So familiar

[Kimby34]

It's funny. You sign on here, get an amazing support group, then when (and I say WHEN because it's happened to all of us) you relapse, you take a hiatus. You feel so guilty letting everyone down. But here I am, and 4/5 posts are titled "I relapsed" or "I did it again". And it's great to know this is a nonjudgmental forum. A safe place to help get picked up again.
I relapsed again, on Vicodin 7.5/325s. Up to about 8/day every day. Then I had a tooth extraction so added vicoprof to that.
Not cool. And I know I need to stop. I'm so miserable and irritable all the time. It's ruining my life.

[spider6]

Awww.....***** to be "three hrs. outta the loop"......but I agree with all that was said too.

"Nobody judges, everybody shares from their heart, but an addict will ALWAYS see the inevitable pitfalls and BS in another addict because we have lived it ourselves."..............uber truth here. Thank you.

@Stayingclean....hon, noble and chivalrous, so sweet.  Now we know you have a heart.......see what a great guy and friend you're going to make?.......once we get you your "brain and courage" adjusted you're going to make one fine well rounded character to take for a stroll down that yellow brick road.  Hope your journey "rocks positive" today.  You look like you work out......try expending some energy that way today.. peace :o}

love you all..........brrrrrr try to stay warm if you live "in my hemisphere"lol
hugs xo

[VICourageous]

SURRENDER!! SURRENDER! SURRENDER!!  Look at these Pills as Pure Poison. Every time one is taken it has taken that much more of your time on this earth away. Thank like Mother Nature..Put only pure things into the soul.
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
Study, study and study all you can about all these meds and what they do to the Brain/Body.
I DITTO the rest that was said!
This is a Disease and we would never turn the other cheek on helping someone heal or get better.
Bless

[clean_in_ks]

"Simple" is never "easy"......but you can do it!

[On2better]

You know you need to stop. HOW to stop seems to be your problem. Go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, help other addicts. Repeat. It's the most life changing complicated "simple" thing you can do for your recovery.

[Sonrissa]

Hi Kimby, I'm sorry to read about your relapse. I understand, I've been there so many times. I give you credit for admitting it. That being said, I agree with Rosy, Clean, and the rest. You need to hear the truth, as harsh as it may sound. It's because we care and it's so difficult to see someone struggle like this. You must make the decision and commitment to quit for good. Then, make any and every change that is necessary. No matter what. No more excuses, justifications.....  The next time, and there will be a next time, come here before you relapse and give us the opportunity to help. Reach out, instead of into the pill bottle. You can do this, but you must want it more than anything! I wish you the best. We will always support you, as long as you don't give up on yourself! Take care, and let's do this! OK?

[ROSYouralright]

Wow CIK!!! You hit the nail on the head sister! (as always)

[clean_in_ks]

Love you guys.....:))

[kyle505]

You hit it. Thanks.  
K

[ariley13]

Amen! Perfectly and beautifully said. (As usual!)

[clean_in_ks]

When you follow a person's journey.....share from your own personal experience....point out areas where a change is needed or a relapse is pretty much guaranteed...that is not pressure.....or harsh....it is LOVE!!

When someone is new to the forum and hasn't followed another person's journey....they really aren't equipped to have the same understanding as someone who has been helping, writing, listening, coaching that person all along.

Some major red flags for me when reading fellow addicts threads are defensiveness....excuses.....continuing to hide their addiction....reasons why sources cannot be totally cut off.....refusal to change playmates and playgrounds.....and an unwillingness to try something new in some form of aftercare.

The way it rolls around here....nobody judges....everybody shares from their heart.....but an addict will ALWAYS see the inevitable pitfalls and BS in another addict because we have lived it ourselves...been there done that.

It's quite interesting to read, listen and watch the reactions of each forum member to suggestions for successfully staying clean.  The ones that are honest with themselves....willing to try on a new pair of shoes because they desperately want to be free of the chains of addiction....listen to the winners.....those are the addicts who make it to the other side.

[ariley13]

If I am reading your post correctly, you relapsed before the tooth extraction, right? Then increased your usage after the procedure? We are all here for you. You know that. We are glad to see you back and posting again. You have been in this situation before and know the drill. I think you should do some serious soul searching and re evaluate your recovery plan. What are you going to do differently this time to ensure that you don't relapse again? It's just plain nuts to keep doing the same old thing that hasn't worked in the past. We all have been there, but at some point you really have to make a big change, or nothing will ever change.

[StayingClean25]

im sorry, i dont know her story or how long shes been trying to get clean.. my apologizes.

[kyle505]

Rosy - for what it's worth, I agree with you. She doesn't listen, baths in the drama, yet we keep trying. And we will. But nothing will change until Kimby takes responsibility for her behavior.
K

[ROSYouralright]

Guess what StayingClean?! Im not being mean! I relapsed in the beginning too and it took tough love to get me through! Addiction is not a joke and it can kill you! I'm not going to mince words. I have been and always will be supportive of kimby and anyone else fighting this but I stand by what I said. You can't keep doing the same things over and over and expect different results. Thats not the way this works! You have to make ALOT of serious, hard changes.

[gnarly_1]

HI and welcome to the forum it is sad for me to read when anybody relapses I know just how humiliating and discouraging that can be first hand and it can be hard to pick yourself back up again with that said you need to know there is a difference between stopping the intake and recovery, abstinence is don on will power and usually can only be done for a time for me I was able to put a few months together only to go back and  often to a place worst then before this cycle will keep repeating itself as long as you dont change to change there are a few ways the one that works for people around the world is been N/A .....start off by trying a few local meetings this will be your first step and you will no longer be doing this alone next get a sponsor and work the steps this will set you free if you give it a chance  it has worked for me and countless others once you realize that the pills are only a symptom of the disease you will be on your way to recovery I know this may sound dogmatic but it works ask anybody with a lot of clean time on this forum and you will find many work 12 step programs I know it has saved my life and my life is so much more fofilling now that I have a program of recovery please give it a try and let this be your last relapse you will feel so much better about yourself keep posting for support we all want to see you get clean
.........................................Gnarly................................................

[ROSYouralright]

Kimby, it is a place of non judgment but we are wasting our words when you won't listen. We tell you the same things each and every time and you say the same things each and every time! Im not trying to be harsh but the reality is you are going to keep going through this until YOU make some serious changes in your life!