Someone to talk to?

I don't really have a question. I have been taking a variety of medications and other things off and on since I was 18. I lost my mother ( my best friend) at 20 because she had abused meth and other prescription meds off and on for 11 years. Her body died before her mind was ready, so here I am going down the same road. I don't use meth or coke, however I have taken hydrocodone, methadone, kadian (morphine), and actual morphine. Not only do I want to quit for my self but I also want to save my baby. You see I am 7 months pregnant...which is the hardest thing in the world to admitt knowing that I could have hurt my baby. But I feel that after 5 months of hiding this and lying about this problem, that I can finally deal with it by admitting it out loud. This site has given me that opportunity. I have tried quitting multiple times in the past and can't ever make it past the first 4 days where I feel so alone, scared and helpless. Mostly because I can't tell any of my family or friends about it for help because i am ashamed of myself. I used to dispise mothers who drank or used during their pregnancies because I thought they were selfish, and stupid and that there was no way it could be that hard to kick a habit knowing you had a baby inside you. I was wrong. I love my son more than my own life and I have 3 months left to give him a fighting chance. I just need someone to talk to while I do this. I start tomorrow. I am really scared but my son needs me to be strong. and I need someone to hold my hand like my mom would if she was still here.
Thanks for your ear,
Aramat85

[lady67]

Oh girl, we will be praying for you and your baby.  If there is anyone you need to see it is your doctor.  It may not be safe to try just any method of quitting drugs.  You may need a special tapering system to give the baby the best chances.  If you do decide to go off, you need to have someone you love and trust stay with you.  Someone you can scream and yell at and still be friends with.  Thanks for coming and sharing your situation with us.  I have found this forum has helped me so much, and we even have fun sometimes. :)

[kim715]

I am so sorry about your situation.There are a few other woman here who are also pregnant.I don't know much about being pregnant and addiction except that it is extremely important that you tell your doctor whats going on before you do anything.All my prayers are with you and your little one.I know how hard it is to lose your mom at an early age,I was 24.There are alot of people who will be of more help to you.Stay strong hon. The people here will help you. Peace.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Have you talked to your doctor about quiting cold turkey? Might be a good idea at this stage. There is a strong possibility that it would be better for you and your child to approach this a little differently. It might be better for you to do methadone or sub or even your DOC until you deliver - if the Doc's know and you are honest with them before hand they can be ready to deal with it. This is just a possibility, but one that maybe you should consider. Quiting cold turkey is a shock to anyones system. I would think that is amplified for a newborn. Lots of good people here for support no matter what you do - several nurses keep tabs on the forum - maybe you can get an opinion from one of them? And do stay in touch and keep posting here....

[kim715]

There is an ob/gyn nurse here,1234betterlife.I think you should send her a pm before you make a decision on how to quit.I really worry that going cold turkey off of all those drugs could be really dangerous to your baby.Please speak to some professional before you do anything.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I would wait to talk with 1234betterlife. I sent her a message and she will get in touch. she has helped so many in your same place. (2 today, I think). She totally understands and will guide you through this safely.

[kim715]

I just sent her a message also.Please speak to her first.Peace.

[kim715]

!234 betterlife got the messages concerning you keep an eye on your inbox at the top right hand of page shes going to help you.Again you're in my prayers.Take care of you and that little one. Peace.