days and am tapering off slowly while i learn other ways to controll my addiction to pills and keep the pain in control . this is just a suggestion but it might give you your life back while you deal with your other issues . dont stay on it for long and keep your eye on the prize to be clean

[want_out_now]

Hi Lilly, thanks for replying. I am quitting because I don't want to go through this anymore. I could go see a doctor and give a story or I could buy some but I want to quit now. I took the last one yesterday but am not really feeling the effects (other than complete panic) yet.  

I will have to tell the person who's been getting for me to not call. For now I will turn off my cell. I've told my mom everything and asked her if she would come to help with my daughter and she will come today.

So I guess what I meant about should I go cold-turkey is meaning that i won't try and ask my doctor to taper me. I just don't think I can taper. I always will end up taking more.

It's just this overwhelming fear of the unknown.

I have set up some counseling as I need it for this and many other reasons. I've heard of aftercare and know that it will be important for me..

thanks for listening.

[lilly1307]

I totally know the feeling of constantly counting and doing the math in your head making sure you have enough to make it day by day.  It is horrible.  I even have dreams when i am about out of getting the pills.  It is no way to live.  If you have the will power and time to cold turkey I would say go for it- as long as you have no underlying health issues that could be affected ie. heart condition.  I an curious to know if you are cold turkeying because you are out, or you want to quit because that is very important in if u will succeed.  If you are quitting because u are out as soon as you get your hands on some pills you will prob take them.  I am not judging in any way, just trying to understand your situation.  I wish you luck and want you to know that though withdrawals are horrible, you CAN do it.  Please give us more info on your situation.  God bless.