glad that you are feeling a slight improvement, we have to hold to any good sign even if it lasts only for hours , it is good.... :)
Thanks for that. Today has been slightly better than yesterday. I hope I feel better tomorrow (or today as it were). Merry Christmas laurel453.
oh, dear... i am so sorry, it is not a day to feel in so much pain ... i hope things will get better as day 4th is usually one of the worst and things improve from then on...so lets cross our fingers that you will start feeling better on the evening !! wish you a much better christmas eve than the one you are dreading at this moment !! :)
Oh I feel SOOOO bad right now. I just want the pain to end. I'm going on my fifth day and this was the worst day....like people say. I hope today and Christmas will be good. I can't imagine it will be much better though.
The dilemma that I'm facing now is should I go back on them (if I can). I mean I just feel better with them even when sometimes they don't seem to do too much for me....it's still something though.
I'm going on the 4th day and considering I'm doing pretty well. I still feel like crap but I get little flashes of happiness. When I say flashes I really mean it. I'll feel semi-good for a few seconds and then it's gone.
I've tried sooooo many drugs and I've about give up on them. I was taking Wellbutrin and Lamictal and I was OK for a few months then like I said before the darkness came back. Then earlier this year, I went to get new glasses and I went to 4 different places and none of the prescriptions felt right. So that's what really got me down.
I completely switched prescription (but first not taking anything for a couple weeks) and now I'm taking 40mg of Prozac with 300mb of Trileptal. My blurriness never got better and I still have it. I took a Diabetes A1C test and it came up 5.4 which they said it borderline. I've been to two different Opthomologists and both of them think it may be my prescription and they say I'm overcorrected. Well I may very well be but I know it's not that because when I got new glasses with a lower prescription, they were too weak and they were only 2 steps down from what I have.
So I'm really sick and tired of doctors. Oh there is one other thing. I started getting chest pressure and it felt like my heart was going to stop...and no, I didn't overdose but when I first started taking the Vics again I felt it in my heart, or at least that's what it felt like. Have you ever heard of Vicodin causing heart problems? Anyway maybe it's for the best for me not to have the Vics. It just ***** because I'm starting to be more reclusive now and that just ***** for the whole family and my friends.
I look at the pros and cons of Vicodin and it just seems that it is slightly more helpful than it is harmful. Like I said before, initially when I got off of them the last time, I felt really good for a few months. Then the dark depression slowly crept in. Even then it was 1.5 years before I started up again, due to a kidney stone.
After seeing how I am with it, I do much much better. I've come to realize that you go through periods where the Vicodin doesn't do much at all and then there are others where it really helps.
I don't know if I already said this or not but I went to my psychiatrist and I spoke about the Vicodin and he said one a day wouldn't hurt. Of course there's no way I could only take one a day, but I could stay with 6 a day.
I know this isn't what you all want to hear but I've got to try to get the doc to have me take 6 a day. He probably won't do it though and if it's only one a day, what's the point.
I know the cons to this drug is the addiction but if I stayed on track I believe I could do it.
Ironically I feel a little better today than I did yesterday. I'm talking massive doses of Seroquel and surprisingly that seems to noticeably help. It doesn't make you 'feel good' but I'd say it takes at least 50% of the symptoms off, both physical and mental.
If he doesn't go for it, then I'll have to just deal with it. At least I know that I can be off of them for a long period of time and I know I'll feel much better than I do right now.
I dont think anyone plans to relapse. As time goes by, we often forget the pain addiction caused us and why aftercare helps so many when this sorta thing happens. I feel addiction is a disease that some are afflicted with, and for many..aftercare is the only "medicine" to keep them clean.
I am not sure, but I doubt there r not many here who have not screwed up at some time or another. getting back on track is all u can do...re-evaluate your plan and what u can do differently this go around
good luck to u..if u want this it is in your power to do it! (:
I agree! You need to know if you're properly medicated for the bipolar. That could cause big problems for you trying to stop drugs. You deserve to feel normal all the time. There are meds that can help you with it! I have a lifelong friend who is bipolar, and she was finally able to kick cocaine and alcohol because of finding the right meds and going to counseling for the addiction. Keep us posted ok?
sorry , sithtiger... i can understand what you say about not being sure but trust me, addiction is a disease and it is always progressive, soon you will need increasing your doses, the effects you feel now, will dissappear and you would find yourself in a much worse place. maybe the problem here it is that you are not rightly medicated for the bipolar disorder so you medicated with the vics. Work on finding a better treatment, please :) How are you feeling today ?