Quitting Hydrocodone - Day 3

[Hydroco_Done]

So I figured I'd make a new post since the other one's getting a little cluttered.  I've made it day 3.  Last night started off pretty bad and I got really depressed between 8-9:30 or so, but went to see one of my best friends and that helped a lot.  Managed to fall asleep around 1am, but woke up at 6am, and life hit me like a truck.  Instant runs, instant hot flashes when covered up and cold sweats when not covered up, and a small headache.  Took half a xanax and managed to fall back asleep 2 hours later.  Well now I'm completely awake, hot flashes are a little worse, no cold flashes yet, and a small headache.  I'm remaining hopeful, I just hate the random bouts of depression where I try to tell myself that I'm nothing without the drug, things will never be the same again, and I'll never have the girl I want.  I realize this is all a bunch of B.S, but honestly this is byfar the worst w/d symptom in my book!

[readytostop_2011_331537]

Day 4 without a pill.
Still only sleeping a few hours and the night sweats aren't fun. I think a few more days and I may have this licked. Taking vitamins seems to help. I have a lot of anxiety and racing heart at night. I just wished I could sleep. Nothing seems to work. Anyway, I am managing though. Praying for everyone who has this demon and praying that it is released so they may heal spiritually, physically, and financially.

[readytostop_2011_331537]

Today is Monday, day 2 . I was so happy that I had the energy just to get up without any pills or sleep, took a shower and made it to work. On Friday, I had 4 Loritab 5's. I took 2 on Friday and 2 on Saturday. I still started the withdraws on Saturday night. I couldn't sleep and the sweats were terrible. This was my way to come off the Hydro 10's and Perc's 10/325. I was taking up to 5 a day of either or whatever I could get a hold of. I had no pain or reason to use just started 3 years ago as a recreational drug then got hooked. Every-time I tried to stop I had the withdraws and got a hold of some to tide me over till I got more. I couldn't even make it to work without something. Anytime something happened my way of dealing with it was to use more. Now, I'm back with my boyfriend and looking at a new job. I will have to pass a drug test more than likely and my boyfriend does not know the situation about the pills, he knew i had used before and did not like it, he already thinks i have quit and have no problems with it. Not the case at all. I don't want to mess up our relationship and I want a new job and I want off these horrible things. I hate the feeling that I have to have something to live besides God and my family. I am almost forty and it's sad that just to get housework done or make it to work I need a pill. So, I have got vitamins, B-12, and Vitamin D, drinking lots of water, Phenegan for the diarrhea and stomach cramps, and praying to GOD, for help and to not to find a way to start again ever. The worst part is I actually do have restless leg syndrome and this has been far the worst symptom. I have got muscle rub creme and getting the Epson salt to help too. Any suggestions you can give me to get off these things, please advise? No one knows how addicted I have been. I work in Law enforcement and I have to come off these alone. I have been crying a lot and from what I have read this is a symptom too. I have been on Xanax before for anxiety attacks but never got hooked because I didn't like to be down. I have also been on sleeping medicine this would be good to help sleep, Wish I still had that prescription from what I hear both would help with the withdrawals, but don't need another addiction. I have tried natural sleep remedies and benadryl, Tylenol Pm and none helps me sleep with these withdrawals. Please advise? I just want to get back to me and being normal!! Please pray for me!!  

[Hydroco_Done]

Innerstrength67, I've been drinking plenty of water and cranberry juice to keep hydrated and flush my system, and it seems to be helping a lot.  Gatorade sounds like a really good idea I'll go pick a couple up today. And you are right I didn't even realize how bad I had gotten until a little over a week ago!  It's incredible how long they can stealthily run your life without you even realizing it.

[Hydroco_Done]

Got2bstrong, my entire family grew up in Chicago, in the inner city.  I've learned a lot from them about what it takes to be a strong person, and I attribute that, along with my own personal experiences, plus my little brothers and sister, who look up to me, to be strong.  The strength is inside all of us.  I can tell you are a strong person as well, and that you will get through and come out of this with flying colors!  The decision alone to completely give up the pills takes a lot of strength, a lot more than many people realize.  Keep up the good work, friend =] And know that you can msg me any time to talk if I'm around.

[Hydroco_Done]

Thank you guys!  I'm making a new post Quitting Hydrocodone - Day 4

[Innerstrength67]

You are doing it! Congrats on day 3! I hope your staying hydrated. You need electrolytes, Gatorade helped me so much. It's so strange but we can't imagine our lives without pills and before we know it, we are clean for weeks and can't imagine how we ever lived our lives chasing pills. It's a trip!
Hang in there!!

[Got2bstrong]

Absolutly my friend!!!! I am trying to keep track of my friends posts. LOL YOU are doing great also. We will do this together!!! We are stong people and tired of letting pills run our lives for the worse. You just have to be strong. I know you are. I can tell. I do care about you. I care about everyone. Everyone needs some kind of help no matter what it is. And a friend with encouraging words always helps. But theyre not just words. I mean what I say or should I say type. LOL hehhehe

[Hydroco_Done]

Thank you very much and good job deciding to let them go! =]  Yeah you've just got to convince yourself that the depression is just the result of your brain's desperation to have the drug, but that will fade in time, and before we know it you and I will be back to normal, and thank you for saying that that means a lot, you are too and yes I was a lot happier with my life before the pills and I want that back more than anything.  I'll definitely keep in touch we will conquer this thing and live better lives for it in the long-run!

[Hydroco_Done]

Yeah depression and anxiety are definitely the most difficult burden to bear, but hope, optimism, and sheer willpower are helping me cope with it.  My dad quit smoking cigs about 15 years ago, and if he can stay clean from that, I can definitely do it for this!  For some reason I find that adderall really helps to with the energy.  The reason this surprises me is because a lot of people have advised against using it saying it only makes the w/d worse.  You guys are wonderful it's nice to know that I'm not the only ones going through this!  And yeah angel_lina, you will make it it's definitely difficult to overcome a painkiller addiction, but with a little support and some hope and optimism it can be done.  

[Got2bstrong]

Congrats on your day 3 I am on day 1 with percocets. Feeling pretty crapy myself and yes the depression is horrible at times. You are more than just drugs. You are a VERY special person and I am glad that you value your life enough to get clean. We can do this together. Keep in touch my friend.And remember dont give up or give in. Stay strong!!! You CAN do this.

[all_alone1]

You guys are inspirations. I haven't decided to go cold turkey but if and when I do I know I have you guys to fall back on.

[ricart70]

Hey,Glad you are doing good.I think you're right about the depression and anxiety.It is my worst problem also.I have been running everyday and it helps some.I have also been taking cold showers.Hang in there we are doing good even though we are not feeling good

[Iwantanewlifenow]

The depression and anxiety are the worse for me..Congrats on day 3!!!!