thank you for the kind words hun...did you get my PM?
i am so glad your hanging in there, your doing just awesome!! so proud of you!!
Thank all of you for your beautiful thoughts.
It makes me feel so good that I have posted our experience on this forum. Thanks to "wait2Long" for gently encouraging me to do this. She was right, it did make me feel better as I got many encouraging thoughts/prayers regarding our loss.
I am hanging in there. I am on day 9 of no Vicodin, if I counted correctly.
Yesterday/last night and today for some very odd reason I am having W/D feelings again? The restless leg stuff. Super anxiety? Very strange. I thought this would done by now, however, as I go back and read other's posts, it looks like this could be a come and go thing for a while. It is not going to throw me off, although, I have had thoughts of falling off in a weak moment.
You know what has helped me? When I feel this anxiety, restlessness, I POST. Then I Post. I answer a post. I answer a friend or Post more! This posting has helped me through these spike W/D pains.
Thanks, all for your support and loving words of encouragement.
Michele
I'd like to offer my deepest condolances to you. I don't quiet feel your pain, as everyones is different but I too lost a sibbling not to long ago. My brother Jeff. And let me tell you after three years my heart still aches. So I am feeling you my dear. Just wanted to drop you a note to introduce myself, I'm Cathy, with pneumonia and asthma at the present time, and want to to know your so dearly thought of. My heart goes out to you as I hope in God's time your pain somewhat eases, and turns but into precious memories. I don't know what else I can say but hang in there. I too am addicted to the pain meds, went off them since may, now back on with my illness. Hummmmmm?
Take care sweetie. Cathy
I am truly sorry to read about the loss of your sister. It's obvious that you loved her a great deal and I'm glad that you have the motivation and the drive to stop using.
I'm sure that your sister would be very proud of you, and all that you are trying to do to help others.
Bless you and your family ,
Sandi
I did not know about your sister.. i cannot even imagine. i am so very sorry...
your post was beautiful. and i wish you nothing but success on this "journey" michele.
thanks for sharing such beautiful thoughts.
warmly,
mj
Oh hun...i bet your family WAS frantic...i can totally understand why, this is all so new to all of you. not having that contact brought up a lot of fears. hopefully this will ease with time...and they will know and understand how well you are doing and they will be able to ease away from those types of fearful thoughts, but for now, it is so understandable. i am so glad you have gotten closer with your family, but also so sorry for your pain and loss at the same time, just know things will get easier with time, you all need time to adjust and grieve...
your doing great michele!