Sorry to keep bugging

[Vicotram]

Man I am really down I just feel like this will never end It seems like I will never be happy again how did you guys overcome it?

[Brandy111552]

Your post wasn't stupid. Your post is actually the answer for those of us who are somewhat spiritual. I've gone into several forum's. Not once have I read a post suggesting "Church and God" .. until today. :)

[koonamen]

this is going to sound stupid compared to everyone elses answers but... have you ever tried going to church? i swear somehow the big guy upstairs talks to you through mass. i know it helps me...not sure if you believe in that sort of thing but just a suggestion

[lady67]

Whatever you do, don't go down the ambien road.  I mean it man, that is the worst thing you can do.  I found an all natural sleep aid at walmart called, Rapid Sleep PM and it really works for me.  This is coming from a 50 mg a night ambien user for two years.  

Unfortunately even after 100 days, I still have bouts of depression, but I have just realized that I will always have it, I just learned to deal with it differently.  Instead of seeking a pill fix, I come on here and talk to my friends.  It really works for me.

[joann1975]

Hey ... I know this is hard and it sux...no it's not a cakewalk...it is worth it in the end to be clean. I would (yes, the take time to get in your system...for me i swear it was like 3days) consider getting on an anti-depressant. I take 100mg of zoloft and it helps me alot. I was on that when I did my taper so that may be what helped me w/the depression. It was still there but no so overpowering...

You can do this...keeep posting please...we are here for you to lean on and talk to!

YOU CAN DO THIS! YOU WILL MAKE IT! I know you will....I can tell how badly you want this!

[Vicotram]

I used up all the ambien on the first four days I'm wondering if that has made it worse just took some advil pm hope it works.

[sadinmichigan]

Hey my friend,...at least you care about being alive..that is nothing to laugh at ..you have my #,,please call me..Love you....Lisa

[joangy]

What are you afraid of? Are you having thoughts of harming your self? I know the depression is really hard!! If you can, try to get even a small amt of exercise. It releases natural endorphins in your brain and it can help ease the depression a little.  You are doing really good!! Keep posting- keep getting support and encouragement from the forum. If you feel scared don't be afraid to call your doc or go to the ER.

[Mandapanda17]

do you have anything that might help you get some sleep? hope you're doing ok.

[Vicotram]

I have never had it this bad I am seriously afraid

[fedup4now]

I know what you mean about the depression - I have tried to quit trams a few times, but the depression was crazy.  I had never experienced something like that before, the thoughts were not mine - It really scared me.
But now - I have to go through it again - there is no way around it - you have to go through it.  Just keep reminding yourself, that this is not you - it is the withdrawal, it will pass.  If you can make yourself walk a bit, get some fresh air - something - but keep reminding yourself why you are doing this, that you will get through it.  The folks on this forum believe in you -  you have to believe in you!  
You can do this - you do not want to be where I am at, back at the begining - you are 5 days closer to getting your life back!!

[Coolio Hernendez]

You can do it .....Your right in the heart of it now....just a little longer....

I got your back.

[dominosarah]

Your a good man Vicotram and stronger than you think.  We are all in this together so lean on us.  Thats what friends are for.          domino

[Mandapanda17]

hang in there :):) day 5 isn't that fun for some people. I felt insane trying to work on my day 5...but I made it!! Hey dominosara said she kept listening to Seether..I keep listening to seethers 'broken'...thats how my brain feels...LOL :) hang in there!! we're here for you!

[Vicotram]

I wish I was as strong as you and now I'm on stinkin day 5  again I'm sorry to herer about your depression that *****. I'm still trying but holding on for life at this point.

[Mandapanda17]

you're definitely not the only one who experiences depression later! My worst anxiety and depression have kicked in now. i'm on day 17, I guess we just have to keep trucking along, wait it out until...forever :):) and know that these symptoms will get better over time. time heals all...its a horrible waiting period, but I KNOW we can both make it there! you're doing so good, so proud of you!! hang in there and stay strong!!!! :)

[dominosarah]

Dont apologize for anything.  You are not bugging anyone my friend.  I felt better physically after a week or so.  Mentally it took longer.  Maybe you could check with the doc and see what he says.  I know the antidepressants take awhile to get into your system but it would be a start.  As i have said before i listened to music all the time.  I listened to Seether "rise above this" everyday about a bazillion times and sang out loud!!!!  Actually thought i sounded like them at one point!!!!!  Keep posting no matter what you are feeling.  You are not alone here.   Stay strong          domino

[broknbck]

even if you were to start taking an anti-depressant, they still can take a couple of weeks to kick in. and you are going to be past the worst by then.

my doctor started me on Cymbalta before i started the tapper. and i think it did help because i was not as depressed as in the past when going without. but it did take 2 weeks to start working. and then of course it is another drug to get off of. But it was not even noticable tappering off of and quitting it.

[Vicotram]

Around 26 or so days clean is the record for me. Thats why I can get through the physical. It's the mental I don't know if it's just me that gets the depression but I see others after 5,6,7, days saying I feel so much better with just a few symptoms and I'm happy for them but start to think somthing is wrong with me and it will never end. I saw you had depression 30 days I don't know if I can get that far on just gut's I start wondering should I be on andi D's or somthing else I just dont know.

[gizzy32]

it's very scary, do you mind if i ask what is the longest you have made it clean? and i don't like your title here, lmao. your not bugging anyone, it's great your posting:)

[Vicotram]

Thanks  5 depending on how you look at it acording to the tracker 4. I feel like I'm losing it it's just that hopless feeling I know I have said it before I have never been depressed before this is some scary **** I hate it.

[K Todd]

I know time seems to just stop, and barely move when we are in pain and suffering! I know....but as you know, an many of us have told you, it will get better!!! Just keep trying to focus on your future plans and not your present sufferings...also, try posting to others and help give them support...it helps take your mind of your sufferings..

Your doing great...its hard, but we have to do this do get our life back!

Hang in there brother !!!

PM me anytime! Keep on fighting with all you got, and dont let that drug ever rule your life again!
God Bless,
Todd

[gizzy32]

Are you on day 5 now Vicotram?? For me overcoming my addiction was pure hell, torture and i wanted to die at first, i really did. it sounds awful, but the truth. i overcame it, by sticking to my plan no matter how hard, how depressed or how angry i was at first. i think if you can get some significant clean time under your belt you will feel better. truth is, this is probably the toughest thing you have ever had to do, but it can be done with some hard work and determination. i really hope you start feeling happy again soon. hang in there man. sorry this advice *****, but it's very difficult getting clean at first, but sometimes you have to crawl before you walk.