Slipped :(

I screwed up today, not oxy but I took a perc. Instead of the usual fuzzy feeling I felt empty and VERY disappointed that I did it. All I did was prolong my misery in trying to beat this. I just wanted to feel happy but instead feel much worse. But I am determined to get this damned monkey off my back for good. I know it takes time to feel normal again naturally but I guess I thought I could just take one and be ok. Wrong. I feel anxiety and basically just down for doing it. I am not giving up though. I will just remember this crappy feeling when the next temptation hits. Its not worth it anymore. I am an addict and will not be able to "just take one". One is one too many,.

[moonshyne]

And I think I need to read PAWS a few more times until it sinks in that only time will heal my sick brain, not a perc.

[merrymaria]

you have the right attitiude...we always think oh just one won t hurt and it does hurt...when you quit you have to know you will never touch another pill...ever...keep that in mind and you will feel better...there is a saying... 1 pill is too many and 1000 never enough....the pills will never make you feel normal...no pills will but it might take awhile to feel real good.  we screw our brains and bodies up a bunch when using...hang in there...maria

[AwakenedIn2009]

Hey there, moonshyne I myself just joined this group and there is so much support and encouragement here its wonderful. I am working on just day 2 of withdrawls.  I had 1 weeks worth of 20mg oxys and 1 weeks worth of perks.  I had to flush or they would have haunted me.  Its very hard to do but also rewarding because now you have to do it.
Believe in yourself its you who matters right now. Learn to not only accept who you are or can be when your ready but love yourself because you are worth it. Believe,believe and you can do it.

AwakenedIn 2009

[corey411]

Sorry for your slip butI am so proud of you for getting on here and telling on your addiction. This is so important. We all feel like we can just take 1 more pill. That is just plain typical addict thinking. NA has the saying 1 is too many 1000 is never enough....This is so true. Learn from this and move on. You need to keep your energy positive...I know that is a tall order. Are you walking or exercising? It really helps. Always post when you are in trouble and we will be here to help you through. Keep moving forward. Corey