Hi Manonfire...I knwo your reading so..hello....hehehe...
Hi Addictive Lovers, DA, tink, vicaddict, creek, marcie, bodybuilter, oneway, beach, minnie,FLa, and the list goes.....onnnnnnnnnnn...
Sorry to however I missed I am only going on memory of some of the names I see here...if your name isnt there.....post anyways!! We would all love to hear from you!!
Me, I wanna see how everyone is....Whats new with you all...How are you keeping...Any new things to suggest to one another...whats helping you.....do you think it can help one of us.....anyways......EVERYONE and I do mean EVERYONE ...I just want to see how you are all doing!! Please keep us posted...
i asked the other day for help w/ not taking that morning pill.
Danthorpe made some suggestions. i have began using them and so far they are working...this morning instead of popping my pill at 6am, my routine habit, i waited till 8am. baby steps :) anyways his info was very enlighting, and i've been working on it, my b/f is helping me redirect my thoughts. so i'm making progress, slowly. but for me to go from 5yrs taking a pill straight out of bed, to 2 hrs later is a HUGE step for me. tomorrow i'm shooting for 9am and so on.
and i'm on 24hrs and counting till girls are here....
hey there chica... Day 4 of my last week of tapering.. had a rough night.. took lunesta at 1am to sleep.. at 3am i was still up..so i took half a xanax.. then i slept like a baby.. feeling groggy this morning but...i slept. and the thing is i wasn't feeling that bad.. yesterday was much better that the day before..but sleep didn't seem like it was gonna happen.. hope today is a good day.. and i can drop more this weekend and then quit sunday...
Good AM...actually only 10 more mins til afternnoon! I am busy, busy , busy today....It is my daughters confirmation this afternoon and it is snowing like crazy! I'll flip if it is cancelled because my family is coming here after for dinner....been shopping all AM so if they don't come...lots of extra food...so I won't be a drug addict...I'll become a food addict, don't know if that's a good tradeoff! You would think i'd be too busy to think of the pills but I keep thinking, just one would really make this day easier!!!! Old habits die hard! I won't give in though...too much to lose.
How are you today?...Did your supplies arrive yet? I know how frustarting that must be. I'm in no rush for my dreamcatchers, whenever you have time, sounds like you are going to be a very busy woman.
Got to go...the girls only have a 1/2day because of the ceremony this afternoon so I better go pick them up!
Have a great day and take care of you! I want to keep up on your niece!
Hi friends, Well can you believe we all made it through another day on our journey? Everyone has had their issues and pain these last few weeks for sure. I am going on three days without making "the call" and I really can't beleive it myself. Thanks to your support and my e-mail friends yesterday...it came to be night and I didn't call....amazing.
Now TODAY...I have to leave the house and join the world of the living. I am going to work and I see my shrink today...divorce shrink...because I am crazy as well as addicted.
My aunt called me this am to say she is praying for me. Out of the blue...love it.
Hope you are in the good fight today! I will read now that I have posted my presence!!!
Freedom. Today I am free from narcotics, nicotine, and alcohol. I plan to be free tomorrow. These brainless substances are extremely powerful to me. I struggle with each of them because I am addicted to them.
I think, for me, freedom leads to happiness which leads to servanthood. Servanthood is my goal.
Changing from 200 to 100 wasn't as bad as from 100 to 75.
I felt so emotional, flat, sad, mad, angry, and just a whirl pool of emotion.
However, being now into my second week my energy is returning. Although I over did it a little on my bike to where I just laid around all day yesterday. But that sick feeling is gone, and I am beginning to feel human again.
I agree with the post above. If tapering works for you, thats great! Everything I type on this forum is only MY opinion. Everyone has them. All I am trying to do is tell what I have tried, and what is working for me.
I want to clear one thing up. My opinion is that tapering will NOT work IF your an addict. There are many people who are physically dependent on prescription drugs for one reason or another. For those people, tapering might work. For those like me, who are no doubt an addict, tapering will is not likely to work. The difference here is that an addict has an OBESSSION in their mind that lies to them and justifies that "one more is ok" or "I can't handle the withdraws" (the list goes on). Basically at some point in your using, you lost control to think clearly.
IF your an addict, my opinion is that you need help from someone who has been there and has experienced the solution.
IF your not, tapering will be hard, but it just might work.
Next question, how do I know if I am an addict? Well, nobody can answer that question for you. They can give you their opinion, but you have to diagnose yourself. My thoughts on that are simple, deep down you just know.
Again, these are only my thoughts and experiences.
Scott. I think your post above is cool. Serventhood. See what I realized after working the 12 steps and living in steps 10,11, and 12 is that my life is about helping others. I want to help people, I was called to help people. I look at my addiction as a blessing today. I have been blessed to go through all the pain and hurt so I can share with another person who needs to hear it.
I would like to take this opportunity to tell anyone who is afraid, who doesn't know where to turn, who is trapped by addiction right now-----there is a way out and I would be happy to share that with you. chad-***@****
David checking in... day 9, down to 2 halves from 5-8 10's. Symptoms almost gone, sleeping well, never happier! And so very VERY excited about all the progress here. As one very wise person notes - baby steps! I've decided that day 14 will be my real "first" day and I'm looking forward to it.
Funny - I've heard a lot of good & bad about tapering, and lots of people tend to describe it as not really quitting. I'm not debating it, my point was that I'm starting to feel like tapering needs a new definition. At least the tapering that I'm doing - others have their variations of course. For me though, I have always taken only the bare minimum I needed to hold back harsh w/d. A little pain I lived with. But here's the point- I HAVE NOT BEEN HIGH IN 9 DAYS. The halves I take now even with 1-2 beers doesn't do a damn thing for me mentally other than to relieve the shakes and heart race. So to me, I've been c/t from getting high since day 1.
I know several others doing tapering the same way, some that have physical ailments that make tapering more difficult. But I doubt they're getting high off the stuff anymore because of the decrease in dosage.
Well there's my checkin and a thought that's been on my mind today!
Keep strong folks- baby steps- believe you can and you will
It is so heartwarming the way people on this forum care about each other, I am so glad I found this place and knowing that many others are struggling with the same problems somehow makes it a lot easier to be in this situation. It is very inspiring to read the stories of everyone - those who are trying and those who have succeeded and still join in order to help others, thanks for being such great people. Reading and following honest stories of good and bad days, great information, encouragement and advice gives me hope that I too will be able to quit some day soon. I am still trying to taper and most days I only take 6 tramadols where I used to take 12, but I do slip up some days and give in to the temptation, unfortunately, but I haven't lost the will to try, and I have - also thanks to this forum - cut my intake in half most days, so that is something, isn't it?
Have a great day everyone and thanks for being there.
I am so happy to hear from you all...Well I have to admit something...cuz thats just me...
I went to the street today...and yep, I went and looked...lol the joke is on me....the 'dealer' disappeared...have no idea where the heck he ran off too...but either way he was gone...So I think that is just God in my path....I wanted to pick up...I tried to pick up...I just couldnt move the all and mighty powerful sooooooooooooooo today,
Im sober lol...once again..of course not by choice.....There was a time where I remember that if I wanted to get high...I would...eventually find a way...and for the most part...I did....Now, that I have been trying to quit...I removed so many people out of my life...and well look at that...made room for God and he did his work lol......Looks good on me..
Yes, Im kinda angry and did this trip all for nothing, but it was more than nothing...it was a sign...Yep.....it needed bold letters and black cuz I just didnt get it hahahaha ...anyways...yep its humours and serves me right....lol......
I'm on late and probably no one will read this but that is okay, at least I am writing!
And don't laugh! It took me since last September...but I did it!!! Talk about a slow taper!!! LOL
But I'm done....feel it's over with! Withdrawals were very limited doing the slow way but it was the best way for me. You have got to customize it to fit YOU! And when you are working with capsules, it is even harder! No shaving or cutting in half unless you buy your own empty capsules and half it that way, which I did sometimes!
Thanks to everyone in here, no matter what your circumtances, I have really learned from all...taking bits of advice here and there and putting them together to fit me! I knew I could do it but I had to "take one bite of the elephant at a time"!
Have faith in yourselves...you all can do it if I CAN!!!
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