Sick to Death

You have been on my mind since yesterday. I know this is day 4 for you and I was wondering how you were doing. I applaud you for going c/t and I know what you are going through. Please post and give an update, I for one care about you and your struggle. This board is really very caring and so many kind supportive people. Please put yesterday behind you and join the fight. I am on day 3 and feeling pretty awful. The bathroom is now my constant companion and while spending so much time there, I decided to decorate it once again :0). A little humor there....thank God for the rag magazines!! I now know everything about everyone in La La land. Keep smiling my dear and fight on. I want to see a post from you today.
Peace being sent your way.
Mariyah

[Mariyah2]

to all

I hope everyone is doing ok today and just making it through. They are too many to name and all in different situations. I pray for all and hope that soon your pain will be over and the bright line will be shining for you.

Lilrab...you are doing fabulous and inspire those who are just starting out. I like your positive outlook and you really are a guiding star for those who are going c/t and the people that are ready to give up the drugs.

Let us all be kind to one another and treat each person as if they were your best friend, sister, loved one etc.

I think I will join Beaches group as I feel this is something that would be so helpful to me. I understand that Beach hands out tissues for all!! I would like him to hand out choc chip cookies too or maybe some dove bars. :0) He is a man that has walked through the fires of Hell and has come out on the other side.

Marce...you are like a breath of fresh air and I love your humor. Please know that you have helped me so much.

Lizzie Lou...I just voted you Mom of the Year!!! I am so happy that you know have hope and I really think that everything is going to work out. I will keep praying for Christian and you.

Welcome to all new comers and so glad to have you here. You will find so much support.

I am so scared now and feel that I have so much to work on. I don't know if I can ever make things right again....little pity party right now. Beach? hand me a few :0)

Peace to all and love yourself today.

Always,
Mariyah

[creek]

Hey chickie.  I am so proud of you.  Thank you for the words of wisdom.  wanted to write my "two cents" too about love and support.  YOU did it elequently and I thank you.  I would have said the same things.  Its all good.  Everyone is accepted.  Just having hard times....and that is OK.  c'mon thats why we came here in the first place.

You are in the midst of it aren't you?  I am feeling you today and sending my prayers and good vibes your way.  I know I say that to those struggling, but I want YOU to know, I literally sit down and say your name and ask the universe to see what a bright and shining heart you have.  To bless your soul and struggle and make it meaningful and powerful in your life.  You have so much COURAGE and I am sending all I can your way too.

Keep posting...it helps and NEVER feel you are a burden or "too bitchy"  WHATEVER!!!   We are a family.  You are my sister.  I am just too proud for words...you are 1/2 way to one WEEK!!!  A WEEK without pills!!!!!!  You are doing this!!   You are not alone and you are in so many of our thoughts today!!!

Peace~Keep fighting this GOOD fight...for freedom.  YOUR freedom!!!

[Sick to Death]

I had a very rough night last night.  I couldn't sleep and it seemed like my legs were bouncing all over the place.  Today is actually day 3 for me and I can't stay out of the bathroom.  I just want it to get better.  I have so much to do and absolutely no energy.
Yes, that took a lot out of me with sosad yesterday.  I've never been attacked the way I was but I was expecting it.  I still believe in what I said, but I should've just said it in a less abrasive way.  And I did apologize to her many times.
Oh well, an addict never wants to hear the truth but sometimes they need to hear the truth and not be so coddled.
I am keeping a sort of journal from my morphine withdrawal so that maybe I'll be able to help others if I ever get through this.
Thanks for checking on me, Sick

[Mariyah2]

Thanks so much for that post!! You are so supportive and I really do appreciate it. I am just hanging in here and trying to not think about the pills. I am almost through the worst, I hope. How are you doing? I have missed seeing your posts in the last few days. I hope you have been getting out and doing things that make you happy :0). I think tomorrow I will go for a mani and pedi....I need a haircut too!! It is so hard to motivate myself even when I was taking the pills. It means a lot to me that you are thinking of me and sending those good vibes my way. I am sending some good vibes in your direction too!!!

I am starting to get a little sore from sitting here and think I will catch the 2:00 Lifetime movie. I watch way too much tv lately. Heee, heee I just got my rag in the mail "The Enquirer" and probably will read that too. I believe 5% of what is in there but......I just like to read them.

Be good to yourself and take care my friend.

Sending lots of peace your way.

Always,
Mariyah

[lil_rab2005]

Thank you so much sweetie for your post... you have been my inspiration and my rock when I really needed someone to talk to along with a few others but you were the very top one that always was there for me no matter what I was goin through.  Wish I would've found this place when I was on the 2nd day phewwww lol...  I got a call this mornin' from the Ramada Inn down the street for an interview... at 11am I went up and I got the job for the front desk yayyyyy... way easier than waittressing... and not around anyone with pills phewwwww lol... ttyl girlie My thoughts are with you always, Luvs ya, Lil.

[Mariyah2]

I will say a prayer you get that job!! Let me know what happens and I am sure you will impress them. I waitressed once in my life and was voted the worst waitress in Mass. I actually dumped a plate of spaghetti on a very unpleasant woman (this was a mistake, of course :0)  I lasted a whole 3 weeks and decided that it was in the best interest of the patrons and myself to quit. I always over tip because even though I did this for 3 weeks, I know how hard you break you buttsky for minimum wage. I think it would be so much fun to work at a hotel.....lots of interesting things happening.
Good luck sweety,
M

[lil_rab2005]

OMG you always make me laugh LMAO... yeah I waittressed for 4 years but had to quit a week and a half ago to get away from the drug dealers.  It's very hard work.  I got the job there at the hotel so I don't have to work half as hard anymore thank god lol... Hugs, Lil.