Sleep is getting harder

[Kelseago]

This time of day is so hard. Everyone sleeping and I can't. I've been taking sleeping pills but I really don't want to have to depend on them to sleep. I would normally go and paint in the past. I'm afraid to try it now that I'm not using. I'm afraid it won't be the same. This worries me.... I actually have to paint. I have people waiting for my painting to hang and sell. Idk what to do. It just hit me a bit ago, what if I can't paint sober?!  

[Kelseago]

Well, I did it!  I painted my first painting sober!!  I haven't decided how I feel about it yet but atleast I tried :). It's in my pics if you wanna see :)

[BrotherFrankie]

used to think i could not preach without the pills.. (wrong)

[Kelseago]

I'm gonna do it!  Gnarly, that's truly amazing about your friend!  I hope i can do the same!  I'm gonna just do something small and see how it goes :). Thanks again!

[Katrina81]

Gnarly is so correct in his infinite wisdom and advice. All you can do is try Kels. Dont let the drugs steal away the things in life you love. I know its hard but i have faith in you that you can do this and the paintings will be just as good if not better.

[gnarly_1]

HI.....we are always lulled into a sense that are ability's are greater or better under the influence......there have been many blind studies that in fact just the opposite it true
I have a friend that blows glass heis work was always good and appeared in high end gallery's all over the world but once he come off the drugs his creativity exploded
today some of his work in is the Smithsonian and his productivity is also on the rize
so go out there turn up the radio pick up your brush and go for it if you cant sleep anyway you got nothing to loose....I found sleep runs in cycles you will do ok for a wile then bam out of nowhere your back to no sleep eventually it evens itself out...paint something and put it up on your profile page I love to see your work........Gnarly      

[Kelseago]

I hope you guys are right :). I definutely have to try. I really have no other choice but to try.  Thanks :)

[dominosarah]

Oh the things you will be able to paint now.  You will notice so many things around you that will inspire you.  Get those brushes out and start in.  Have some faith in yourself.  You will be awesome!!    sara

[Kelseago]

Idk why but this really gives me anxiety. It was like a ritual... do a line, jam some tunes, and paint. What if the inspiration isn't there or it's different?  I know this shouldn't bother me this much but it does. I've listened to some of my fave bands when they were high and after they were sober. They were different, always a little disappointing. I don't know if I could handle disappointment, bot with my work.

[Katrina81]

Just go try hun. u may find it very theraputic to do something u love. being high doesnt make u a good painter. talent does ok? u just give it a try girl. it may relax u