Post relapse

So here I am again. I really really do appreciate all of you giving me support. Flushing those pills last night SUCKED, made me feel .. sick to my belly. Somehow I slept again. I know this gets worse, but I'm trying to not focus on that and take it one thing at a time like all of you have said. I have made some plans for this weekend to hopefully keep my mind off of things. My husband is taking my son tonight, and going to his moms to visit and spend the night.... He's giving me a break. Then,  tomorrow I have a day of swimming planned.... I'm sure I'll be fine.  Spending time with my family is always uplifting. Even though NO ONE... but me.. and my mother knows that my problem still exsist... spending time with family helps me to not think about it.
Right now...  it's 12:30ish.. fast heartbeat....  I keep feeling like I need to go to the bathroom... but it just aint working yet....  When it rains it pours right? lol . I'll keep you all posted.
Thank you all again. I've met some really great people who sound so much like myself, and they have made it, so its reassuring.

[mimi1313]

The swimming will be really good for you. You'l get over the physical part before you know it. Just take care of yourself. You sound ready. I'm glad you were able to sleep, that's really important.

good luck and keep posting.

Melissa

[Rose703]

Oh yes the bathroom issue!! Use Immodium aggressively as soon as the runs start! I know you can do this so just hang on and just remember that this will be over soon and your life will be soooo much better!! If you ever need anything please PM me!!

[WannaBeMyselfAgain]

:) thank you guys...   Someone PMd me and gave me some great words. So I am going to start thinking of all these withdrawal symptoms as ... GOOD things, and I'm going to welcome each one of them. Ha Ha.. you guys think that will last? I hope so.