I had a misfortunate issue , i thought that i had a problem with my anus sphincter because once i inserted a huge "toy" inside of it and i saw a hemoroid which i got there after one year, i thought that it was a result from my action.
Well long story short i became very anxious because i logged on the internet and red on proctological
sicknesses that you can get , and i became obsessed that i had damaged my sphincter,and i could not sleep for like 5-6 days , i thought that my sphincter was permenatly damaged and that i would feel it for the rest of my life and i would not be able to sleep.So i do this mistake . First i arrange an appointment with a psychiatrist , and THEN with a proctologist surger,because i thought that i had done permanent damage without first checking it with a surger proctologist.So i go the psychiatrist and he prescribes me Remeron antidepressant because i had insomnia due to my thoughts that my anus is damaged.
He didn't warn me about not to stop abruptly and he told me that i would take it for 1 week to 1 month and then "we will see".Also no mentioning about side effects.The result was me taking it for 2 days and being dizzy as hell, i took 30 mg x 2 days, i went to the Proctologist after and with certain examinations he told me that my anus is not damaged at all.Then my mind stopped being anxious and i thought that this nightmare has stopped.
So i thought " ok i am healthy i will sleep by my self today" and stopped remeron , after like 1.5 day i started having withdrawal symptoms , tachycardia,increased sensitivity to skin,blurred vision ,my muscles were like **** ,small tremor ,imbalance and feeling my head abit .
I contacted the pdoc and he was like "there is no possibility that it's from Remeron" , a freaking lie , i stopped contact with him because i would probably kick his *** if i see him live again.
I contact another psychiatrist because i wanted advice on how to stop the remeron withdrawal and tell him the story and she was like "these symptoms are not from Remeron but it is because of your thinking and your anxiety, " she was so convincing that i almost believed her, my father was there with me and because i was whining that i could not sleep good enough he asked her that i needed something for sleep , and she gave me Lexotanil pills 6 mg , and she gave me the following program for 1 week,
6/6/6/3/3/1.5/1.5 miligrams for 1 week and then stop.
When i stopped my withdrawal symptoms from Remeron got worsened , i mean like all of them , my insomnia, blurred vision,increased sensitivity to Skin , tireness ,only tachycardia got a bit better, i feel all my head all the time.
So now i am living a nightmare , all my withdrawal symptoms are there and they don't go away by time ,
I am 23 years old and i am very sad because of one obsession that i had i first went to a pdoc instead of a normal doc. It was such a fatal mistake , i can't work, i can't focus good enough , i can't have a normal life , i can't sleep normally.
Is there anyone here that has been through these meds and got through them and can live without them normally ?