Series of hallucinations

[goodvsevil]

I've been doing multiple drugs for a long while now and started ecstasy in the beginning of this year before I turned 18. I was on the drug longer than I had thought because I wasn't getting enough to eat and had symptoms from it for months after only doing it three times a week. I experienced the most horrible hallucinations throughout the night in which I'm in the back of a cop car and I see myself in the rear view mirror only I'm dead. I can't move and all I see around me are dead people walking around like I'm in hell already. I see people in the trees trying to throw what I remember being hand grenades at my "friends" and I. This lasted about 7 hours and I woke up from it with my heart racing I'd be wide awake and I won' be able to sleep. It seems too real to be a dream like the people were real and everything this sounds crazy but I wake up from these nightmares feeling like I just went to hell and back, literally. I've been having these dreams since then and the other night I woke up in the middle of one which has never happened before and I feel something take over my body. I don't have control over my body for at least 3 minutes and all I had on my mind was the devil or something evil and I was looking into a pair of eyes that I kept thinking was a demon for some reason but I didn't actually have control of my thoughts either, it was just a black hole. I swore up and down I was being possessed to a friend on the phone right after it happened but it was 4AM so we couldn't talk long. If I didn't have somebody to talk to I know I would have gone crazy in my room alone. I feel like something evil has taken over my body (the drugs?) every time I wake up from these nightmares. But it feels so real it drives me insane. Along with these pills I've taken I've done cid, coke, and ice within the past 5 months.

[Ella789]

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[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

There is a very real condition called sleep paralysis ...... it sounds a lot like that. I am not a Doc ... but I will go a bit further. Frequently the subconscious is thought to express itself through dreams. It sounds like you might just realize that you are in a lot of physical and psychological danger from the dope ... thus feeling like a journey to he** and back and picturing yourself dead. X has a bad habit of biting people for quite awhile after use. And it works on the happy spots in your brain so critical chemicals are depleted. Dont know what other drugs you may have been doing, but they all add up. A good method of coping with panic attacks associated with sleep paralysis would be simple breathing exercises. Breath in very deeply and fully to expand your abdomin - to the "Bhudda belly".  Do this while making a slow ten count. Then exhale just as fully to the same ten count. Make sure that you maintain good nutrition. Maybe even good vitamins and supps - If things dont straighten up you probably want to see a doctor and be honest with him............ OK  - Sorry - i just saw your last sentence..... knock off the ice immediately and forever -- nothing around it but early graves. Quit the rest as soon as possible. Yesterday wouldnt be too soon. Give your body a while to recover, but see a doctor if you think its even remotely necessary.......