Well after 5 months clean and a continuous cycle of bad anxiety for about one week out of every month I finally went with my doctors advice and started Lexapro today. I really feel like if I can break the cycle for a couple of months that I can put these god awful PAWS cycles behind me. I know I've had discussions on the side with a lot of folks on here (some who are on it and some who are thinking about it like I was) and for those of you who want to know more I'll be keeping a journal on it (probably out of my tracker). The weird part is that I'm just coming out of a down cycle now so I would be probably OK anyway for at least 2 or 3 weeks anyway till the next one hits. I swear it seems to follow the cycles of the moon.
Anyway, if things are going well for the next week or so I might be a little light on the posting but I'll jump back in around the time that it "should" be coming back and I'll post about any side effects I might be feeling along the way.
I feel pretty good about the decision generally but I still hate the idea of "needing" a pill to feel "normal". Even if it is just temporary (hopefully).