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QUITTING But, NEED to have a pill!! WHAT?
What do you do when you want to quit the pills, but you have this unbelievable feeling you HAVE to have a pill??? What do you do??? I've tried eating.. but just makes me feel sick.. I've taken aspirins... I don't know what to do...
Hi sweetie... Yes, I will succeed. I want to know what it feels like to be normal. Looks like your response makes me feel the best. Well, there are a few. I've had the stupid pills for so many years, they mean nothing to me.. Like a bottle of aspirins sitting around.. but dangerous aspirins.. They do not make me feel good at all. I have discovered that basically quitting these pills, has made me in less pain!!! How amazing is that!!?? I knew it, I knew it.. the more pills I took, the more pain I would be in. I was born with bone deformities, so there has always been pain. The accidents didn't help much either.. But, still and all, I am noticing I am now in much LESS pain!! I can handle this!! Maybe life will be fun again!! : O ) Thank you so much
I do not know why someone would say that..You are trying your BEST to get off of them and that is why we are here..To give you all the support we can.
Bless
Bless
I am taking vitamins as was told to me by a lot of people here. Instead of taking the norcos I take vitamins. Then, at least I feel I have taken something. Funny how the mind recollects that it needs to fulfil that need to take something in the morning. The vitamins really help in that aspect, also is doing good for my body instead of bad. Someone told me there is no need for me to be on here at all.. But, I can do as I please. This is a community help place, so I will come here when I want. I still have that one tiny pill I cut up into a whole bunch of pieces with my great pill cutter. I still feel kind of woozy and a little achey. But, not bad at all.. little stomach upset. My only problem is, the same as when I was taking them.. Actually, before I would go anywhere, I would take maybe a half of a pill, maybe less, then put 1/2 pill in my pocket in case I was gone a long while. but, now... I just need some energy... I am taking the vitamins.. I just feel tired still..I was offered to go swimming at a friends house. But, I just feel tired.. I think I'll go to an estate sale and see how I do. I went yesterday, but felt very bad and only went to that one.. Someone mentioned how tired I looked. I was tired.. I hadn't gotten much sleep at all...
ALL you need is YOU. No one else can help you during the really REALLY hard times except YOU. You'll live. You'll be pissed off for a while and so ******* what? It'll pass. And you'll survive. It's all about time right now and you have to suck it up and do it. Just do it. Stop expecting to feel good right now. It's so much easier, tolerable, if you just expect to feel like **** for a while. Because withdrawal? It ends. And then you feel better. Time is your best friend right now.
Oh, yeah, and most importantly? Get rid of the pills.
Oh, yeah, and most importantly? Get rid of the pills.
Hi .....everyone here has something of value to offer you, I think Justbe, hit something on the head there. I can relate to that....addictive bahaviour. Time to be real with yourself.....we're all here for you.
peace and hope
peace and hope
I agree with all these posts! You will not quit unless you get rid of the pills!!! If you can not then I don't think you really want to stop! I dont mean to seem rude but only you can stop! The first thing I did was flush them! Its hard but so worth it! I went C/T and I will tell you the first 3-5 days are the worst. But each day after that gets so much better. I am now 36 days clean and would not go back to them nasty things ever! I followed the Thomas Recipe and it helps. My biggest support was from all the wonderful people on this site!! If you really want to do it you can and we are all here to support you!!
You have got to get out of your head! I know all to well how easy it is to get caught up and obsess about your symptoms and feel sorry for yourself. I did my detox in a semi truck on the road. Talk about having nothing but time to feel like crap and think about it. And do you think I felt like I had adequate support while traveling from city to city and knowing no one? Absolutely not. I was on this site day and night. I made the best of a horrible situation. No bathroom when I needed it, no hot bath to soak in. It was rough, but I made it. You will too! Please try to focus on staying as positive as possible. I know it's hard when you are feeling so bad. You have got to get out of yourself some or you will never make it. Listen to some really loud music, watch some mindless, funny movies or TV, chat on here. And you need to force yourself to be as active as possible. I know you feel like you can hardly get out of bed, but you can. Even if you just go for a 15 minute walk around the block, it will help with your anxiety and the aches and restless leg stuff. The more active you are, the faster you will feel better. It will also help with sleep. I don't mean to sound harsh or uncaring. I do care, I just know exactly where you are at and how dangerous it can be to get trapped in your head. You also have got to get rid of your pills and cut your sources. If you don't, all of this will be for nothing and you will continue to go through this over and over again. I can promise you that. Look into some meetings and go. You need some support. You have the opportunity to have people support you, you just have to make it happen. We are here for you too. Look at all of the supportive, encouraging responses you have gotten! These people are all trying to help you and truly do care. Ultimately this is up to you, and you are the only one who holds the power. Will you succeed or will you fail? We are all here rooting you on and hope to see you succeed! Let's make this time stick. Please take steps to ensure you have a successful recovery. Good luck to you!
Man Suzz, you are in a bad spot. There is no way I would be able to kick with a bottle of pills looking at me 24/7. No way. Taking those little bits of norcos is a waste of the pill and a waste of your time and you know that. Come on. Sounds to me like your addiction is in full control of the situation. I have to give it to you for lasting this long with all those hydros sitting there. If you haven't ditched the pills subconsciously you probably have some plans to use them again which sounds right. I mean were addicts right? That is normal behavior for us. Man, ive been where your at and it's a rough, rough, super tough spot to be in. They say if nothing changes than nothing changes and I'm saying most of this for myself because I know how hard it is. I know your not trying to hear about baths and walks and all that but truth is, nothing but that pill or time is going to turn you back into a person again. Reality is, you have to make a decision if you want to do the detox fully or bale at some point. I've done both multiple times. When I am in a detox I usually just wrap my mind around it and tell myself lets get on with it. I don't take a half a pill here and there. I just end it. Of course i'll take detox meds but be it heroin, methadone, pills I just stop and I know if I have some in my reach i'm gonna use them sooner or later. That's the deal with me. I hope you can make a decent choice cuz it's a hellish spot to be in battling your mind with your mind. And yea, if I threw those bastards in the trash you best believe I would go get them before the trash guys came. Man, I hate this addiction!!
Hi Suzz,
You are sooo wrapped up in the throws of this detox right now that you
can't think clearly. If you cave in to the pills now, you will just be prolonging or postponing what you are feeling right now. You do not
want to have to go through this again right?
You say you don't have anybody; but I saw you said you had your sister..
so there's somebody, plus you have this whole community. Most all of
us here have gone through what you are experiencing right now and lived
through it and SO WILL YOU, and if it's not this time, it will be another and you'll be back to square one....and I promise you it gets worse each time.
I see that you're familiar with this site, so I'm hoping you'll remember to
take your imodium for the runs, it also has this "calming' effect for a bonus.
I take a couple of gravol everynight to help me fall asleep. Just saying that's what "I" do. Your peers say the epsom baths help, and drinking water water water and vitamins if you can't eat.
I know that "crazy" head feeling all too well, change your head by thinking
of something pleasant or try single pointed meditation, focus on a candle, consentrate on the flame only and breath, think about your breathing.
It's only going to get better for you with each moment, that's your golden ticket. Keep your eyes on the prize.
Also keep close to MH try to write whenever you can, journal.
Rootin for ya kid,.....
Prayers for peace
and hope.
hugs. Spider
You are sooo wrapped up in the throws of this detox right now that you
can't think clearly. If you cave in to the pills now, you will just be prolonging or postponing what you are feeling right now. You do not
want to have to go through this again right?
You say you don't have anybody; but I saw you said you had your sister..
so there's somebody, plus you have this whole community. Most all of
us here have gone through what you are experiencing right now and lived
through it and SO WILL YOU, and if it's not this time, it will be another and you'll be back to square one....and I promise you it gets worse each time.
I see that you're familiar with this site, so I'm hoping you'll remember to
take your imodium for the runs, it also has this "calming' effect for a bonus.
I take a couple of gravol everynight to help me fall asleep. Just saying that's what "I" do. Your peers say the epsom baths help, and drinking water water water and vitamins if you can't eat.
I know that "crazy" head feeling all too well, change your head by thinking
of something pleasant or try single pointed meditation, focus on a candle, consentrate on the flame only and breath, think about your breathing.
It's only going to get better for you with each moment, that's your golden ticket. Keep your eyes on the prize.
Also keep close to MH try to write whenever you can, journal.
Rootin for ya kid,.....
Prayers for peace
and hope.
hugs. Spider
I don't have a whole town ... I don't have anybody... just me ... Oh yes!! I HAVE God!!!!
Work out?? Are you serious... I am lucky if I can stand up and walk. Work out??????? Maybe I could go swimming... but, the weather is changing.. Now I'm sneezing.. sneezing.. who cares... but, I never sneeze.. my legs hurt so bad I can't stand it.. Things keep falling.. its so weird... strange things that don't usually happen...everything keeps falling.. it's been going on for a day now.. just everything.. I can't do anything right.. I'm supposed to work out? The pain is unbelievable.. and I'm miserable..
Believe me, I am fighting. All I can think of is the pain. I cannot sleep long, and that sleep is horrible. Fighting to stay asleep. The whole sleep was a horror. Aching, pain, my head hurts. My legs are the worse.. Plus, I just don't feel right. I am so tired and yet, can't go to sleep. When will this end?? I can't do this another day and night.
Yes definitely flush the pills And cut your sources! Call your doctor, dentist or whoever supplies them to you and tell them you are an addict and do not want to take them anymore. Doing this will help you so much mentally and is a very big step in getting off the merry go round. I See you have been on here before let's make this time stick ok? Fight the good fight because you are worth it!
You still have pills around??I most of missed that..Now that is the WORST so called trigger of it ALL!!!!
Just get rid and try to move on..You will like your new self..
Just get rid and try to move on..You will like your new self..
Remind yourself of all the reasons that you're doing this! Do you REALLY want this (or would you rather go back to constant suffering & feelings of worthlessness/angst) ? If you do want it, it will take a milisecond to open your hand & let them drop into the bowl. Get determined. You're much stronger than you know. You CAN do this. Steel yourself & take the leap. You'll feel relieved & more committed if you can take this step. Otherwise, the fact that they're around will pull you under. This is just how it works, my friend.
As long as you keep the pills around, nothing is going to change, your addict mind is leading you to them over and over. 1 is too many, 1000 isn't enough. You need to get off the merry go round and start diving head in, going to meetings, addiction therapy, whatever you need to do. One day, one hour at a time if you have to.
You'll feel lousy for a short while, but compared to the rest of your life, it's nothing. You WILL eventually feel like yourself again. It takes time and work.
You'll feel lousy for a short while, but compared to the rest of your life, it's nothing. You WILL eventually feel like yourself again. It takes time and work.
Can you hit any meetings?? I know this is very hard..For me as a long time user this takes A LOT of work..I had to change my whole life around. Can not go around people that still use or drink, had to change all the places and situations that can cause triggers at any given moment. I just celebrated a Year clean from 3 drugs I c/t but it is still hard not to crave once in a while. What I have to do if I have cravings is just try to redirect myself real fast and I mean real fast. It takes a lot of life style changes to do this. For me I did my Dones with Adderral for the last 12 years to get Buzzed up and get everything done at once and had to have it done like Yesterday. SO that is where I just had to accept these things getting done in baby steps and they do get done and even better. Since I started using off and on at the age 14 I never thought it was wrong but just a party or everyone was doing it..The last 16 was were it got way out of control and I could never walk away like I did before..My addition got so bad that I can not even work in the nursing field any more due to Medications being around. This becomes the hardest thing we have to do is CHANGE are life around for the better and have Patience enough to know it will get better. Set up all boundaries in your life and learn to know what cause the triggers. Then work on that and make it work for you..I wish you the best and I know you can do it.
SuzzQ I also see that you have been here since 2009, so I am sure you have read a lot of other stories on here and how people work out there sobriety from day to day..Keep on going forward..OK.
Bless
SuzzQ I also see that you have been here since 2009, so I am sure you have read a lot of other stories on here and how people work out there sobriety from day to day..Keep on going forward..OK.
Bless
It is not embarrassing. It is humility and you need to get humble with someone. You have been doing this for years. Something has to change hun.
I can go to church, but I'm not telling them that I am getting off pain pills!! That would be way too embarrassing.
Hi, I am sick.. I had to go out today, so I took a tiny piece of the norco. I cut up one pill into a bunch of pieces with a pill cutter. I don't think this is even doing anything at all.. but, try we much. I ache from head to toe and don't feel right. My head feels weird and hurts really bad. I don't want to take asperins until I eat something, don't want to mess up my stomach, its bad enough already. Strange thing though, the diarrhea went away! But I have stomach cramps, but not too too bad. Everything hurts... i just ache.. my legs hurt a lot! I have to just not even take the tiny little pieces of the one pill.. I allowed myself one pill... because I feel I am missing something... like this teeny tiny piece might help? I'm not sure, and I think it is just prolonging the whole thing. But, I have been reading things other people have said about long term aching and things like that.. doesn't sound good to me... I'm going to keep praying. I am sure God wants me to completely stop taking these pills, so that is what I must do... I have to get rid of all these pills!!! Throw them in the dumpster where I can't get them back out.. to try to get my one pill cut into a million pieces... lol... I'm so tired.. I wish I could just go to sleep for a month..
Well, you have all of us! It sounds like your sister is trying to support you. Sometimes it's just hard for people who haven't been through this to understand. This is a big reason why so many folks go to NA and/or AA meetings. You can get some great face to face support from other recovering addicts as well as learn tools for your recovery. Hang in there. You are only as alone as you let yourself be.
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