QUESS A BLESSING IN DISQUISE???....

[tamtam326]

OOOHHHH MY GOD ITS SOOOO HARD!!!!! IVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE DEC.12 , WITH ONE SMALL RELAPSE AND TODAY AT WORK EVERYONE WAS SNORTING OR SMOKING SOMETHIN EVERYWHERE! I WORK AT A BOOKSTORE PEOPLE A BOOKSTORE, ITS NOT SUPOSSED TO BE THERE BUT IT IS. WELL ANYWAY SO THIS GIRL I WONDER ABOUT IF SHE LIKES ME( REALLY THINK SHE DOESNT) WAS GETTING SOME COKE AND SHE SAID I CAN BUY 50 BUKS OF IT SO I WAS WEAK I SAID !!!!YES!!!!! I WAS SO HAPPY I WAS THINKIN OK JUST THIS ONE TIME. WELL ALL DAY SHE LED ME TO BELIEVE THAT SHE WAS GONNA DO THAT FOR ME. FINALLY 6 HRS GO BUY AND I REALIZE THAT IM KEEPIN MY 50 CAUSE SHE AINT TALKIN TO ME . SO HER AND ANOTHER ONE TAKE THE TRASH OUT AND COME BACK ALL HYPED UP?? DUDE I HAVE BEEN A DRUG ADDICT FOR YRS AND I KNOW HOW YA ACT WHEN UR TWEAKED AND THEY WERE. I JUST SAID MAN THATS SHADY CAUSE SHE HAD ME BELIEVING ALLLLL DAY AND IT WAS A HARD DAY TOO. SO I JUST LOOKED LIKE AN ***.. THEM DOWNSTAIRS SNORTIN IT UP SAYIN "YA DONT TELL TAMMY I WAS SUPOSSED TO GET HER SOME." MAN I HOPE THEY GET THAT ADDICTION BUG TOO BECAUSE THAT IS JUST WRONG. BUT NOW IM HOME GLAD BUT PISSED BECAUSE I LOOKED LIKE A BIG DOPE BUT GLAD THAT I DIDNT WASTE MY 50. PEOPLE MAKE IT SO HARD FOR U TO STAY CLEAN AND ITS HARD ENUF ALREADY. THEY ALL SAY IM NOT ADDICTED LIKE U WERE TAMMY, I JUST DO A FEW TAMMY, YA THATS WHAT I SAID. SO ALL IN ALL IM GLAD THIS DAY IS OVER AND I HOPE THEY BOTH WAKE UP FEELIN LIKE **** TOMORROW MEN I SEE THEM AND IM JUST DANDY! SORRY I HAD TO RANT SOMEWHERE.

[sadinmichigan]

I'm sorry you had such a rotten day..But it worked out the best for YOU. Drugs are going to be everywhere..bookstore???are you kiddin'..lol  anyway.Just have to keep your gaurd up always and let the people around you know where you stand, if they are decent people/friends  they will at least respect that..Good for you though..you ARE still clean.Yeaaahhh!!

[confused456]

LOL....glad you smiled!!!!!

[tamtam326]

Sorry for the caps. Ya im happy it turned out the way it did. Now off to give advice. once I read it after I posted it I thought hhhmmm maybe I should have put the caps lock off. Just made me smile when I saw that, sorry.

[paul300]

Man its hard to read all those CAPs when I'm hyped (wd's) ;-)

First off, I can see why you got so excited thinking that just one time wouldn't hurt.

People that treat you like that shouldn't bother you, just not worth it. Remember who your real friends and family are, thats' what counts. Definately not the big dope. I'd say you had one hell of a major accomplishment today. Does feel good to rant though..

[TrayCee]

Yay for you!  But why are you yelling?  Could you please turn off your caps lock?

[confused456]

Glad it turned out this way. Crappy of her, but for your best interest!!      Whoooooo-hooooooooo!!!!
You are still clean!!!