After 7 major reconstructive knee surgeries and countless pain treatments with Demerol, I now am left with an addiction to Demerol. I just found out I'm 6 weeks pregnant and I'm terrified. I've been taking about 10 Demerol a day, and while one doctor says that the baby will probably be okay, another says that I need to abort it (which I doubt I'd be able to do.) First of all, what possible effects could this Demerol use have had on the baby, and what is the approximate malformation rate? Also, even though I'm trying like mad to stop taking the drug, I'm finding it a lot harder than I thought. If I stop cold turkey, won't my withdrawal be too hard on the developing baby? Is there a way to safely wean off the meds to make it a little easier on myself and on the baby? Please help...I'm desperate and terrified, and I want to have a happy, healthy baby.