Really scared!!!! Inhalant!!!

I need some help and comfort

I've been hanging out with the wrong crew for past months or so... Long story short, out of my stupidity I decided to join in the inhalant, dust remover nite... I was drunk so I couldn't care less.... I so regret it today...

Anyways, needless to say that this has been an awakening call for me, in my life in general, I've done so many stupid things, and every time I do one, I get back to the spot I am today.

Feeling helpless and despair, having panic attacks and thinking if out of this I did so much damage to my brain, my health and life in general. I just like to know, cause I feel so ashamed to ask anybody, but, do you think I have permanent damage out of the first time I did this CRAP!!! ??? About 5 puffs in one night out of a can... How long does it stay in your system?? I'm just not sure if it is the panic I have right now or the side effects or both, or if I will feel like this forever


I know I suffer from panic disorder so this doesn't help to really realize how bad or if I still have after effects or so, so I'm confused and scared and I don't really want to dig into the facts of what this thing does to you, cause I'm sure I wont do it again.

Only thing I know, is I wont do it again, and I will take a deep look at myself and do the changes necessary to not be in this spot again... Please, to all of you out there, I hope this post helps, and make you think to stay away from this, it's really not worthy...

Take care, and please any word of encouragement, good advice and support will be really welcome...

peace to all

[tellit2her]

Hey there, rest assurred you will be ok, but I would advice you that if you continue on this dark path of inhalents, you will come up with brain damage that in unrepairable. Just stay away from it. There just isnt anything good about doing this type of recreation. I would for the time being eat well, drink a ton of water to flush out the inhalents, fruits, walk a few miles, take a hot shower, take vitamins once a day, and enjoy your life without trying to harm yourself. I respect your honesty for talking about this, shows your are an honest and brave person to start with. God bless, mike in nc

[IBKleen]

Hi,

I think you could get more help in the OCD community (as has been previously suggested). Or, also suggested, the anxiety community right here at MH. I have provided the links below:

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Anxiety/show/71

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-OCD-/show/231

Best of luck.

[tellit2her]

Hey there, rest assurred you will be ok, but I would advice you that if you continue on this dark path of inhalents, you will come up with brain damage that in unrepairable. Just stay away from it. There just isnt anything good about doing this type of recreation. I would for the time being eat well, drink a ton of water to flush out the inhalents, fruits, walk a few miles, take a hot shower, take vitamins once a day, and enjoy your life without trying to harm yourself. I respect your honesty for talking about this, shows your are an honest and brave person to start with. God bless, mike in nc

[2worriedAbout]

What about the inhalant part??? Any comments about :/
Thanks for your reply tho

peace

[vicki595]

Hi~  Mike gave you excellent advice.    Listen,don't ever do that again...Now,calm yourself;you're too panicky.  Deep breaths in through you nose and out through your mouth. Slowly and deeply...in and out.  Deep breathe and cough a few times. Start forcing fluids;no caffeine.  
You'll be okay but keep posting to us~
V.

[2worriedAbout]

Thanks so much, your reply is very encouraging... I know, is the first time I did it, I can't tell you how much other stuff I've done, but this was a wake up call to stop. You are right it is a dark path overall, any addiction... Is never late to stop, for me it is time....

peace

[IBKleen]

I don't know about the inhaler part. No one can predict that. It was a dumb move and you know that.

What I am trying to make you see is that you have an underlying disorder that is causing this behavior, much as with the HIV obsession. See what I mean?

Get to the root of the problem and you won't need to worry about inhalants. Good luck.

[gnarly_1]

HI and welcome back...I see you have been a member since 2005 so its good you new to come back here to look for help....Im no expert or doctor but I highly doubt that you did any damage just huffing one time....usually it takes multiple times to do any significant damage to your brain...DONT DO this any more...it can be fatal..if you really feel like you have done something to your self get it checked out by a doctor...I think if I where you I would be asking myself the question ...do I have a problem with alcohol .? it in itself can be just as destructive as any other drug...the main goal of this forum is to get people comfortable with there sobriety...it usually requires aftercare to put and end to our drug seeking behavior weather it be drugs or alcohol your still seeking the escape from something you need to dig down and figure out what is driving you to use in the first place...both A/A and N/A are good as is a substance abuse conslor you just need to find out what fits your needs best...don't let this go you don't have to live like this...keep posting so we can support you good luck and God bless........Gnarly          

[2worriedAbout]

I know what you mean IBKleen. And yes it was dumb move. I'm just really looking for support, and perhaps advice from those with some knowledge about it. I knoiw everyone is different and react different, and that this could have been fatal. Funny thing my "friends" didn't let me read the WARNING label. Thanks for the advice... peace

[2worriedAbout]

Thank you vicki and gnarly... Yeah, since 2005, with other worries but same struggles... It is up and down, I'm hoping this is the last lesson so I can change. gnarly, you are right about the alcohol part, come from a background of alcohol abuse, so I know it can be on me... I think the panic is the one making me feel like this, and looking for a culprit... I surely hope is not related to the inhalant, but I'm sure I started obsessing over it when I wasn't even thinking about it the next day... So hopefully it will just go away... Thanks so much for all your support and medhelp to keep this forums open... peace to all

[Casper1984]

IM 25 YEARS OLD, WHEN I WAS 18, A FRIEND INTRODUCED ME TO SILVER AND GOLD SPRAY PAINT. AT FIRST, I WAS LIKE, HELL NO, THATS NUTS. THEN, MY OTHER FRIEND WHOM I WAS LIVING WITH, TRIED IT, AND LIKED IT, THEY BEGGED ME T TRY IT. SO, OFCOARSE I TRIED IT. DIDNT LOVE IT AT FIRST, BUT WHEN ALL THEY DID WAS GET HIGH OFF IT, AND KEPT BEGGIN ME TO DO IT WITH THEM, I GAVE IN, WE WOULD GET A BREAD BAG, EMPTY OUT THE BREAD, LEAVE 2 PIECES OF BREAD AT THE BOTTOM TO ABSORB THE PAINT, THEN HUFF THE BAG UNTILL WE EITHER PASSED OUT, HALLUCINATED OR WENT BLANK. FUNNY THING IS, OUT OF ALL THE DRUGS YOU CAN THINK OFF, IT WAS VERY ADDICTIVE. IT OOK CONTROL OF MY LIFE, I DID IT EVERY DAY, UNTILL I WAS ARRESTED FOR POSSESION AND ABUSE OF A VOLATILE CHEMICAL. THEY ILLEGALLY SEARCHED MY HOME, NO WARRANT,, NO PROBABLE CAUSE, JUST A SNITCH THAT CALLED IT IN. i SPENT 2 MONTHS IN JAIL, OVER THANKGIVING AND CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEARS, IT SUCKED AT FIRST, BUT LIKE MANY ADDICTS, WE LEARN TO ADAPT AND MANIPULATE OUR SURROUNDINGS. WITHIN A WEEK AND A HALF, I WAS BEST FRIENDS WITH THE BIGGEST TOUGHEST GUY IN THE TANK, WHO BASICALLY CALLED THE SHOTS. I WAS SO YOUNG, HE TOOK ME UNDER HIS WING AND TAUGHT ME THE WAYS OF JAIL. sORRY, I RAMBLED, IT TOOK OVER A MONTH FOR ME TOOK REGAIN FULL BRAIN FUNCTION. I WOULD FORGET MID SENTENCE WHAT I WAS SAYING, FELT SLOW, LOSS OF MEMORY, BUT IT DID COME BACK. STAY AWAY, I PROMISE YOU, INHALANTS ARE ADDICTIVE.

[Casper1984]

ONE THING I FORGOT, THE GUY WHO INTRODUCED ME TO INHALENTS, HE NEVER STOPPED. HE WAS A GOOD FRIEND THOUGH. 3 MONTHS AGO HE PUT A GUN TO HIS HEAD, BLEW HIS BRAINS OUT, AND I KNOW, AND BELIEVE, IF IT WERENT FOR HIS CONSTANT ABUSE OF INHALANTS FOR YEARS, HE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE.

[2worriedAbout]

Thank you for your advice Casper, not planning on getting into that again, it was experimental in a way, but, I'm paying for it right now, feeling scared and panicked about the fact of having mess something up in my brain or body... Not sure if it is the panic or the inahlant that is making me feel this way, it's been2 days now...  See how it goes the next couple days before seeking professional help... I'm glad you are sober and recovered from it all... Take care, and peace...

[2worriedAbout]

Hi there, I figure I would give you an update. I'm still in the same predicament, but having full blown panic attacks which I think are caused cause of what I did. It scared me too, the fact that I can't follow 2 conversations at the same time, or I loose track of it. But at the same time I have slept an average of 3 hours. It's been really hard to concentrate and just trying to figure out how many hours I've slept right now was a struggle... I try to make sense of it since I did the inhalant around 3 am to 6 am or so on Monday, slept  the most 2  hours and headed to work. Starting having panic attacks or aftershocks of it around 2 3 pm and ever since, havent stopped having the panic feeling... I went home as usual after work and got home at 6pm I slept til 10 pm and then not real sleep from like 3 am to 7 am... Wednesday, got up and work all day, or at least I tried, went to sleep around 10 pm but woke up 11:30pm - 12am and couldn't get back to sleep til about 6 am to 7 am... 1 hour there... In between, I have full blown panic attacks, racing thoughts, vertigo when I try to sleep...

I'm pretty sure I'm having panic attacks, and blaming it on the computer duster I took, but for some reason I kinda feel the high of it and that is what is scaring the hell out of me...

I'd never done this thing so, I don't know anything about it. And to be honest not sure if I want to know... I'm planning on going to AA tonight, I have an appointment already... then, I may go to Doc tomorrow, if nothing has improved...

Any thoughts, I truly appreciate it...

peace,

[2worriedAbout]

Hi there!

Another update :)

After 5 days of doing the inhalant, I figure is totally out of my system. Every person I've talked about says it shouldn't have made any damage for one night 5 puffs. Amazingly enough I told one of my friends whom I had no idea, but he told me he used to do that (computer duster) all the time when he was younger... He took it lightly and assured me I'll be ok.

Not sure, this may be my last post in this forum, and I will take it now to the Panic and anxiety disorder. This ordeal with the inhalant it only made my panic disorder to come back, which I'm in a way glad, cause I was in a path of self destruction...

Is a long fight from now on until I get back to normal, I hadn't had a panic attack in 8 years, I thought they may never come back, but the way I was living in the past couple years, has brought me back to that same lonely and scary place, in panic about all day, at least I've been able to sleep...

Hope this helps somebody, is never too late to quit whatever they are doing, and their addictions, it is a very hard fight to get out... I attended my first AA meeting last thursday, and I learned so much. I had no idea how lucky I've been, not getting in any serious trouble where I could have hurt somebody, besides me. This has certainly been the wake up call I needed to get back on my feet and take care of myself and the ones I love and that I've realized have been around me all this time and I have ignored their pleas to quit drinking and doing all the stupid **** I'd had been doing...

Thanks so much to all who replied, and sorry about the long posts, I'm journaling at the same time, as you can see I came back and been a member since 5 years ago...

Take good care of yourselves...

peace