Relapsed again...

Well I found a bottle I had stashed, it had 50 vic in it (the ES ones too), I had totally forgot about it and hid it in the 3rd bathroom no-one uses.

I am hurting bad in my back and I know with my problem the Vic's are NOT the solution but with the MAD cravings going strong and now I am feeling great but so very sad at the same time, oh well no more scripts and no more contacts so these should be my last 50, I just cant bring myself to flush them I already flushed my muscle relaxers (somas) and almost all my xanax so I am clean except for this monster.

I will taper very slow this time and hope it does ok, not looking forward to the hell that I just got through but I guess thats what makes me an addict.

Better days ahead....

[Whenwillitend]

Well - if you already have taken them - take enough to feel good, then just flush the rest. The more you take, the more intense your WD will be.

If you believe you can taper - then you have a chance - I just know I never could - even with help, I could never keep to a taper schedule.

Good luck!

[medhelpmike1979]

I tapered last time but only over 5 days it was MUCH better on my body and I didn't miss any work if you can believe that, so yeah I can taper no problem up to a point :) lol

[medhelpmike1979]

I guess basically I am saying I am too weak to flush them because of a) the pain and b) the feeling so yeah ill try the taper and I know I will be in the same (WDs) boat next week :(

[Tpachuck]

Keep The Faith Mike....I agree you should flush them....it only takes a second and there is no turning back.....the other day i was throwing drug stiff away and I found an 80 mg Oxi.....I flushed it IMMEDIATELY.....Mike...remember.....Drugs are going to be everywhere.....You'll have to sooner or later summon the resolve.....but no judgement here....It took me many tries and Im still only on day 12.......so If you take them......try again afterward....and stay in touch!

[medhelpmike1979]

Your right, they are everwhere.... I left them home so I wouldn't "over do it" today so as soon as I get home I will flush them... or try to... I need to psyc myself up!!!!

[medhelpmike1979]

Since I just got done with WDs (physical part anyway) do you think I will be ok flushing since I took just 2 today or should I taper a bit?

[medhelpmike1979]

Since I just got done with WDs (physical part anyway) do you think I will be ok flushing since I took just 2 today or should I taper a bit?

[Tpachuck]

Good man.....I won't be home this evening so if you need encouragement PLEASE come here and post....I'll hold you to that and expect to read about it when I get home......Be Strong Mike.....This is the time for YOU to shine.....You came to far to let that junk back into your thought process!

[Tpachuck]

You'll be fine.....2 wont even interfere with the process.....Remember this is something YOU decided to do because you knew it needed done....That makes you 1 smart cookie!!!

[medhelpmike1979]

thanks for the words ill let you know how it goes...

[judgesheart]

Hey Mike!  I'm sorry you are going through this.  I took my last Lorocet 10 yesterday morning at 6 am.  Today I felt awful.  I felt dizzy and my legs hurt so bad.  I teach school, so it's hard to have a bad day in front of 22 kids.  At least they keep me from thinking about it all of the time.  Anyway, by the time I got home today I just couldn't take it.  My stomach was killing me and I felt like sh**.  I just cried and then went to my "contact" and got 30 more.  I have decided to wait until school is over to try again.  i was crazy for going cold turkey with three weeks of school left.  i know how you feel though, the monster can find you anywhere.  Hang in there.  Do what you feel like you need to do.  Truthfully, if I were through most of the bad part, I think I would have to at least try to flush them....I don't know, maybe I'm not that strong.  Good luck and please posts if you need to talk.  maybe we can get through this thing together!

xoxo

T