Rehab

[Nicole1105]

Hey all. I can't post a lot right now, but let's just say I f-ed up big time again. Wifey and Best Friend found out, called my parents, now they are worried sick about me. Everyone's saying it's time to go to Rehab, and while I'm scared to death, I think it may be the right thing. I've said before "Oh I can do this I can taper" but I wind up sneaking them away from Wifey and/or buying them off the street! What is wrong with me?! Ahhh I just want to scream.

So who here has been to Rehab? What was your experience like? Please be honest, I need to know what's ahead...

[dominosarah]

Take this time to focus on you now.  Get going with some sort of recovery program and hit it hard.  This is your life we are talking about, respect it and take care of it~~~~sara

[Nicole1105]

Thanks so much everyone! We went to Rockdale last night (my parents, Wifey, and I) and they did not admit me. (It's primarily a mental facility so they don't really do detox.) But my parents came up with a plan: I'm staying with them and they are basically controlling every aspect of my life. Yeah it *****. 28 and living with Mom and Dad (and little sis). But oh well. I made my bed and now have to lie in it.

Wifey is really fed up. She said 1. she can't be in a relationship with someone she can't trust and 2. tapering off of the pills isn't working at home because she can't watch me 24/7. Mom is a homemaker, so she will be my "babysitter." I am only allowed at home if someone "responsible" is with me. Wifey said I am welcome home when I'm off the pills and I have a handle on my life. She also said she hopes that we can build our relationship back up, but she isn't sure if we can :( I really hope we can...she is my true love and we both believe we are soul mates.

So that's the status right now. Best Friend, sis, roommate, and I are at home while Wifey is at a friend's house. Wifey did surprise me when she said she'd see me tomorrow afternoon. Guess she's going to take me home for a while! :D I'm soooo happy to be here; there's nothing like the comforts of home and my four kitties.

Gotta go, we're heading to Pizza Hut :)  

[Htownnofrown]

I went to treatment and it was the best thing I ever did aside from getting into AA. I needed separation from the drugs and lifestyle I was living and rehab offered just that. Got a lot of education on addiction while I was in there, and it gave me an amazing foundation to build upon with AA/NA. I'd recommend it to any addict who has the means to go.

[laurel453]

Good luck, Nicole and all the best at rehab, remember you are fighting for you life so keep your spirit high and positive and work on it :)

[BrotherFrankie]

rehabs are for the most part great!!!

Go for it

[gnarly_1]

Hey Nicole theirs no shame in asking for help if you need it rehab will be good for you
post back when you can I just want to wish you the best of luck doing this
I will keep you in my prayers good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[dominosarah]

Let us know how you are doing when you can Nicole~~~~You can do this!!          sara

[Richjess2226]

I went to rehab in 2000. I actually went to 3 before I found the one for me. 12 step was the best for me. I had a really great experience there too. I learnt a lot about myself and my addiction. It wasn't by any means an easy ride though. I was quite scared before I went and the first few weeks were a nightmare. But after that I really enjoyed myself actually. I made some great friends and actually had quite a laugh.
The rehab itself was about 20 miles from anywhere with between 50 - 60 patients.
90% of staff were recovering addicts and were really supportive.
One of the rehabs I tried before was quite different though, more like a hospital than rehab. I was locked in my room the first night and ended up jumping out of a 2 nd floor window to get away.
I think as long as you do some research on the rehab you choose first and maybe go and visit it's a really good option for someone struggling with relapse.
Best of luck.  

[Nicole1105]

Thanks guys. I am actually going to a facility in DE called The Rockford. I actually called Dr. N as an on-call emergency call just so I could ask him where I can go cause I can't take this anymore. That sweet man answered my call and wasn't mad about me calling him on the weekend. He recommended the Rockford. It's cool cause my dad was saying that "The one right across from Christiana Hospital is really good but I don't know the name of it." We searched the internet and couldn't seem to find that one...well guess what? Dr. N said the Rockford IS the one right across from Christiana Hospital! I think that's a sign I should go there.

Please just pray for me and think about me. We have an appointment for 7 pm tonight. I guess I go there, get assessed, and then we go from there. They said I can check myself in, which I'll do. I don't know how long I'll need to be there, I guess as long as it takes. It's good to hear that not all rehab experiences are bad! :)

[CATUF]

One more thing - the notion that you "f-ed up big time" is probably wrong.  

It's the relapses where it all hits the fan that bring light to the dark secrets of our addiction.  It's not a matter of being good or bad, it's a matter of being healthy or sick.  Addiction is a disease that will utimately kill you if its not arrested, but it will destroy everything you love in the process.

A crisis like "Wifey and Best Friend finding out" is often the best thing, a life-saving thing, for a drug addict.

You have been thrown into the river of recovery.  you can go with the flow of that river and obtain the many reward of recovery, or fight the current (maybe climb out) and miss it all.  it's all up to you.


CATUF
2020

[CATUF]

I loved my rehab! I always thought that going to rehab would be THE END, something to be avoided at ALL COSTS.  I was so wrong, it turned out to be exactly what I needed and it was the beginning of life, not the end.

I see your from MD.  There are lots of great rehabs close to you.  I know several people who went to Father Martin's Ashley, which is in Havre de Grace (http://www.fathermartinsashley.com/).  

I have personal knowledge of two in Virginia: Bridging the Gaps in Winchester (http://www.bridgingthegaps.com/) and Williamsburg Place in Williamsburg (http://www.farleycenter.com/)  Both are really good, BTG is smaller scale/more intimate than WP, and is actually often used as a continuing or after care for WP.

A bit farther away, in Fellowship Hall in Greensboro, NC (http://www.fellowshiphall.com/).  My Sponsor went there twice, the last time 22 years ago and I have a friend there now.

These are just a few that I happen to know about . . . there must be dozens more within a hundred mile radius of you.

Don't fight it any more.  
When it comes to recovery, the one who surrenders the most wins!!

CATUF
2020

[dominosarah]

I think this may be a good option for you.  I was in rehab many years ago and i apply many of the things i learned there to my everyday living now along with my meetings.  If you dont get the help you need and stop this behavior death is what is ahead.  There is no happy ending to using~~~~sara