So very depressed and confuse

[wannabefreeagain]

I stated in my other post.....Im not sure if what I am experiencing is completely just the withdrawal, I think its also menopause.  I have quit opiods b4....never....never.....have I felt like Im going crazy......this is horrible.....I know Im in withdrawal physically....Im familiar with the aches... & pains.....but I have never experienced the chaotic mental thing Im having.  Not like this anyhow.  I had the foggyness...etc.  with my all my other withdrawals, but it was not like this...I cannot get any kinda grip,...Im so distraught.  cannot face the world.....Im isolating myself....I cannot even have a normal conversation on the telephone....I am a mess.  I hate this....& I seriously believe Im losing my mind here.  I dont even know what to do.....I keep waiting for it to click.  & my thinking to get sharper, and my old self to come back.....am I mentally damaged forever???...I cannot live like this...its awful.

[dominosarah]

You are not damaged forever.  Have you thought about talking to an addiction counselor?  Right now all you are doing is focusing on the negative and it is playing hell on your brain.  You need to talk about all of this and work thru it. This is not permanent. Are you taking any vitamins?  Feed your body something good right now.  Get out and sit in the sun and get some fresh air.  You are worth fighting for.

[Kelcoo]

Read your post and feel for you. Was wondering how your doing today?

[wannabefreeagain]

Hi kelcoo.  thanks for the post, and concern.   well......I am still just here...Idk what to do.  Nothing seems to be getting normal for me. I feel doomed forever.  Im not using, but I feel like I have lost my natural mind.  Im depressed, I feel crazy.  I can hardly put my clothing outfits together to even get dressed to push myself to even attempt to do things that I have to do.  I dont want to face anyone, or anything.  This is sooooo the opposite of who  I am. I really feel like I am crazy.  I hate it. I dont know what to do. wondering if I am mentally damaged forever.

[clean_in_ks]

Another forum member gave you some "helpful" tips on your other thread as well.

[clean_in_ks]

I commented on your other thread and asked you a few questions, too.
During one day's time, it's best to just stick with one thread and keep checking it for replies.  You can add to your thread all you need to and that way we can keep better track of you.

You aren't mentally damaged forever though it feels like it at times. If you can go read my questions on your other thread, it will help us all to know more about you and be better able to respond to you.

[wannabefreeagain]

Thankyou clean, I will def. give my story shortly here..m trying to hold myself together to make it thru cooking a lil with my sons,  I tell you faking that you are okay is soooo soooo super hard.  Im doing an awful job of it too.I have soo much anxiety, and panic...its pitiful.  I dont know how much longer I can keep this front up.  omg I dont even understand why my laptop is spacing my sentences..Im too mush brained to even try to figure it out.  I feel hopeless...if jesus dont hurry up and restore my brain, Im not gonna make it.  Im ready to just give up.  No I wont be going back to pills.....I dont know what I will do....Im tired of crying and hiding...but until I can get some sense back...Im ashamed of what I have become.....this is horrific....I cant survive like this.  Its terrible.  Dear God please help me.  Im having panic attacks because I have to see my mother tomorrow.  Im most likely gonna run into my sister that I have not spoke to in couple yrs....it wont be good. especially if Im not at my best...& I am not.  This is just pitiful